I keep having flashbacks that happened a year ago. I was angry because these peopls attacked me and thinks all I did was all I have done wrong. In a random times of the day I just have a sudden flashbacks and it stops me from doing all the things I am doing. It's hard because I'm too hurt and too angry and I don't understand why I can't let go. I just want to revenge on them and make their lives miserable. But I can't. I tried going to the therapist but all she did was make me feel guilty that I was late for my appointment or something. Little things and it's not helping that I'm just dealing everything on my own. Idk anymore what to do. I want these people's lives miserable. I feel weak, I feel depressed and anxious. I am most of all angry of this world.
I can't living like this, I'm fucking isolated from the world my whole life I've been homeschooled my sister has been homeschooled since middle school. I've never had a friend beside family (and I don't really count that) in my WHOLE 12 years of living. also me and my sister NEVER leave the house, a FUCKING PRISONER gets more outside time than US. we're inside at least 78% of the time, especially during the winter not only that let's say we do get to go somewhere like, the park, restaurants the mall, than that means MY PARENTS ARE SHOVED UP MY ASS THE ENTIRE TIME. Their is no "going to a place by yourself" because my dad keeps reminding me that this City USED TO BE the murder capital, Jesus Christ if your going to have a child AT LEAST let them have normal human interaction and my dad keeps promising me "oh no, it'll get better!" "don't worry, you'll have friends someday." I've been hearing this for about 9 years. imagine hearing people say stuff like "lmao I have no friends." while knowing about how you literally cannot have friends. Maybe you're thinking "well than, why do you have a e-mail and this app if your parents isolate you so much?" I had to go behind there back just like my sister did to have social contact! I made a account on unsafe kids chat websites and did things I wish I didn't just because I was a lonely piece of shit. At this point I'm surprised that I don't have depression or some other thing with the way I've been brought up (sorry for all the bad grammar and cursing)
i need a vehicle but terrified of riding motorcycles again... i had a big crash and ptsd from it years ago.. now i need transportation i cant live like this, i cant afford uber at all.. i need a job of some kind but i dont have i am sad sad sad sad sad sad
I don't understand how a McDonald's can fuck up a McChicken and undercook it even though I'm the only person there and that's the only thing I ordered.
just deleted tinder im too ugly to be using that
when my friend invites me over to hangout i dunno what i should do even tho i wanna hangout there i feel like its annoying to be there all the time especially cuz he has a brother too who is my friend but not as much so i dunno maybe i should just make the bed upstairs in the ''gym'' instead of in the entrance couch i guess it would be less annoying, but if i switched now, i already sleeped like 3 times there lol and i just learned my friend had sex on his gym mat where i would otherwise sleep so i cant switch now that i know this, i could make it super clear by flippin the mats since theyre the same color or i could just stay in the couch and feel annoying and a nuisance ... or like im there maybe they feel they have to smoke non stop lol i dunno and they always offer food i dunno if i should just eat how i want to or idk like i dunno i dunooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo anything about having friends i am not socialized at all i want to cry im a 25 yr old boy all other boys my age are hyper socialized and got girlfriends why am i so weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeirdddddddddddddddd nooooooooooooo someone plss helppppppppppppppp
I'm still in love w my wife, but have been in a relationship w another woman for over a year. #lezprobs
I am anorexic-bulimic. its terrifing!!
I hate anime. It's weird and disgusting. We literally bombed Japan and in exchange we got cartoon abominations of little girls.
There's one guy that gets on my nerves and if I do I little mistake or error, he'll will start calling me names and even harass me in front of others. He will brag about how great of a man he is and how a worthless piece of trash I am. Jeez old man, if you don't like someone, just simply don't look at them in the face and get on with it!!! Should I start fighting back this old grump??