there's some dark shit out there man
I hate looking over at him and still after 7 years getting the same feeling as the day I fell in love with him and then being overcome with feeling like he doesn't care about me because he's always lost in his own little world. I miss the days when we didn't feel like strangers.
I think my mother believes I am a fall back boyfriend. She has straight up told me many times the reason she had me was because her first husband had died. When she would get dumped every so often she would make me sleep in bed with her and hold her. This went on well into my teen years. If I would talk to girls she would go behind my back to talk bad-mouth me to them in order to fuck it up. I had to hide relationships. She may have been trying to take me off the dating market since I was little. She would frequently tell me how she wanted a girl, and would try to get me in girl roles like a flower "boy" at a wedding. She was insistent that I was gay and didn't know it yet. I later got a long distance relationship when I was trying to be a musician. I got a normal job and moved to a city near my childhood home to marry my wife. My mother flipped. Tried to convince my wife I am a schizophrenic capable of murder, or stupid, and similar lies. When my wife wouldn't leave me and we had a kid, my mother "dumped" me and "adopted" her bf's 18 year old estranged son and moved him into my old room. Then she would mail me pictures of them together. So since her bf dumped her and the kids moved away and got sick of her she's all alone now. No fucking WAY am I going back to her. That woman is dangerous and I need to keep my kids far away.
You guys are so amazing. I have put so many confessions on here about different parts of my relationship and you guys comment some great words of wisdom. Thank you. It's working pretty well.
i feel like sometimes i'll never get a boyfriend for the sole reason of i wouldn't want anyone to fuck me before marriage lol. maybe it's my self conscious talking but EVEN though if i DO get a loving boyfriend that loves me wholeheartedly i feel like he'll eventually have that 'itch' and i don't mean to stereotype the average dude but i feel like if i dont fullfill or satisfy his needs he'll eventually get bored of me, blinded by lust then cheat on me. yikes
if you spend more time engrossed in porn then time interacting with the woman you profess to love...... dont you think that possibly there is something wrong with that?
How is it that you do things to break my trust, (which I don't easily give out, trusting people has always been a hard thing for me to do.) then you can't give me the decency to take the time I need to learn to trust you again. Is that wrong, or am I? Anyone?
How come I never worried about any other relationship being bad or them cheating on me? And then the end result being me.. alone again. But now I think I have something good and all I can do is worry.
Yeah you dodged a bullet by not wanting to have anything more with me. But are you so sure that I didn't also? I hate you now and realized that you're only good for lousy fucking.
My fiance and me live together and I've noticed something strange that I don't know how to explain. A few months ago I found a long black hair in our bathroom. Today I was cleaning and I found another hair just like it. The first time I mentioned it to him. He said that he didn't know where it was from so I brushed it off but this time I'm concerned. Tbf we're together most of the time so that would leave him limited time to cheat if he even wanted to. However I definitely know that no person who has been in our flat has hair even remotely similar and I'm pretty sure it's like the same one that I found the last time. One heck of a coincidence and I don't know what to think.