I love to write, like really want to spent my life about it. My idea usually around horror/thriller genre and R/Adult rated. My mind is madness and I want to share those madness to the world! But half of me saying that most people won't like that. And I'm really afraid to put it online, even though I have the portal for sharing, but I post none.
My mom ticks me tf off. I changed professions, meaning i can move out in 2 or 3 years. But she forcibly wants to move right now. Right now we live in a huge flat, for a really cheap price. We have a big bathroom with a shower that isnt just a modded bathtub, we have 3 big rooms for our own, mom, sister and me, a functioning kitchen, legit everything else you need for a living, and the neighbours would be nice too if she didnt decided to fuck that up. They still like me because i made something out of myself, such a good boy blabla, basic stuff. The only thing thats kinda broken are the pipes. sometimes the heater fails so it gets a little cold and we have no warm water. But thats only a problem for the winter, but she claims its the major thing why she wants to move, aside from the whole neighbor situation. And on top of that, moving wouldnt be a problem if she wouldnt be such a spoiled brat. oh i want a balkony. and a garden. and a bus stop right in front of my door. Get realistic woman, thats luxury you just cant afford. And the possible places she looked out for are even more expensiv because of balcony and garden. bs. a whole lot of bs. fuck you.
I sincerely don't understand my brain and wish someone could answer me this: why does my brain decide to dream about my neighbor girl in a romantic way, creating the image that she's the love of my life, when i only see her at maximum 1 or 2 times per year and when I barely remember she exists? Whats the purpose? Why this happens?
I think general knowledge is overrated. Knowing historical facts and dates, being able to recognise and name trees by looking at their leaves, knowing the names of politicians, being able to name the capital cities of the federal states... I think all this is totally useless knowledge, at least for the majority of people, yet when you don't know these and similar things, you're seen as stupid. It has literally never been a disadvantage to me in my whole life that I didn't know these things. I know other things, things that are important to ME and MY life. The way I see it, general knowledge really is just "better to know than not to know" (which I don't disagree with), but still unimportant. Like owning that one pot in the back of your drawer that you never use. In the very unlikely event that all your good pots break at once, you're glad to have it. But nobody should call you stupid just because you don't own such a pot, not if you have enough other, good pots.
People don't seem to realize that "you look tired/sick" is actually an insult. Why is it okay and common to tell people that? If you are sick or tired, then all this comment does is tell you that you look as awful as you feel, which doesn't make you feel better. If you aren't even sick or tired, then this basically is like saying "hey, you look like shit". Either way, not cool. (Clarification: I don't mean when people are actually worried about you and ask how you feel. I mean when they randomly come up and tell you how bad you look. Just like that. Without a reason.)
Unpopular opinion of the day: I actually like that it's normal nowadays to break up various relationships during your life and that people constantly get divorces. There's a social pressure on so many things, I'm just glad that this isn't among them anymore. I'm glad that nobody feels the need to stay in a relationship that makes them unhappy because they're afraid of what people will say. I'm glad that once I get married, I won't chicken out of it because of the dread of having to decide something for the rest of my life (how it's often portrayed in movies, you know). I also think staying together means a lot more when it's more normal to break up for people, and when there's no pressure on you. Nowadays we have the choice to repair a relationship, and deciding to do so means something, unlike in the past days when you simply had to try to stick together. Sure, there are downsides to it; I guess I don't have to name them. But every coin has two sides. So yeah, that's my personal opinion on that.
I need advices. So my father is cheating on my mother. I know it is their problem and I shouldn't meddle. But. But this slut just sent my youngest sister hurtful words and telling her she is a thick face for even messaging our father using our dad's phone. MY MOM AND DAD STILL LIVES TOGETHER WITH OUR SIBLINGS, not living with the slut or not because my dad has a new family. So my youngest sister is hurt and crying, I know it isn't our dad since the style of text/format is different. I am trying to let it go and still not meddle. Then this slut would stop our dad giving school fees. Money isn't a problem at all but now whenever there's school fees to pay, the slut would non-stop text my dad. (I can say that because no one texts my dad multiple times and my dad doesn't look at his phone multiple times and if it's for work, they always call or message once. Our father used to asked us to check his phones for any update from work if he is doing something). Nowadays, our father won't even give them for meals (it isn't like that before the slut came). So what do I do now?
I don't know why I watch porn, i like women sexually but I'm also a misanthrope
I should kill myself, I don't care about nothing or anyone
I don't understand why so many people hate Valentine's day for so - in my eyes - stupid reasons. "It's just a holiday fabricated by the industry to sell flowers and chocolate" so what? Who forces you to buy something? "I don't think that there should be only one day a year to show your partner that you love them" Which law was that again that states that you're only allowed to be affectionate to your partner on Valentine's day? Do you also only show your friends that you like them on their birthdays? Do you hate your mom every day instead of mother's day? "I don't like this American bullshit" again, nobody forces you to celebrate it, so why spoil it for everyone who wants to? I have nothing against people who simply don't like it and say that when they're asked, but I despise those who take every opportunity to tell everyone that Valentine's day is shit, especially after someone was visibly excited about it. I feel that people do it just to seem cool and smarter than anyone else because they "don't fall for the trap". As if making someone happy on a special day is bad.