It's one of those nights where it really hits me how badly I want to be loved. But I don't even know how to love someone - it has to go both ways. So it feels like a selfish wish.
I'm tired of getting my heart broken. I'm starting to think there really just isn't anyone out there for me, and I'm just going to have to go through life alone.
I've had a grudge against my father since many years. It's because of how aggressive he gets when he's angry, how easily he gets angry (and very inconsistently... one day something makes him rage, next day he says that the thing is totally okay) and because he rarely considers other people's opinions or takes advice from them, thinking he knows best. I don't know what to do about my own anger for him or whether it's even reasonable to be so upset. Pushing my anger away didn't work... It started to resurface during last year. But I don't want to talk to him about this because I'm really scared of him. I guess deep down I'm worried that he'll dislike me if I speak against him. I've noticed that he favors my brother and me (I'm a girl btw) over my sisters, and I think it's because my sisters don't hesitate to show it when they disagree with him. My brother and I are more avoidant about our concerns. I think it's really wrong that father is so unfavouring towards my sisters just because they say what they think. But I can't bring myself to do the same as them because I'm terrified of his anger. And I don't know if I should feel any of this anger and fear but I can't make them disappear.
After coming to the realization that I can't have him... I don't really want anyone at all. I know this just sounds edgy and dramatic, but what I mean is, I really have no desire to even have a partner at this point. Not because I'm butthurt about not having him. I just... don't have the urge to be in a relationship. I'm kind of content on my own. Like of course I'm sad I didn't get a chance with him, but now I'm realizing that I don't really need a partner. I'd like sex (and more importantly, kisses and cuddles), but I don't want to deal with the emotional energy that relationships take. At least... not right now.
I spent the night with my boyfriend and when I woke up this morning he was sitting on the edge of the bed looking out the window at the thunderstorm going on outside. I love thunderstorms, so it was a really pleasant thing to wake up to. Then when he turned around and saw that I was awake, he said good morning and started running his fingers through my hair. It was so nice and so calming that I accidentally fell back asleep for a few minutes, so he decided to wake me up by kissing me. Then I got on top of him and laid my head on his chest. I could hear his heartbeat and we just stayed like that for a while. I don’t know. It was just lovely.
I need sex real bad. Not fucking though. I need a sexual dominant but sweet woman.
i really need a sub girlfriend
I've been without my mom for six years. Her favorite roses were coral roses. The first year i lost her i was in the store and started crying and i looked over at this rose stand. All the flowers were red and pink, except the ones right next to me. They were coral, i looked all aroumd to see if i could find more. But there wasn't just the ones facing me. I was comforted. Today at a store, I was shopping and thinking of how i loathe mothers day. Just standing there thinking and i looked over and saw coral roses right next to me. Again none of the others were coral. I love you mom, Happy mothers day!
scared i'm losing my bf... we've been together for over 3 years. it's been amazing. we've been planning to get married and we just bought property. but the last couple weeks he started smoking up a lot where before he didn't. maybe once every couple months at a party or something. now it's every day and he' buying more paraphernalia. it started with him saying it helped him sleep a few times, but he didn't need it, he only did it "a few times" then when I noticed it was almost everyday I mentioned that he said he wasn't going to do it so much. I grew up with an addict I wasn't gonna be dealing with it. he assured me it isn't an issue. but then tonight he comes home and had been smoking while he was driving and he had already smoked up this morning and didn't even go to sleep. but nooo still not a problem to him, he's defending it. then there's the fact that he's irritable. everytime I say or do anything somehow it starts a fight. i'll ask a question or say how my day was and he gets annoyed with me or angry and it starts a fight... then today. i only had a 5 hour shift at work and he was off. we could of spent time together. instead he hungout with one of his "friends" this girl who tried to break us up when we started dating. they haven't talked in a couple years and now all of a sudden he's talking to her on facebook almost daily and now he's spending all day with her.... I just him. I do. but I don't trust her. and really with the way he's been acting i'm not even sure if I know who this is anymore.
So some younger unmarried male associates of mine are asking, "Where do you meet a good woman?" This app has a lot of young women on it, so I thought I'd ask you. What do I tell them? Disclaimer: Good means: At least a 90+ IQ. At least a 5/10 in looks. Not some bottom of the discotech used up alcoholic. Actual wife material. What would you recommend?