I have great passion for science and I love it. But my GPA is dropping with it, I'm staying 2 more years in college with it , and my student loans are piling up. It was my fault, I listened to my mom who forced me to start college when I don't want to yet. I wasn't ready, I wanna save first, I wanna invest money, I wanna help myself with mental health. But I started college. After that I didn't do good, I keep failing, I have no motivation in life. Then I keep having suicidal attempts. My suicidal attempts is only when my mom understood why I need to stop school for a while but I couldn't stop anymore because now I'm wasting time and student loans keep accruding. On my 3rd year college, I got better, got myself up a bit. My gpa is still okay but not as high as high school. I didnt want to change major because I love science thaaaat much! Then I met a guy, whom I fell in love with. He's kind, he's loving, he's caring. He has dreams and passion. And I'd like to have a future with him. I changed majors so I can graduate early and be with him. Plus i want science a Ph.D in science. I want lesser student loans and better GPA in a much better university. My boyfriend wants me to move with him but I have to graduate first, then I have to save first, then have extra to pay off student loans. But he isn't willing for a long distance relationship for two years. And often times that already made me think, he always just thinks about himself. That I'm just his side hussle. That sometimes I felt like an object to him. That I do sense he's not willing to work for things when it gets hard because I have seen it when he got me pregnant (I miscarried our child) he wants to leave me. And sometimes when he's concerned, I don't sense his genuineness. I talk to him out of him so many times but idk it seemed hard for him and I'm getting tired. I wasn't ready to move and I have dreams too but him only knowing it and lacking to understand me as an individual makes it hard for us to pursue a relationship and even more for a long distance. I'm willing to make it work but sometimes I don't because that he's immature to begin with. I just can't be with a guy who isn't willing to work a relationship just because they think way too much of themselves only and ignoring the fact that I have dreams too. It's hard for me to let him go but it's what everyone says, we don't always end up with our first love. I dated guys in the past and hi. I LOVE him but I wanna be free.... ..... But I felt I wasted so much time express my love for him.
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i'm secretly loves him..but scared to tell..and Yes am should not do this. He is smarter guy.
Today, I saw him again.. I'm so happy his doing well. _wearingblue_formalshirt... haishh ..
my exeS.? I never thought i got 2 ex boyfriends in my life. First ex, i've tried to fix the problem but ego made it. Second ex, I left him. :) My heart fully broken. I Don't know what to do..
Tadi speaking so, now ingin cakap dalam bahasa Melayu pula. Di sini saya cuma mahu meluahkan tapi tak kesampaian bahawa saya mempunyai perasaan terhadap seseorang. Saya minati dia. Semua tentang dia , saya suka. Setiap hari saya mendoakan dia supaya sentiasa sihat serta keluarganya. Dia sangat bertuah kerana ada orang suka/cinta dia dalam diam tanpa ada sedikit clue. Melihat dia seperti orang yang berprofesional. Saya suka dia bukan saja² suka. Suka dalam diam dan berharap dia tahu tapi mustahil. Tak mengapa. :') Tahun ini mula ada rasa suka padahal tahun lepas lagi dah mula cuma hanya mampu menyimpan. Tak mahu bertindak terburu². God bless. Saya tak pernah berhenti berdoa untuk si dia.
..I always seeing you.
I love-like him but he never know. i'm just ok with it,, but he always enter my class to talk with his bestfriend. Am just being professional here.
I will never get to be with the girl i love but i was wondering what if i meet a girl who i love more than her? i just don't know how to do it. for now i was thinking if i just become better it would help but i dont know how else. i wish i knew a girl who sees life in that way for us to conquer the world together
me and my friend are not in a relationship but at the same time we are . it gets so confusing for me but I still love it🤫