I feel like, I've been inside my house for too long (almost a full month without seeing anyone). I want to go out, but I don't want to. So... yeah. That's my live now
The mean and/or embarrassing things I've done social situations in my life come to my mind more often than I'd like. Every day, several times in an hour. It's uncomfortable, feeling regretful or embarrassed so often.
I'm fucking tirreeeeddd bitjjjhh😈
to the people who think that a girl must not have actually been sexually assaulted 'because if she had, she would of ____" are part of the reason why there is no justice and now everyone thinks that all guys are victims of false accusation claims. yes, there are some false accusations, I won't pretend it doesn't happen. but you don't know what kind of emotional trauma sexual assault can produce, you don't know how you would react until it happens. sure before it happened to me I used to think 'why wouldn't they have reported it right away?' 'why not get a rape kit' 'there's no way someone who was sexually assaulted who would still be around their aggressor after it happened'. but these are just not true. the truth, is that everyone reacts and feels differently about the situation, everyone's aggressor meant something different to them. in my case it was someone I cared about and was very close to. sometimes I think it would of been easier to report if it had been a stranger, but realistically there are so many women who don't report those either, so maybe not. now in my case, i'm still friends with the guy who did it... yes I see him on a regular basis and we still hangout. sounds like i'm making it up now doesn't it? I know what it looks like and that's a huge reason why I can never report it. him and his gf at the time when it happened, made me feel as if it never happened, that I made it all up. and yet I know it happened, because it wasn't just once. and I also know he used to rape his gf as well, but they were dating it isn't rape, right? she stayed with him for almost 2 years and if I had to guess probably got sexually assaulted at least 50 times. because she never said no. because she would be half asleep or drunk and she couldn't. is that a normal response? to stay with someone for so long. then when it happens to another girl, you still take his side and make her feel worthless? no, not really. to a court that would look like BS. but when u care about someone, when they manipulate you into thinking he did nothing wrong and no one would believe you. you do some weird stuff. so don't judge someone because u may never know what really happened, only they do and their potential aggressor. that's why rape and sexual assault is so hard to convict. because it's intimate, often no witnesses. it's all he said she said unless a rape kit is performed within the time frame. but unless there are sure signs of force or semen, it won't work and with certain sexual assaults, force isnt always obvious. nor do all aggressors ejaculate. so as I said. you may never know what happened, so just cuz it sounds unreal, doesn't mean it is
Some people need to grow up and don't touch others sensitive areas.
After 6 years of being together and finally getting a house. My fiance cheated on me with a coworker. After we broke up and they officially got together, her and I still lived together and she cheated on him with me twice. Not much for messing with relationships nor do I condone cheating, but fuck you both! Haha!
my mom is constantly on my case about my weight and money i'm spending. i'm oneof the most tight wad people in my life and yet every time I buy something, it's "you're wasting ur money again?" "why would u spend on that" "you're supposed to be saving" meanwhile she owes me 10k and my dad is an addict so they spend on much stupider things. then the weight thing. telling me I need to lose weight. stop eating junk food, i'm gonna get fat, etc. but then I join a gym this week and she went on for 20mins about why I would join a gym, i'm busy enough as it is, I don't have time to waste my money on a gym. oh my fuck like shut up. nothing I ever do is right.
I hate it when someone on the Internet mocks me for not understanding that what they said was a joke. I mean, we're using a written medium here with no tone of voice to listen to! Plus, they didn't even use emojis to compensate for that. So how the hell was I supposed to know!?
I fucking hate April Fool's Day. I don't know why it's a "holiday". Whatever it started as, it's now just a day for people to see what lies they can get away with and what shitty "pranks" they can pull. It's just a day to be mean. And for people like me who can't tell when people are joking or being serious, and people with social anxiety, this day is hell. I have to stay off the internet and avoid people entirely because I can't trust anyone not to lie to me. But I can't avoid work, and I'm dreading it. My coworkers especially like to mess with me because they know I can't tell when they're being serious. It pisses me off. It's so draining.
I think it's stupid that people download porn in this day and age. What's the point? I have never wanted to rewatch a specific video, it's always like "oh... I've seen this one." and I get bored. Why save it? It just takes up space and poses the risk of someone finding it.