I think I'm incapable of loving someone in a a romantic way and have a full relationship. I'm sorry ladies but your interest doesn't make wanna know you. I'm a misanthrope so...
(Really explicit) I knew I hadn't really lived before when I held her on a leash, writhing naked in my bed, calling me master...
I want to be able to treat this girl I'm talking to girl right but I'm dumb and still in love with my son's mom.
Why does everyone think that if you care for someone, you HAVE to be dating? Does nobody know what platonic care is anymore? This is why I can't care about others because people attempt to shove me into a relationship when they sense even the slightest ounce of remote appreciation for someone from me.
Being a hopeless romantic longing for a relationship vs. knowing I'm not ready for one is really kind of annoying. I wish I would stop craving romance so much.
For the longest time, we flirted back and forth, and it really seemed like he was interested in me. Then I heard he started dating someone else. He stopped flirting. Recently (a few months later) it feels like he's flirting with me a bit again. He's not at all the kind of person to cheat, so I can't help but wonder if maybe they broke up and he's interested again. But I can't ask him. I don't necessarily hope they broke up, because I know his girlfriend and they make a good couple. But part of me hopes I have a chance with him. I've loved him for so long, patiently waiting for him to make a move because I didn't want to push him. And that's what I'll keep doing until I'm sure.
I decided to finally see a therapist, it's definitely going to break the bank. But I feel lonely and anxious and I have no friends or family I can trust with my problems. And my only friend is my husband, and he can't understand what I'm feeling no matter how much I tried. I'm not going to tell him I'm going to see a therapist though.
10 years ago I met my wife after internet dating for a while. I was head over heels for her and took the chance. She was willing to go all the way the first time we met, but we didn't. We were both virgins at the time. I asked her why she was willing. I was expecting some explanat about the depth of our love. She said I have good genes because I have a high GPA and look like a model. Besides if I leave, no one will ever know because I don't know any of her friends. Is this a common line of thought for women? I recall the song "Name" by Goo Goo Dolls or the line in that Lorde song about those who "Don't dance and tell." Wildest dreams by Taylor Swift. Is this kind of fling a common fantasy for women?
I think I'm into some sort of love-hate feeling. I mean, I hate him that everything he did is wrong in my eyesq, but I love him so much I still put him in my priority. Honestly, I don't know.
I feel so bad talking about my boyfriend like this and asking for help, but if I'm hurting and feeling ignored then it should matter. My patience is running low, I card so much and love him but honestly as an adult he shouldnt have me telling him to do basic things like cleaning up or suggesting when he should shower. His father also encourages an immature, drink and maybe try some drugs type of lifestyle for "experience " as if it's going to help him achieve anything. I'm sure one day he will get around, Ive pampered him and maybe some of the things I said to him got to his head and it just feels so one-sided. even some of the things he says to me makes me feel bad... like he only did XYZ for me to "get out the friendzone", honestly I feel like a long term rebound.