I can't stop thinking about "her"....
I have a crush on all my Latina female cousins. im 30 years old and they're all around my age range. we grew up together so we are very close. they're all light skin, slim petite, and gorgeous faces. I once had a chance to fuck one of them and my boy's bday party. I was about 24 and she was 21. she got really drunk and went to my boys car to get herself together. my boy said she was looking for me so I went to the car too. she was in the backseat and I sat next to her. even when I was there , she still kept asking for me to me. then she started grabbing on to my thigh and kept saying to take it out. my heart was beating fast from the excitement.. cuz I had been masturbating to her for a long time.. I said take what out and she said my dick as she was trying to pull my zipper down. I was drunk too , and as I was about to take it out, thats when my boy came back and opened the car door. I was trying to get her to sleep over my house but sadly she said no. so the next day, I took her out to eat, to see if she had remembered anything, and if she did I was gona gladly go thru with it. but unfortunately she didn't mention it :( now a few years later, she's married, and I still often reminisce about that time as I masturbate. it would have been amazing if my stupid boy hadn't come back to the car.
my bf was so insist that I include in my family and give me to family events like he does to me but I dont like my family. they are very rude and judgemental. all they are going to do is smile i. his face , tear him down behind his back, and talk about our relationship. but he thinks if we are going to have a future, our family have to know. 😑😣 I already love his family and go to their events when im not working or at school. I think that is enough. i see mmyself marrying him someday but yall is this nessecary?
I'm so much happier living with my boyfriend and away from my parents. I love my parents, especially my mom, but it's gotten to a point that living with them was bad for my mental health. My whole life is turning around now that I'm not trapped under them.
For people who wants to listen my story: Hey ! I'm french and i hate myself. I hate myself for many things but... I can't forget them or forgive myself. I am in love with the boy I made suffer. He were in love with me like... One year and a half ago, and he is always in love with me but... Before april, i was like telling him i don't love him, and that i hate him but... It was false. And i feel like shit. And i know he will confess his feelings one day, and i know i will be so much happy that i'll confess mine too, but i know, and it's always happening, i know that i 'll hurt him more than i have ever done before, because that's only what i do: hurt. So... I know that i will love him a moment but i know it will end and i don' t know why i'm so f*cking complicated. I wanna be in love with him all my life but i know i 'll hurt him because of my feelings. But even after that, after all i think i can do, i still want to be with him, and i surely want it to last all my life. I really needed to talk about that, and thank you for reading that...
I have a huge crush on an old 2000s band lead singer.
I always wanted to fight and been training at pro gyms since im 10 yrs old but never had courage to compete and stuff, i always thought i was too sensitive or smth idk why really but i saw Rose fighting and she's the best in the world and shes even more sensitive and soft spoken than i am :p so slowly shes become my hero, i wish well for her always, when she doing good and happy, i feel good, cuz i see myself in her :p also weili better put that belt in Rose's mailbox. flying knees incoming weili!!!!
Today i had my 3rd jiu jitsu practice, im so tired but feel so good, i cant wait to go again tomorrow, im gonna try to have 2 practices :p i need to wash my gi tho..
I confess when I was 13 I began secretly wearing womens lingerie and clothing I really enjoyed dressing up and would sneak out at night time dressed only in womens clothes, a few months after I was at a park late one night sitting on a bench and nobody knew that I was a male, I started hearing moans coming from the Bush so I sneak a peek through the scrub and nearly fell over, it was my 12 year old sister having sex with 2 blokes ,I took a couple pictures of her and thought I could really use them to black mail her, I headed home but waited under the house for her, she went to go up stairs and I called to her and she come under the house, she looks at me and asked what the fuck are you doing in female clothing I said I enjoy crossdressing and I also going to start enjoying incest sex with you, she stairs at me and said your sick, I said I'm not the one having 3 soms with guys and then show her the pictures I have of her, I moved closer to her and put a hand on her tit and played with it she said stop or I tell and I said and I will show these pictures she said what do you want, I said take your clothes off cause I'm going to start fucking you if you don't want me to say anything, she removed her clothes and I told her to lay down cause tonight is the night I start fucking you,, I fucked her hard and fast and cum deep inside her, I said if you don't want to fall pregnant then you better get on the pill cause everytime I fuck you Im going to keep cumming inside your pussy and you can also start helping me crossdress
I lately had to ask myself if i actually love my husband and truth is, i don't. There were feelings in the beginning, but time nd working together showed that he's the most sexist, egoistic, manipulating, lying, cheating bastard i've ever met. How the fck wasn't i able to see this before - just how? I really tried hard, it's been 3 years - but this feeling of dispise towards him won't go away - when we sleep together i feel like raping myself