i can't even confess in this app thinking its gonna be exposed one day
I worked at 10 hour shift yesterday. On my feet, tired, cold and hungry i get on the train for an hour ride home. Drunk white guy gets on, stinking and falling asleep and almost falling of his seat. All the other white passengers realise whats going on and come to his assistance. Waking him up when he almost falls off the chair, making sure he doesnt lose his phone which keeps slipping out of his hand, joking with him about how "he must have a been celebrating". When it gets to his stop, they help him off the train. The carriage is now stinking. A few new white passengers get on, notice the smell and I, the only brown skinned passenger get glared at and looks of disgust about the smell which they assume HAS to come from me. Perfect example of White priviledge.
I took a sharpie to my school's bathroom wall today. The vice principal was being an asshole, as she usually is to literally everyone at my school, and I pretty much wrote that she should go fuck herself. It will probably be painted over by tomorrow. Fine by me. Needed to get this off my chest real quick.
Dreamt about my ex again. It's been 5 years and I still fall for it. These days are the worst.
How can i stop thinking about him? I tried meditating... Did nit work. He pops up all the tike, and my heart trembles.. I need him to be gone!
When someone i hate tells me that i will never be good at something i get so frustrated, that if you would give me books right there i would actually study it untill i am not at last half as good as person i hate
I hate my dad. He may pay rent and food but he never tought me anything and he doesn't even let me lough :(
I wonder how it took me 2 months to write 5761 words for my proposal and just an hour for 1028 words of fictional bullshit
**Warning: Explicit** I confess that my boyfriend is way more into anal sex than I am. I mean I love taking dick in my ass, and even fucking him in the ass, but he's really into like... eating ass, which I'm not into. I let him do it to me because it gets him so turned on, but I refuse to put my tongue on his asshole. I can't do it. I won't do ass to mouth with his dick, I won't lick his fingers after they've been in my ass. It smells gross, it's gross. And he's really into farting, too. Which I don't have a problem with, but I can't make myself fart in front of people. I've peed myself trying. Our sex life is still great and our relationship is great, but to be honest, I feel bad that I can't fulfill these needs for him. I wish I was into it, I wish I could do these things for him. But I am actively turned off by it.
I'm afraid, I couldn't make it in time. I am just at the beginning of my thesis and I have to finished it before april. I just... I don't know.. I am afraid I'll end up disappointing more people, especially the people I love