TL;DR: how do I know if I'm asexual or really terrified of intimacy, or both? So I know this might be a weird question, and because of this I'm posting it on here lol. I'm a 21 year old girl, and I have never been attracted to anyone. Other than having a crush in third grade, I do remember having feelings for a high school teacher once, but it was very confusing because I kinda wanted him more as a father figure (daddy issues), so I don't know if that was an actual crush... But other than that, I have never thought of someone in a romantic way or was interested in dating. I feel weird about never having been attracted to anyone, and every time it gets brought up, people tell me it's basically not possible that I have never been in love, or don't have an image in my mind as to what my potential partner should be like. Now, if this was the only side to the story, it would be easy to say that it has to do with sexual orientation, but thing is, I'm terrible with interpersonal relationships in general. I only have two friends, and even these friendships are hard for me to keep, not because of lack of desire but rather because of my avoidant personality disorder. But anyways, I don't feel like I'm in need of love. It's just that not having been in love makes me feel like a weirdo. On a bad day, I might wish for a relationship thinking that being comforted, supported and cared for by someone would make things better, but that's pretty much it. So if anyone has similar experiences, I would love to feel less alone. Also I would appreciate some thoughts and advice from you guys. And sorry if my thoughts are all over the place. I've been trying to write this confession for half an hour, and this is the best I can do. Sorry if it's terrible, but I hope it at least makes some sense.
I want to find a girl to turn into a bimbo trophy wife and share her with lot of men!
in the vastness of space and the immensity of time, it is my joy to share the planet and an epoch with!
when it's a stupid fucking picture of a baby sloth that finally drops you leaving crying inconsolably
I am in a relatively fresh relationship. My boyfriend is a musician (he writes and sings songs), even a fairly successful one. You won't know who he is because he's mostly famous in our area and age group. Well, a thing I have a big problem with is the lyrics of his songs. Almost every single song is about a girl. Either an ex-girlfriend, or a crush he had, or some one night stand. His texts are often quite explicit content, so some of the songs are literally about him having sex with those women. It's not like I'm judging that - before we dated, I loved his songs. I listened to them all the time and supported him and loved his creativity. But since we're a couple, listening to that stuff makes me sick. And I can't just "not listen to it anymore". First of all, I still remember all those texts. And then it's quite hard to be a supportive girlfriend if you have the urge to leave the room every time your boyfriend does what he loves most (which is singing). He also wants me to be there whenever he has a gig. I don't know how to handle this jealousy. I feel like this is going to ruin our relationship.
It makes me verry upset when I say no about something during sex but my boyfriend is still very pushy and tries to do it anyways. Just because I liked it last time dose not mean I want to do it EVERYTIME. He needs to understand that..
She's the girl everyone wants to be around, that everyone loves. Everyone's wants to be with her, but out of everyone she picks me to talk to, to hang out with, it makes me sad. Why? Because I do not deserve her. I love her truly, and it is hurts me but I have been separating myself from her. Even before this.. covid 19 stuff. She deserves better, and when you love someone you do what's right for them. She doesnt understand and someone told me she's upset that I have been distant, it hurts me so much, I've never felt pain like this, and I've been through a lot. My chest feels extremely heavy and tight, almost like what I'd expect heartbreak to feel like, but there is someone out there for her who is everything she deserve, smart, hard working, handsome, kind, loving. But.. not everyone wins.. there's always a loser. I dont know if she will ever understand but I think she'll get over me. Everyone in my life has.. my mom, my sister.. my old friends.. I didn't deserve them.. I let them all go. I wish things could be different.. I'm tired of being lonely.. but I dont deserve good people like them.
I want to lick a girls bootyhole and have her be bossy and demanding and hold my head there and rub her bootyhole in my face
earlier today I was at target getting a new gaming headset. when I saw this short light skinned girl. she was so sexy her booty was so perfect she was skinny an fit. I was undressing her with my eyes. I knew i had to take her home with me. so I approached her an started complementing her. then I told her that her booty looks so yummy. when she giggled I knew I had her. so I sweet talked her into coming home with me. I ate her pussy for 30 mins an fucked her an hour. it was amazing she told me to grab her phone from her purse. an I saw the one thing I didn't want to see. she could've been married I would've been fine with it. but I saw her high school ID she was a 9th grader. i asked her she got so scared an I told her you should've said something. I was sitting naked still holding her. kinda got turned on about it.
will be 28 soon and yes still a virgin 27 lonely years never had a boyfriend never dated was all was scared to b/c of my lack of self-esteem only two years separating from the big 30 I am sad that will never find love