It's 5:30 in the morning, and I'm desperately lonely. I have no one to talk to right now. I've been sick for a week now so I feel like trash, and I thought I was getting better, but realized today I've been running a fever for a few days and just didn't know because I was taking so much medicine to relieve the pain. My boyfriend is sick too, and he's going through a mild depression right now, so I accidentally upset him earlier and I feel terrible about it. He apologized for taking it out on me, but then said he should be taking it out on himself... he shouldn't be taking anything out on himself, he doesn't deserve that. I feel like I'm falling short as his companion because I don't know what to say or do to help him through this. I know I can't fix him, but surely I could be doing something to make it easier on him... He's so wonderful and I love him so much but sometimes I wonder if his self hatred and difficulty trusting others combined with my apparent inability to deal with that will be the demise of our relationship. I want to make it work, and I don't want to leave him because he has issues; I have issues of my own, but the difference there is he seems to know how to help me with mine... I guess I'm just rambling at this point. idk I just needed to get it all off my chest and feel like someone is listening to me, even if no one ever reads this. Just writing it out is kinda therapeutic...
so I work at a airport an there are so many places to fuck at work. I've gotten head so far but I really want to fuck at work one day. I'm so glad most of the workers there are female. some are straight from high school.
I'm really into femdom and i have stopped dating cuz i only wanna do kinky shit, not normal sex, and i get anxious of having to reveal that to girls i'm dating, and probably having them dislike it
Every time I see you I'm reminded of my failure with you, how I've stopped talking to you for no reason except my inability of having in my life as a friend. You're the most beautiful woman I ever met and I couldn't help myself to blew it.
I still miss him, care and love him and although it hurts knowing I wasn't ever good enough I'm trying my best to be happy, better and successful. maybe then I'll be good enough.
I love white people they are so nice
I knew someone years ago (6 years now).. since the first time i saw him i knew he was special.. i remember eveyday the day i saw him for the first time.. we were ao young.. god, i dont even know how to describe it.. because “love” is not enought.. he is the love of my life.. i can imagine my life without him anymore.. i breaks my heart everytime i think about my mother.. my dad died some years ago.. and i can imagine the pain that my mother carries on her heart.. because i know how much she loved my dad.. i would never be able to be happy again if i loose my men.. it just breaks my heart... my mom loved and still love my dad a lot!
I will never find love and die alone.
I enjoyed having sex with my ex girlfriend. she was very skinny flat chested. she did have for kids but I over looked that. when she took nude selfies she looked like she was 14. I enjoyed being with her kissingv her an rubbing her pussy in public looked so wrong. when I took her clothes shopping she would but clothes for kids or teens. she was short an skinny.
Thanksgiving I found porn on my boyfriends phone. I was naive and thought that he was being truthful when we decided early on in our relationship that neither of us would watch it out of respect for one another. Come to find out he has been watching it in secret for more than a year, after we move in together also. How can this not be something that has to do with me? I’m in decent shape and fairly confident, with a 32D chest but my bf never even seems interested in foreplay or touching or even looking at my boobs. He just wants to get straight to the act. But the porn I found had girls with giant boobs, so how can I not feel insecure and confused?? I honestly feel betrayed by him and I feel cheated on. I know many people think porn is normal and not a big deal, but to me it really is and he also knew that. When I found out and reacted in a way that I wanted to have space and possibly split up from him, he told me he loves me more than anything and would do anything for me. If he loves me more than anything why couldn’t he given me the respect that I deserve and not watch porn. I find it extremely selfish of him. Me and my bf have been together almost 8 years now, but if no trust is there then what do we have now? He is also moving in a few months to another state for dental school and he expects me to go with him to wherever he chooses, but honestly I may not go after all of this. If anything all of this has shown me just how supportive my friends are though.