i'm into girls but sometimes i pretend to convince myself that i'm not lesbian but getting laid by guys...i'm from a conservative christian background;my life sucks and i feel so unhappy with everything about me.I've tried making out with a guy twice but threw up,it was disgusting...so if i have sex with a guy the most we can do is penetrationbecause even cuddling with a guy is uncomfortable to me
I blocked my ex on tumblr cus I figured it was her who was anonymously messaging me. Sure enough, my mysterious pen pal has been silent ever since.
i deleted my reddit account where i'd be talking about Rose and reading news of her and just telling everyone how awesome she is and that shes my hero and that shes beautiful, i deleted it all , i don't want to think about her anymore because lately my mind has been getting darker and darker, i end upthinking how she has a husband and how she won't ever like me and i feel like killing myself very strongly, so i don't want to think about her anymore, i just want to follow my dreams yes shes still my hero and who inspired me and in a way gave me permission to dream but my dreams and my life are my own, if i keep going like i was she wouldn't like me when we met, or we would never meet because i would kill myself. i want when she meets me she looks up to me too and thinks i am doing well and thinks i am dignified and respectable, and i want to chase my dreams and do the best i can
I enjoy having sex with light skinned girls, Mexicans, asians, white girls but black black girls close to vanta Black. they don't look good naked. had sex with a really black 14 year old had to fuck get in the morning to see what I'm doing.
My hero replied to me on instagram and followed me. she has psychic powers and always guesses the fights correctly, i asked her since all her predictions come true, if she could predict im gonna be happy and have friends, she said i'm gonna have so many friends, i won't even know what to do with them, and followed me. i cried the whole day, and i printed the notification and glued it on my door, i look at it all day, i don't have to worry anymore about being alone ever again, because all her predictions come true. it was the best gift i ever gotten.
the more months i am without leaving my house, the worse my mental health is getting. im scared that the admiration and love i have for a hero of mine is gonna be the only positive thing left for me and im gonna be unhealthily obssesed with her. i don't want to be obssesed about anyone i just want to be a good happy boy, and when i meet my hero in the future i want her to be proud of me , not that she thinks im creepy. im just. i want my life back, and my dreams back, so i can feel good again
I had a dream that you kissed me. Turned out you were usinG me...
I love women and pussy, but I find it erotic playing with other men sexually. especially older men. I'm 30 years old and only play with men 45+ years old. I haven't fucked any booty or gotten my booty fucked. but I love giving each other blow jobs. my penis is average size so I get geeked when I get to suck on a much bigger dick. as soon as they pull it out and I see that they're hung, my penis automatically gets hard with precum. after a few strokes on their dicks from my mouth, I'm ready to cum in my pants. and it gets me hornier that those big dick men enjoy sucking on my average cock as well. I first started experimenting when I was about 22 years old. in my first encounter I was with a 60 years old white man with grey hair. we had spoke on Craigslist and decided to meet up early in the morning around 7AM at the intersection of Irving park road and Harlem ave in Chicago. we met at a parking lot in a strip mall plaza by the shoe carnival. I drove there, he parked next to me, and I got in the passenger side of his vehicle. I was thinking that he was gona pull out an average sized cock like mine, but when he did, I was extremely AMAZED!!! He was about 10 inches and thick. my eyes popped out and my mouth began to water. the whole time I was thinking " this is it, I'm gona finally have a cock in my mouth and luckily it's a huge one." my cock hard very hard and I can feel the whole adrenaline running thru my body, making my heart beat faster and my dick to pulsate. I finally began to stroke his big white cock with my mouth and I immediately loved it. I sucked it for about 5 mins, and with every stroke I gave him, I felt that same stroke on my own dick until I finally came in my pants from sucking him off. ever since then I've been hooked on sucking dick. I still fuck women regularly, but the occasional thought of having a hard dick in my mouth always gets to me. especially when I haven't sucked any in awhile. one thing I will not do with a man is kiss tho cuz that's disgusting to me lol but I'm all for sucking some dick tho ;)
I cheated on my partner on before because i wanted my temptation never meant anything by it i could never tell him as i had to earse that i shouldn't keep it secret but luckily it never came up. as i changed my ways.
I think about marriage because I be alone since I was born. I don't want to be lonely anymore I need someone beside me.