Finally gave oral to a girl. made a tinder account acting as a sugar daddy for fun. was surprised that i had 37 matches in 2 days. didnt know girls were willing to give up themselves for sex. met a girl in a hotel, received and gave oral. for $400 i made it abit awkward but was respectful and nice she didnt want anything to do with me afterwords. feel used and stupid for doing it. i'm alot less curious about sex and find it easier to abstain from it until marriage. i'm find it frustrating how girls never seem to find loving guys like me and end up accepting abusive guys who use them.
Finally had some oral sex. i made a tinder account and put in my bio that said sex for money, but in a indirect way. i wasn't completely serious, just wanted to see how many girls are that shallow. omg i had like 37 matches in 2 days, alot of the girls were open to the idea, funny how uncivilised society has come when it comes to intimacy yet we claimed we're the best in human history. one girl messaged me and we met up at a hotel, i paid $400 for mutual oral. it was my first time giving oral. i've receiced oral from trans person once. i made it abit akward and the next day she made it clear she didn't want me anymore. i feel really stupid and used. Also, i feel like me and other guys can be the best loving bfs but girls never seem to meet us or end up choosing the abusive bad guy. i'm less curious about sex and find it much easier to abstain from it until marriage.
He says he love me yet his actions dont prove it . He doesnt care like before and I have to always put more efforts. Anytime I try to bring it up he makes it look like its my fault and make me feel bad abt it
I feel bad about this but... Sometimes I think about not working anymore and living off of state benefits instead. It's mostly like on of those thoughts you have at 5 am after your alarm went off and you're like "ugh I want to quit haha", but sometimes I actually wonder what it would be like, and have the feeling it would be awesome. I would be able to afford most stuff I do now, I would have time for myself which is the one thing I'm missing now, being able to pick up a small job here and there whenever I get bored... the only reason why I'm not going to do it is because I don't want to be a leech living off of other people's taxes that they payed with hard working jobs. But sometimes, when you're the one paying those taxes and see how other people are living an easy life while doing nothing, you wonder why you're even getting up at 5 anymore.
I wish it was mandatory for people to work in retail or customer service at least once in life. Maybe something like a mandatory internship in school. Since I worked in that field, I see everyone providing any kind of service for me with such different eyes, and I've never been the kind to blame the cashier for the prices - unlike some assholes.
I am a girl in early 20s.. height 150cm, wheight 68 kg.. I think I look best when I am naked :3
Everyday I think about the direction my life is going, and there are so many questions I don't understand. I feel content, confused, frustrated, sad, unsatisfied, and at times odd spurts of happiness that comes and goes but don't know why (my brain forcing me to cope maybe, I don't know?). I feel like I don't have control of my surroundings or my emotions. It's exhausting. Just when I feel like I have a solution, within a few weeks or a day I find myself starting over again.
I keep crushing on guys like 20yr older than I am... I almost broke up a marriage because of it, and my family had to move. I think there's something wrong with me 😥
if eyes could kill them my sister's boyfriend would be dead already. and my sister would be in a coma for being foolish.
Any kind person out there willing to help me please, I need my sister to move out of mine & my parents home, my home used to be like a Christian home until she moved back in now I feel more like a helper in my parents home than a family member, she has turned my home upside down in other ways. I have no where else to go but she has been given a room to live with my other sister, all it need is to be furnished she has a baby with her. if there's anyone out there willing to help, your help would be highly appreciated. all I want his to get back my decent Christian home. I suffer from social anxiety problem so living with my parents is my only safe haven... I'm not a scammer you can verify whatever I say through whatever means necessary when & if you should come in contact with me