one of the many hardest parts about being a father is explaining to my child what I've done in my days to her one day. I've lived a long life so far. It feels like a lifetime and the days dont coincide anymore. It just feels jumbled and confusing. I've inherited my mother's depression at an early age. My left forearm is a portrait of self-harm cuts and scars. Everytime she sees them, she crawls on my lap and pats them and says "you hurt?" or "Feel better?" How am I supposed to explain to her one day that I've struggled to face my misdeeds in the past and had horrid ways to deal with them and myself?
Ever since quarantine started, I haven't been wearing a bra around the house. It's just so damn uncomfy and I love the feeling of them not being restrained. My sister is being a little tattle-tail, saying how gross it is. What should I do?
My favourite feeling is when it gets so humid in the shower because of the steam, and it gets so hard to breathe. I love that feeling of suffocation.
I think this trend of people who get drunk all day while they're closed in the house with their kids is disturbing.
i hate 6 AM. its the worst time of day. i hate it. the stupid fucking sun is rising but just barely, and the sunrise isn't even pretty at this time. plus im either waking up for school or feeling the after affects of an all-nighter so it's automatically terrible.
I don't like staying up at night. because then I think too much and tears come with it. I cry about being too indecisive and starting college without the confidence in my degree or what I chose to do. I cry cause I haven't had a decent grade in the past 4 years and I can't remember the last time I made my mother proud. I cry cause ntn has went wrong but in these times I know I never feel right either. I cry cause I doubt my mother and close family see the importance of psychiatric professionals like I do. or Why I'd consider seeing one. I cry, silently, so I don't wake the house, until my nose clogs and it's so hard breathe I'm just suffocating in a whole new way. and when I finally sleep and wake up I "forget" all about it. cause that was then and this is now. that was night and this is day. and if I don't let them mix or bleed between each other then it's easy to actually enjoy the few things that I cling to.
it's always when there's quite around me that my thoughts are the loudest. The people and friends of the day distract me but if I stay up too long at night then tears come too. I cry for how indecisive I am and how I don't know what is want to do despite starting college. I cry cause I haven't gotten a decent average in years and I can't remember the last time my mom was proud of me. I cry cause ntn is wrong but ntn feels right either. I cry cause I doubt my close family understands the need of a counsellor or psychiatrist.or my interest in one. I cry for the hobbies I stopped doing and new things I don't feel good enough to try. I cry until my nose clogs and I just suffocate in a whole new way. and when I finish it's simply moments b4 I start up again. and eventually I sleep and pretend like with the day ntn ever happened. because that was night and this is day. and I feel as if if I don't keep them separate then I'd never feel alright for a long time.
anyone else tired of this stupid pandemic? I am. nothing really changed for me since I stay inside all day regardless, but seeing people be so obsessive about it is annoying.
I genuinely want to understand gays point of view. To be honest I don't support it because it's against nature it's against how our bodies work (your anus is not made to be fucked) and it increases your chance of getting hiv, not to mention most if not all religions are against it. But I want to listen to a gay perspective, could you tell me what you think about what I said (against nature, hiv and religion). please know that I don't hate you, I respect you as humans but I just want to listen to your side, since I live in a country where gays are taboo .
why do girls stop talking to you when you ask them for their snapchat? I dont get it...we were just having a romantic time half an hour ago, WTF happened??