There are people in my life that try to remind me of what I didn't accomplish and tell me of those that I know who have accomplished what I should have accomplished. They tell me the news for me to be happy for the person, which I am. I admit that there is a feeling of regret and disappointment in myself for not having similar news. I have made the choices that I have made, and the desires that I have had before, I don't want to pursue for reasons I cannot explain. Yet deep down, by the person telling me about this person, I can't help but feel like they wanted me to feel disappointed as well. I could be wrong, but it is a gut feeling.
when it comes to dating, i'm self conscious about my name and ethniticity. #arab #mohamed what do people think?
reading sex and cheating confessions from people in this app is giving me trauma, i'm 26 and i've seen some hardcore porn and done some kinky sexts role play but the stuff i read on here is weird. where is society going :(
Finally gave oral to a girl. made a tinder account acting as a sugar daddy for fun. was surprised that i had 37 matches in 2 days. didnt know girls were willing to give up themselves for sex. met a girl in a hotel, received and gave oral. for $400 i made it abit awkward but was respectful and nice she didnt want anything to do with me afterwords. feel used and stupid for doing it. i'm alot less curious about sex and find it easier to abstain from it until marriage. i'm find it frustrating how girls never seem to find loving guys like me and end up accepting abusive guys who use them.
Finally had some oral sex. i made a tinder account and put in my bio that said sex for money, but in a indirect way. i wasn't completely serious, just wanted to see how many girls are that shallow. omg i had like 37 matches in 2 days, alot of the girls were open to the idea, funny how uncivilised society has come when it comes to intimacy yet we claimed we're the best in human history. one girl messaged me and we met up at a hotel, i paid $400 for mutual oral. it was my first time giving oral. i've receiced oral from trans person once. i made it abit akward and the next day she made it clear she didn't want me anymore. i feel really stupid and used. Also, i feel like me and other guys can be the best loving bfs but girls never seem to meet us or end up choosing the abusive bad guy. i'm less curious about sex and find it much easier to abstain from it until marriage.
He says he love me yet his actions dont prove it . He doesnt care like before and I have to always put more efforts. Anytime I try to bring it up he makes it look like its my fault and make me feel bad abt it
I feel bad about this but... Sometimes I think about not working anymore and living off of state benefits instead. It's mostly like on of those thoughts you have at 5 am after your alarm went off and you're like "ugh I want to quit haha", but sometimes I actually wonder what it would be like, and have the feeling it would be awesome. I would be able to afford most stuff I do now, I would have time for myself which is the one thing I'm missing now, being able to pick up a small job here and there whenever I get bored... the only reason why I'm not going to do it is because I don't want to be a leech living off of other people's taxes that they payed with hard working jobs. But sometimes, when you're the one paying those taxes and see how other people are living an easy life while doing nothing, you wonder why you're even getting up at 5 anymore.
I wish it was mandatory for people to work in retail or customer service at least once in life. Maybe something like a mandatory internship in school. Since I worked in that field, I see everyone providing any kind of service for me with such different eyes, and I've never been the kind to blame the cashier for the prices - unlike some assholes.
I am a girl in early 20s.. height 150cm, wheight 68 kg.. I think I look best when I am naked :3
Everyday I think about the direction my life is going, and there are so many questions I don't understand. I feel content, confused, frustrated, sad, unsatisfied, and at times odd spurts of happiness that comes and goes but don't know why (my brain forcing me to cope maybe, I don't know?). I feel like I don't have control of my surroundings or my emotions. It's exhausting. Just when I feel like I have a solution, within a few weeks or a day I find myself starting over again.