I'm so much happier living with my boyfriend and away from my parents. I love my parents, especially my mom, but it's gotten to a point that living with them was bad for my mental health. My whole life is turning around now that I'm not trapped under them.
I'm engaged and sometimes get the urge to talk to old flings because they make me feel pretty. my finance does amazing. He makes me feel amazing about myself. but I guess it's nice to be wanted
I hv cm to realise that it is not 'hate' that has kept me away from most of my relatives, it is 'fear'...fear of how i will be perseved afta all these years. I am afraid that they stl find me 'stupid' 'dumb' and worthless... Sometimes i try to connect but that dark cloud stl hovers over me.
I've been married for many years i live my wife i live my kids but I miss the feeling of falling in love that passion
I'm dating a man I've dated before. and he switched up. I want a guy I can wake up to. a guy who doesn't cancel every date. a guy I imagine myself with in a beautiful home and kids one day. hes in love with me. and trust me I have love for him. I j don't love him in that way. my friends say it takes time to love someone that I'll grow into it. but tbh I don't want to settle for growing into a love that's not there. everytime I try and break up w him he begs me to stay.. advice?
so, im in the process of sueing my parents and i havent spoken to them for almost half a year or so because i legit have paralysing fear of my house and have refused since to come back home nor meet up. funny not so funny story, i trusted my sisters to meet up because we missed each other but ended up being conned and led to one of their house with well surprise2, paareents. trapped in their house, forced to confront the situation and ended up getting mocked, parents left screaming and eeextreme tele-novela level shit, mountain drop of guilt trips followed by an after party of more mockery and heart breaking condescending advice. i feel guilty but in our country, it is required for the father to give away the daughter.. literally. you gotta sign the paperworks and everything or else your marriage isnt legit. so my father refused to let me get maried unless i apply, pay and finish my degree and then he might consider marriage for me. let it be known that my mother hates the guy of my choice not because of what he had ever done but because of the gossip that went around my old highschool 8 years ago by imbeciles with brown noses. the story isn't true and her version over the years as she recites them to my sister's are the same as the cult Preacher's psalms, constantly updated with character changes depending on whats convenient. so my father who has a strong opinion on things, you know.. the man of the house? the decision maker.. beats his kids whenever he cant handle something irritating him, wether its our fault or not.. we are where he lets off his steam. mother on the other hand claims shes done everything to protect us but has never felt 1 of his hits, never felt any hits whatsoever actually. she had a fantastic childhood and an amazing mom. at most, shes been nagged or offended by whatever her parents did. child of a polygamy but the polygamy happened when she was well over her 20's. you see this woman, my mother loves manipulation. good or bad, doesn't matter. she lives mind games but she cant handle anything she does to people when karma bites back. immediate break down and dramatic scenes re-enacted. bamm boom, dad can't handle the drama and needs to let off more steam. see her version of i protect you, is small talks with him to not beat up the kids. ok so since you got the feel of their characters. mom essentially controls dad. dad's the muscle man. kids are the pawns, staffs. i know what your thinking, im ungrateful and cant be able to even understand the things the went through. lets say ur right. yeah, you are totally right. ok. now tell me. does that justify their actions?. can you understand how i feel yet?. aaaanyways, the sueing part doesnt involve any criminal laws nor any actual penalties or shits. all it does is literally to pass the rights to let me go to a court assigned judge instead of my father under the notion of him refusing or is unfit to carry his duties. a small fee but that can be waived if i request it. i simply wish to marry the man of my choosing which is innocent and actually a really great guy who desperately tried to fix things before it got so out of hand to this level. i mean the guy went to see my parents to fix the situation he didnt cause. like i said.. i still feel guilty. you know all that parental approval in my veins shit. but i have rights to set my future too. their not asking to spare them a couple years and then marriage, their asking me to spare them 5 years to even consider marriage for me. 5 is the number they said, not the number it takes to finish my degree. maybe it'll help to mention that im 20+ and am working a minimum wage and experiencing the struggles of a young adult. no financial assistance.... i love this guy, and he supports me. he has flaws, but he understands me and cares for me. 8 years we've been a team in good and bad. settle this for me. am i wrong for doing what i am doing?.
i am extremely irritated by every word that comes out of my in laws. she constantly puts herself in our relationship.. i mean, i get that ur the mom n ur son has the responsibility to take care of u. but it doesn't mean you should have a say in every fight between me n my husband, doesn't mean everything i buy is selfish because i didn't buy the exact same one for you.. and it definitely doesnt mean that what u say goes above all matters. i mean, I haven't taken ur child away from u. im living under the same roof in order to relieve my husband of his worries as to not being there whenever you need him. i respect her n all but seriously?
For people who wants to listen my story: Hey ! I'm french and i hate myself. I hate myself for many things but... I can't forget them or forgive myself. I am in love with the boy I made suffer. He were in love with me like... One year and a half ago, and he is always in love with me but... Before april, i was like telling him i don't love him, and that i hate him but... It was false. And i feel like shit. And i know he will confess his feelings one day, and i know i will be so much happy that i'll confess mine too, but i know, and it's always happening, i know that i 'll hurt him more than i have ever done before, because that's only what i do: hurt. So... I know that i will love him a moment but i know it will end and i don' t know why i'm so f*cking complicated. I wanna be in love with him all my life but i know i 'll hurt him because of my feelings. But even after that, after all i think i can do, i still want to be with him, and i surely want it to last all my life. I really needed to talk about that, and thank you for reading that...
My boyfriend cheated, I stayed. He's been good and wants to get married... I no longer love him though but I'm scared I won't find anyone like him... Or want to.
I've already told here that I was talking to this American girl. She was very pretty with a nice boobs. But I've dumped her the next day for no reason. I think i'm ruined beyond repair, can't feel love anymore for anyone after some bitch I knew yrs ago that used to make her ex jealous. Fucking bitch, I wish she was dead!