I tried to fit in your life but I couldn’t, I don’t belong where you belong
he said he loved me, that he wanted to be with me. i believed him again and he broke my heart. how can you fix a broken heart??
I have been lying to my girlfriend of 6 years, telling her that i am feeling better about myself and confident when I am not. I have been pushing myself to be comfortable around her when I can't be anything about insecure. she knows I used to selfharm and helped me to stop and think differently, but recently I have been doing it again and lying to her saying I haven't. I'm thinking of just ending the relationship and moving away, I don't want to hurt her anymore.
God fucking damn it. I finally thought I was over him, I even started a new relationship I'm so happy in... and he came back and crushed my heart again right as I glued in the last piece from when he shattered it last time. He was the first person I ever truly loved, the only ex I ever wanted back, but now that it's too late he's trying to sink his claws in me again. Fuck. Why can't he just move on and stop toying with me? I hate that he still has so much power over me after all this time. Why am I still so weak for him?
when your husband is having way more sex with his phone, porn, himself and his toys than you. Even when you're putting so much effort to do things trying to satisfy him, many way way out of your comfort zone. Is feeling like he prefers solo, I'm not good enough, and our relationship is extremely one sided also feeling like I'm not respected as well as feeling I'm totally irrelevant normal? or am I overthinking and my feelings way off base
I really like this dude but one of my friends whom i secretly Hate also likes him and now i get to work with him on a project and im gonna try and make him mine but she doesnt know it!
I met this guy 3 years ago the sec he saw me he fell in love with me according to him but I thought he was just kidding so I considered him just a friend and whenever he flirts or flirted with me I would just flirt back for fun , joke, and play around but nothing intimidating bcs I believe to kiss and have sex only with 1 man my whole life and nor even date. years passed and now this guy he would say he still likes me and he is soo sensitive and moody but he always know how to make it up to people and we have same groups of friends. So this BESTFRIEND of mine whom I met 5 years ago and considered her as a sister and family turn out to be a snake and jealous of me all this time. At first when ever I would like any guy she would give negative comments and then later go and flirts with him but despite all this she was always jealous of how this guy loved me she was jealous of how I was always getting love and attention from boys when I wouldn't even try or ask for it . whereas she would socialize and even be the first one to talk to them. So during summer holidays of this year when I had a small argument with this guy since he is moody and sensitive he doesnt talk for few days and then comes around back so when we had a fight my best friend she made a plan to break us off . (* we weren't dating but I do like him but just bcs I don't wanna have anything intimidating or relationship and only give all my love officially to one guy I didn't accept his feelings .) she made a plan to make us hate each other so she said negative things abt him to me about what he felt about me to her and abt me to him so after she succeeded in her plan she acted as a great friend and was there for him and seduced him and flirted with him and when I found out all this from one of my other friend I couldn't believe my ears and I was heartbroken . So I confronted this guy and his response was he was just being "friendly" bcs she was there for him . I didnt confront my best friend but I did give her signs that i know what she did. I dont have the courage to confront her not bcs I can't but bcs its just soo stupid to me to even talk abt it I feel guilty and disgusted to even mention it so I just let it go it's been 3 months since that. and this guy he started ignoring me after 2 weeks of confrontation and ignored me for 2 and half months and yesterday he texted me saying sorry for the way he behaved and during this time since we all have same groups of friends I hangout only with other people except my bff and this guy . so there was this boy who is bff of this guy . this boy is generally the joker of the team and whenever he would see me zoned out and depressed he would cheer me up and make me laugh and I would always call him son for fun and bro all the time but yet he started liking me now too ... and he is mad at me now bcs this other guy he is talking to me again .he doesnt say it he just starts behaving mean and stop smiling and talk. And intentionally go and hangout with this other guy and sarcastically joke around .
I like this guy and he loves me too but bcs of age difference I felt ashamed to accept him so I never accepted his feelings officially other then that we would be flirting for fun and joke around and play but nothing intimidating cuz I have this crazy mindset to only kiss and have sex with one man my whole life . So it's been 3 years since we both have been friends and he have confessed to me but I love him but I cant accept the fact to accept him as my bf bcs I dont wanna date even . So this best friend of mine whom I always considered as a family and sister she was always jealous of how boys loved me and liked me even when I wouldn't give them what they need and she would so she took the chance this year during our summer holiday when I had a fight with this guy and said lies to both of us and she seduced him and flirted with him so this guy and me we didnt talk for 1 month and after when I found out about my friend's plan I was devastated and heartbroken I couldn't believe my ears and i texted this guy and ask him if this was right . he said that he was just being "FRIENDLY" and he didnt do anything but bcs if my feelings I let it go and to my friend I didn't confront her until now and it's been 3 months. And this guy he was guilty I could see it but bcs of my desperate feelings i forgave him and after 1 week he started ignoring me completely. He wouldn't talk and always avoid me whenever I would talk to him . So after 2 and half months of ignoring he started talking to me again yesterday apologising that he is sorry for behaving that way . during this 2 months and half I tried to talk to him and asked him what's wrong y r u behaving this way he would just leave . And now his bff likes me bcs while I wasnt talking to my bff and this guy I was hanging out with other groups of people and in there was his bff and now he likes me and gets mad at me when ever this guy talks to me . He dont say it he just starts behaving zoned out . I didnt flirt with him nor even give him hope I would even call him for fun son or bro sometimes yet ... he likes me
Sex, sex and sex. That's all I can think about, even when I'm not in the mood.
I hate that I love him. Circumstances will never allow us to be together. I hate that I have to lie to him. He is sexy, funny, and a fantastic lover. Fuck... why couldn't I have met him 20 years ago?