I hated her so much yet I loved her so much. Thinking of catching her on the bed with a guy sunk my heart, felt like a million spears just went through my body. All the love, consideration, affection, sex, etc she gave me was all a wall? I don't think so. When she was with me, I felt what pure love was like. it was that pure and every moment I see her, I tell myself that this is it I found my mate for life. After I broke up the day after this incident, she happily went with this guy. What was she doing all these times with me? Playing? I don't know. There wasn't a single bad thing that i could find with her. She helped me a lot in every fucking thing I know. She made my depression and anxiety go away like cleaning my nose. Enough saying good about her. She died in a car accident with her new boyfriend, straightaway colliding into a truck. The car looked like it got vaporized into thin air. I don't know what to emotionally feel now. I've been sitting on the edge of my bed for the past 4 hours doing nothing but staring at the floor tiles with a calm face. What is wrong with me....
I fell in love with the perfect person for me, but one of her best friends is to open around her and I want to hurt him. I doubt she would ever do anything, but I don't trust him at all. Am I right to want to hurt him?
My boyfriend and I were separated the last 2 weeks because of his job. It was the first time in our 3 years together that we didn't see each other for more than a day - I know how crazy that sounds, but we're just really close. We were really sad about it and saying how we couldn't wait to be together again... But the past week I've noticed that I was as calm as I hadn't been in a long time. I slept way better. I did so many things I used to love and partly had to give up for him, and it felt so great. I enjoyed it more than I'd like to admit, but I have to admit it, because I'm so lost - I love him deeply, but seeing how great it was without him got me thinking if I should break up with him. Or if it just felt so great because it was something different than usual, and would quickly bore me again and I'd want him back. I don't know.
I tell myself and people that relationships are unnecessary but really I want someone to cuddle with me, play with my hair, and kiss me
My boyfriend had an epileptic seizure once, and the doctors couldn't find out what was the cause. He didn't have any problems since, but it still fucks up his life a bit. He can't drive, scooba dive, had to quit his job because he isn't allowed to work on heavy machines, can't go swimming without someone strong enough to rescue him if needed... all just in case it comes back suddenly. I know he's the one suffering, but sometimes - even though I feel bad about it - I feel like I can't be with him with all those restrictions.
I just keep on coming here, read here and there, I just can't help to cure this addiction.
I truly truly wish I had never met my crush. I have spent so many wasted hours..days...weeks thinking about her and I'm sure she hasn't wasted a single second thinking about me. I don't go looking for love, I can't handle it in my life right now, I have a task to do and I wish I had never gone into that building, into that room and met her. It hurts to know I had a choice to go somewhere else but I turned it down because I thought it might be better for my career if I went there. Now my world is upside down and I can't even do my job properly.
Fine. I made a confession about you. Now shut up, brain.
my boyfriend is away for the rest of summer and I'm afraid I'm going to get quiet and depressed again..it's already starting.
that "i miss you" hug is worth the wait♡♡♡