I used to delete all of my texts every day. Not to hide anything, just... because. I guess I didn't like them cluttering up my phone screen. But now I can't help but think about how stupid that was. How many precious memories must I have lost? Now I still periodically delete my texts- just to free up space on my full memory- but I always save the ones that meant so much to me. I never want to forget those moments. I'll cherish those words as long as I live.
Last winter, I took the bus home from school one day and as I was walking down the sidewalk, I saw my crush walking up the same path as me except he was going in the opposite direction since his house is at the top of the street and mine’s at the bottom. We were still kind of strangers to each other at this point, and when we walked past each other, I stopped and turned around to look at him, and after a few steps, he stopped and turned around to look at me too and I just- well, I kind of freaked out. I got super nervous and I tried to pretend like I’d actually been looking at the road instead of at him. Then I turned back around and I started to walk away really fast. Then the next day, the same thing happened. We walked past each other on the sidewalk. I heard him stop, so I turned around, and he had this friendly smile on his face and he waved at me. It surprised me, but I waved back, and that was that. And when I look back at that moment, I feel like that was his way of telling me that I could relax and that I didn’t need to be nervous around him. There was also a day when I standing in the doorway of the classroom panicking because I didn’t see any available seats, and he waved at me from the back of the room and gestured to the chair next to his. Another time, we were in P.E class and I couldn’t do the exercises right so he pulled me aside and taught me how to do them properly and when I got them right, he ruffled my hair and said “Good job!” And one day, two students suddenly started fighting after school, and my crush grabbed me and moved me out of the way so I wouldn’t get hurt. And when we were at the park one night, he was teaching me how to do a trick on the skateboard and he held onto me and didn’t let me fall down even once. Since the beginning, he’s always been saving me and reassuring me and protecting me in these small little ways and they may seem incredibly insignificant to other people but they just mean so much to me.
My finance wants kids, but I don't. I now have to decide whether I one day will agree to have kids, or the marriage is not gonna happen. I have no idea what to do. I don't want to lose the love of my life - that's the very selfish reason for why I would actually agree to have a child. But from a moral point of few, I think this is a very wrong reason for bringing a life into this world. On the other hand, everyone I've talked to about it (who, I fairly have to say, all are much too keen to become grandparents or uncles to be unbiased) says that it won't matter, because once I'm holding the baby in my arms, I won't care whether I initially wanted it or not. I'm lost. Also, what if I say no and in a few years suddenly want it, and then I regret breaking up?
I don't dress to impress guys. I dress to impress myself....so that I can impress them with my confidence. Learning to love myself here :)
I confess that even now, after all these years, I still love the train wreck that is Twilight. I know it's not exactly the pinnacle of great writing, but I love it anyway.
He loved me at the point where I was not confident with myself. I love him now, at the point where he's tired of waiting on me.
I missed my chance to say my goodbyes to my ungle as he was in his death dead. Dont do what I did. Tell your loved ones how important they are too you. Tell them you love them because you may think they will always be there..but eventually, they wont be.
The kine is faint, but I think we're finally pregnant. Is Ethan a good name for a boy?
Well i like a man who's married. Im very irritated that I cant let go. Well I distance myself from him to avoid jeopardizing his relationship to his wife. I adviced him to not pursue a relationship with me at all even though he knows it was hard between us .... I told him to just be friends with me and move on. So yeah im was single on valentines day... but im imagining somehow how he was treating his wife right now... oddly im thinking of their nice date...
It must have been that pink, these two days have been craving botta le labbra.