I think I'm into some sort of love-hate feeling. I mean, I hate him that everything he did is wrong in my eyesq, but I love him so much I still put him in my priority. Honestly, I don't know.
I loved my boyfriend, earlier in out relation even though I was trying to overcome a lot of crap he was there and he was a lot better then, around the end of the year he was laid off and I thought maybe he would be interested in seeing me more like we talked about but I guess not, around Thanksgiving he was changing slowly and lately I feel a lack of passion from him and I feel like im losing it for him... he wants to have sex but I'm not inclined, we only started having sex recently because I was inexperienced but honestly I'm getting faint to no pleasure from him, I've told him let's try this or that and even asked what he likes, hes so prude and doesnt care to try the things I suggest and its not like I'm suggesting anything incredibly kinky either, hes quite vanilla, honestly he is starting to strike me has someone who considers himself a freak but he doesnt even last long in bed... he has such selfish tendencies and I've brought it up to him but he doesnt care, hes not even making effort to try and turn me on and if he does he just gets frustrated after about a minute or 2 and walks away :( I also feel like he doesnt see me the way I see, or maybe I should say once saw him. and yes I've tried to talk to him but if i do, he gets upset and goes silent to only fuck off somewhere instead of talking things out with me. this same general behavior occurs outside of sex as well. I just feel a bit conflicted now with our relationship and I got suggestions to talk to him and depending on how he reacts again, it shows where our relationship stands. someone even suggested I just break up with him because maybe we are just incompatible. I also dont like that I have to clean up after him like a child, telling him he needs to buy a vacuum, mop the floor, wipe down surfaces and he even sometimes "forgets" to brush his teeth. He lives with his father and I think his father is an influence to this behavior. my boyfriend also lacks priority, it's not like he doesnt have money, because he does but he would rather sit and watch it in the bank then spend it on a driver's license, car, braces, he barely ever has food in the house and lives right across from WALMART. its ridiculous and honestly I've just been thinking that since he doesnt want to listen to my suggestions on his habits I might just decide to meet someone who is overall better. and yes I've tried to talk to him about how he feels to see if hes depressed but he claims hes fine and continues to be vague and not tell me anything.
I can't stop thinking about the girl I raped. I don't even know why I did it, she wasn't even attractive. I apologized so many times, but I know it will never be enough. I ruined an innocent girls life. she was only 16. So was I, but it doesn't matter how young I was, I was still in complete control of my actions. Jesus, I just want to fucking die.
Pseudo-Incel-Date-Guy from over half a year ago here: I just bought a bondage starter kit, because in the last few months it turned out that my girlfriend - ye gods, how I love her - loves being painfully dominated while my darkest, deepest sexual desire is to be dominating...in blind hatred against the pleasures of physical love, I denied that to such a degree that I had almost forgotten about that...It is utmost interesting to me that she is not only the love of my life, but that we, in our kinks, complement each other perfectly - better than I could have always wished for before I gave in to selfhatred. Sometimes life can be good.
I shouldn't have kissed her. Even though we were both a bit drunk, and in the end we agreed that it wasn't the best course of action, and we only kissed and nothing else. But all these feelings that were buried for over 10 years now have resurfaced and flourished. And I feel like a stupid teen all over again, even though I'm over 40.
I'm usually a rough girl, prefer to do it rough while being tossed around with 2 or more guys. It's exciting, the sensation of being tossed around, fucked rough while he is growling like a tiger, and sucking his dick down to my throat, etc (you know what I mean). But this guy, I love him. He treat me nice, like a princess, slow and calm and soft and total opposite of what I like. It's excite me though cause it's him, still make me wet without tingles that hit your stomach. But I love him, I want him to fuck me rough and totally lose control over it.
I'm always asking myself, if I will lose my apetite over sex. I mean, it sex though. The straighy porn are still nice to watch and make me wet, the lesbians aren't my thing, but the gays are totally give tingles. But I do wonder if the real sex not give that much kick as the porn. I mean, it's different. The make love and the fucking. I don't know, I'm kinda like on the edge now.
I wanna do throuple, me with two guys. I mean, I wouldn't mind sharing my boyfriend as long as I am the only girl in it, haha.
I love you so much
My stepdad tried to make me wrestle my younger stepbrother but I love him too much to hurt him so when the match started, we just kept circling each other around the mat and we kept circling and circling and circling until we were laughing and full on chasing eachother around the mat and then my stepdad yelled at us to stop so we stopped but we kept swaying because we were so dizzy.