Last night he came over and spent the night at my house. The window in my bedroom was cracked so it was cold and he held me close. I was feeling bittersweet. It had been a sad day and I was sleepy but I was glad he was with me. I had my face hidden into his chest when I came to a realization: I never have nightmares when he sleeps with me. Ever since I was around the age of fifteen I have had regular nightmares that wake me up afraid in the middle of the night. I blame the nightmares on a lot of things. I blame the nightmares on all the self-hate I used to harbor for being a gay boy, on the assaults and abuse that took place in my childhood, on my mental dysfunctions. etc etc. But when I fall asleep with him by my side I never have nightmares. I drift to sleep unafraid of what I will dream. He makes me feel so protected. I wonder how he would react if I told him that he is essentially the antidote to my night terrors. Would he feel praised? Or would he think my infatuation for him has crossed the line over to an obsession? I don't know.
My ex broke up with me about 4 months ago, a day after we celebrated our second year anniversary. She said she wanted some time alone to be by herself again because there's things in life she still wants to explore. I know she felt suffocated by the relationship and so I agreed. Now I still think about her all the time and I can't help but feel jealous when she's out with someone new doing things with other people instead of with me. Should I just move the fuck on? I tried to think negatively of her so I'd learn to not loce her but she's my best friend, how Could I?
Neo got my back, Culture Things, Tech Tech on my mind.
Every time our hands brush, I can feel the electricity rushing into me like I'm being brought back to life. Every time you stand just a little too close, I feel your heat pulling me in like a magnet, begging me to wrap my arms around you. Anytime we work side by side, I see us operating like clockwork, moving in perfect, delicate harmony effortlessly and speechlessly. Loving you feels so natural, so right, like all the pieces are falling into place. Do you feel the same? Do you feel the exciting tension between us? Or am I imagining it?
I love you more than words can say.
I love this gurl but all she does is trample on my feelings, and idk how to move on this is the first time a lizard like me has felt anything real
My ex, who's taken, is sending me seductive snaps again and I'm so happy
I always wait and looking forward to this hour.
The one girl I can't let go of is in a really healthy relationship with a guy who shares her dream lifestyle unlike myself. It's been years, what the fuck is wrong with me.
If you found out your crush was a virgin, would that make you more or less interested in them? Specify your gender in comments. I'm curious if this is very different between guys and girls.