I fuckin absolutely hate how most it hurts feeling you've hurt someone that many everything to you even after that continued to do the same shit to hurt you! but must be the vodka chugging bipolar talking
Only when I stop to think About you, I know Only when you stop to think About me, do you know? I hate everything about you Why do I love you? You hate everything about me Why do you love me? 3DG
I was thinking about loving myself pr self love and notice so many you inside of me, I just don't know to be happy or not because I probably will still end up love you more than me.
as much as try I can't hate you tondo so would be hating my heart my soul. I hate the way you treated me. I wish I could hate you hating you would be hating a part of me.
He's everything I want everything I need he means nothing to me because he'll never be you
I don't think I can do this any more. it hurts so fucking much I can't stand it. I hate this empty feeling that is growing bigger inside me each day . I don't want to live life without you by my side
when I worked at Amazon I had sex in the restroom with the girl. now each time time we see each other we feel each other up. she even took a video of her using a dildo in the restroom. then she washed it an out it back on the shelf. eventually we both got fired. so glad I met that 18 year old girl.
I know you say you hate me and that you're pissed off at me I get that you have every right to be. if you don't want to be in a relationship with me anymore I understand. one thing I would like to ask is a if we could be civil with each other at least long enough to go park down by the river and fuck each other's brains out one last time you know this cocks the best you've ever had and I love that little pussy of yours so what do you think One Last Time For Old Times Sake?
Even though I'm young I've always been very mature and self-centered, there was a time in which I could say without a doubt that I loved myself. That's not the case anymore. Last year I went through a hard deppresive state, thankfully I'm better now, but the insecurities and anxiety keeps punching me every night. I'm always looking for validation of others. I feel ugly and I want people to tell me that I'm good at something to feel better with myself. Also, I confessed to a guy that I liked, he explained that he didn't want anything serious. I knew that I shouldn't kept things that way, but I did. So literally he played for a night stand and never talked to me again. I feel so angry with myself for that, I knew it would happen and I knew it would hurt, but again I wanted to feel accepted one more time. I don't know what to do now, there is a part of me that knows how valuable I am, but it just cannot fulfill my wanting to feel loved and appreciated. My friends always talk to me asking for help, with really hard life struggles and I don't want to go there explaining my egotistical problem because they are going through a lot and my problems will never resemble. I just want to love myself again.
TL;DR: how do I know if I'm asexual or really terrified of intimacy, or both? So I know this might be a weird question, and because of this I'm posting it on here lol. I'm a 21 year old girl, and I have never been attracted to anyone. Other than having a crush in third grade, I do remember having feelings for a high school teacher once, but it was very confusing because I kinda wanted him more as a father figure (daddy issues), so I don't know if that was an actual crush... But other than that, I have never thought of someone in a romantic way or was interested in dating. I feel weird about never having been attracted to anyone, and every time it gets brought up, people tell me it's basically not possible that I have never been in love, or don't have an image in my mind as to what my potential partner should be like. Now, if this was the only side to the story, it would be easy to say that it has to do with sexual orientation, but thing is, I'm terrible with interpersonal relationships in general. I only have two friends, and even these friendships are hard for me to keep, not because of lack of desire but rather because of my avoidant personality disorder. But anyways, I don't feel like I'm in need of love. It's just that not having been in love makes me feel like a weirdo. On a bad day, I might wish for a relationship thinking that being comforted, supported and cared for by someone would make things better, but that's pretty much it. So if anyone has similar experiences, I would love to feel less alone. Also I would appreciate some thoughts and advice from you guys. And sorry if my thoughts are all over the place. I've been trying to write this confession for half an hour, and this is the best I can do. Sorry if it's terrible, but I hope it at least makes some sense.