It didn't take long to show what an arrogant ass you are... again. Well shame on me, I never learn.
All my brain is ... is what if thoughts what if this what if that obsess worry worry obsess over and over again and I feel no one understands
You know the fabric used in winter coats that is thick, matte, not slippery and attracts dust? I have no idea what it's called but I hate the sound it makes. It sounds the same as grinding your teeth feels! The slippery fabric that is used in other winter coats is also pretty awful but not quite as annoying.
Everything annoys me today. I'm tired, my head and back hurt, I'm constipated, I feel like there's lightning inside my head because I lost my medication and got prescribed to a new one, I have a song stuck in my head and I can't concentrate on anything, MY EYES WON'T FUCKING FOCUS, meat tastes disgusting (why the fuck did I buy the thick ham cold cuts in the first place?) I feel like swearing if I hear a noise from outside or if I drop something but I also hate the sound of swear words so I can't. On top of that, I'm supposed to go pick up a package today and that means going outside. Whenever I go outside the wind will hurt my ears even though I'm wearing a hat, I'll sweat because my jacket is too hot but without jacket it'd be too cold. I feel like punching everything I see today.
I hate living with my parents
I have realized I dont not like toddlers after I had a child and now I'm not looking forward to my son being 3..
Intrusive thoughts haven't bothered me for a couple weeks... until today. My brother is sleeping over at my place and I'm getting incestuous images in my mind. I'm worried that I'll say or DO something weird to him in my sleep even though that's probably unlikely.
Everything dies. Plants, animals and even our sun will burn itself out in due time. But our fear is still there. And the pain we feel when we expirence loss. Life is about living in the now. Love yourself and your family. Its hard when you feel everythings aginst you but you just have to make do off it.
This lady that sits near me at work was irritating me last night. She got a customer who's Asian and kept interrupting her. When she got off the call she kept bitching about "the oriental woman" she couldn't understand. It annoys me when customers bitch about another agent who had an accent. But it straight pisses me off when it's a coworker saying that about a customer. I get if you're having a bad day or you're just a bitch in general, but don't be racist. If I get a customer I can't understand, I blame it on the phone not coming in clearly when I ask them to repeat something. And if a customer really pissed me off I try to wait until I'm in my car on break to let it out. Or just angrily scribble on a notepad. I didn't say anything to that lady because I didn't want to start anything and I didn't know if it was bad enough to take it to a coach. I just hope she gets moved away from me soon or gets fired. She was also talking to a new person about why this job sucks so maybe she'll quit.
I'm a guy and I think about buying a dildo with a dick shape to give a blowjob. I loathe sucking a real dick though.