Growing up, i always hated myself coz of wat other pipo said about me, especially my family. i was considered worthless, picked on, my dad knocked me around. i considered death as my only escape route and attempted suicide several times. at one time i swallowed a number of sleeping and hoped never to wake up. But ever since i started living on my own, i feel better n that's why i always dodge any family gathering or even meeting a relative 'cause i am afraid they still look at me the same way they looked at me back then.
ive become victim of some cyberbullying, i guess i shouldnt have shared information about me, but still its sad how dark people are, they wouldn't show their faces because they think badly of themselves. they say terrible things about my skills, but i know im good. i want to film some sparring and show them how it actually works, they are all a bunch of sad luke tomas watchers who never seen the inside of a gym
I'm a fucking idiot and hate myself for it
i just overheard my mum saying that if a girl dresses revealingly they deserved to get raped...WHAT THE FUCK 😀
i'm moving out to rent a room with some random family in their house, its not a pension or anything, im worried that it's gonna be really weird and theyre gonna judge me everyday worse than my family does and be annoying as hell... i want to be alone a lot especially renting a room, i dont want to be interacting with them a lot.. i dont like talking to strangers.. also, the ad for the room said ''room for straight or gay men'', like, why would they mention in the ad the sexuality of who theyre looking for? its just weird to me... if i was renting a room i dont want to know what ur into, plus im not allowed to bring guests anyway so why are they specificing this??? im worried that its some creeps who are looking for gay guys and are gonna hit on me :///
MISS NA MISS NA KITA KENNETH BAKIT MO KASI AKO INIWAN TANGA TANGA MO.
I barely ever cry to anything so the fact that i cried like a little bitch the second i feel like someone finds me too annoying/too much for them, is concerning. shit got me questioning if I'm a good person or if I'm ever just going to be enough for someone or i ever going to be wanted for once . ugh shutup i hate myself
one of my toxic traits is probably not knowing when to stop being annoying, my personality mixed in with my sense of humour can be too much for some people to the point where i would always have to tame myself down to level with everyone else. they say to be yourself but wtf does that actually mean and why are you lying lol.
I find it funny some of the people being nasty and making people feel like shit for not wearing a mask are the same ones that are pro-abortion... apparently killing a child is your body your choice with an argument of "what if someone gets raped" (less than 1% of abortion btw are for this reason) but it's no longer your body your choice when it comes to wearing a mask that has a CHANCE of someone dying (insanely small chance. especially based on the area) and the argument "what about those with medical conditions or trauma that can't wear them" isn't valid enough an excuse not to wear one because "it's such a small percentage of people with real medical issues"... pretty damn sure there's more people with asthma other lung issues, ptsd, panic attacks, chlostraphobia etc. than there are people getting abortions from rape. pick your argument, is it valid excuse or isn't it? is it your choice or isn't it? can't be a shitty human being towards someone who chooses not to wear something that is controversial on it even working in the first place but then think abortion is a right not to be infringed upon.
I hate the man I lay next to every night. woah he would disappear forever