I'm going to write my thoughts down here just for the sake of getting them out of my system and getting more insight in my own feelings: 8 years ago I was 17 and I met a guy I immediatly felt a connection with. I never fell in love easily but with him the butterflies hit my stomach right from the first glanse. He rapidly showed interest in me and for the short time we had to spend together (read: 9 days), we had a lot of fun. I knew that somehow I would never be the same person as before. I learned a lot from him about life. On our last day, we kissed and somehow I both felt scared and at peace. We didn't stay in contact with each other and both went on with our lives. I reconnected with my ex and he had a new girlfriend very soon after meeting each other. Now I am in a relationship with someone who I really love and cherish and want to start trying to have a child. This guy also seems to be in a happy relationship to with a nice girl now. However: even though we don't do anything to contact each other and live kinda far away, two curious things are happening: 1) I still think a lot about him and wonder what he is doing, what he would say about certain things, etc... and 2) somehow we meet eachother once (sometimes twice) a year without knewing the other person would be in that place. At those times we smile at each other as if we know each other very well and the connection is still there. One time at a bar, my only friend who knows about him was with me and she said he could not stop looking at me (so i'm not imagining things). I did nothing with that information, but I keep thinking about it. I do wonder how long things will be going on like this... Don't get me wrong: I do NOT intent on cheating on my current partner or leaving him for whatever reason. I already feel guilty for just thinking about someone else sometimes. I searched for explanations on both psychological sites and spiritual ones. But I'm nog a big believer of spiritual stuff (like soul mates and all) and psychology did not give any answers neither. For now, my own explanation is: we meet more than one person in our life who we really connect with. It is OK to aknowledge it when you meet such person while being in a relationship, but you do not have to act on it. As for me, I think he kinda figured this out too and just knows it could have worked out with me too, but life and maybe fate has decided otherwise, and that is OK. (This turned out longer than I expected... whoops!)
I'm in love, but can't tell it directly... I'm afraid I might get hurt again.
Merry Christmas everyone!! I don't carry on religion aspect but I like to take it as a resource the tale of Santa Claus and giving out presents to the good as a reward of all accomplishments and kindness. I'm thankful for the roof above my head, food on the table, family, and having the money to afford the things I want/need.
I love giving gifts that people love. Really personal gifts that mean a lot to them. But I also like to give goofy gifts/gag gifts as jokes, or prank boxes with good gifts inside. I just love surprising people with things that will make their day just a little better.
I just want to wish anyone reading this a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. If things are good for you, I hope they stay that way. If this year was hard on you, I hope next year is better. I wish you all the best.
A guy who I had a crush on, told me that I friendzoned him. He didn’t even told me how he felt! Why is this always happening to me? Guy friends would fall in love with me, without me knowing totally, then hates me because I “friendzoned” them.
My boyfriend and I had broke up. We didn't talk to each other, for ten days. We talked, and made amends. He wants us to be together on Christmas day. I told him, I would let him know, today. To be honest, I just want to sleep in, on Christmas day. I don't celebrate, the holiday. He doesn't celebrate, Christmas either, but doesn't want to be alone on the 25th. We live over an hour away, from each other. He doesn't have a car, so I mostly drove to visit. We've been been together for over two months. I never asked for money for gas, and he didn't give any at the time. I mentioned, that it cost about ten dollars drive (124+ miles round-trip). He said he would give me gas money. I can't be too upset, because I never asked before. I still don't want to drive. I just want to sleep, eat whatever I want to cook, and roam around my apartment all day. This is the only time of year, that I can have three days off work, and still get my pay. I'd rather do nothing, on Tuesday.
omg I just want to meet a guy who is ok with me being trans 😢😤😒
You ever just think about old relationships and get sad? Like you don't necessarily want those people back, but you just miss the way you felt with them. And every one was just a little bit different, every person made you feel a certain way, and maybe one of them made you feel happier than anyone else had and you think of them just a little more often. Maybe you regret letting them go, even though you know it's for the best. And then you're just left feeling lonely and craving a hug or a hand to hold so desperately that it makes your chest hurt. I try not to dwell on the past, but I can't get these thoughts out of my head. I miss the friendships I had with my exes, I miss talking to them all the time... I miss giving someone all the love I have because it's what they deserve. I miss being loved.
I have a 7 month old and I'm pregnant agian. I deffently feel the judgment when I tell people but theres nothing I can do about it. I just got to keep my head up and be positive.