After 3 years of living with my partner, building up a life from having nothing to having a little lower than basic (but suitable for us), a huge part of my inner self is fed up with it. I'm 21, we live like a family already, have 3 cats (which i really love to the bone), we get along so well, share interests, views on the world and humanity etc. ... Each of us has their own hobbies, he's trying everything to make me happy and I shouldn't be complaining about our relationship at all. Maybe the financial situation could be better (he doesn't have any qualifications/degrees/job and I've been studying and working on both weekends&holidays for 2 years. He's trying his best but that's no solution for the future. This part of me doesn't want it anymore, I feel imprisoned at the thought of living like that till we're old. To him it's perfect, he's had a life with less stability and a history of mental health problems which was cured by what we have now. I used to wish for this kind of life when I was younger, maybe even those 3 years ago. But I've changed somehow. I held back a lot of interests and activities, meeting friends or new people, go out and so on to be there for him. Now I started to catch it up a little bit and realized what I've been missing. I'm living his life, not mine. I would love to have my own flat or living with other people, regenerate, be myself and make my own experiences and decisions. I told him more than once, he's like "You wouldn't be able to do so" , "You can have this even though we live together" or "So you don't love me?" "Why do you want to destroy what we've build up?" I've met someone who used to be in a similar situation and he's willing to help me with fulfilling my dreams. Also my friends, even his mom would appreciate me doing that step into independence and freedom. I don't know what to do and time is passing day by day, also I'm loosing my best years to him and my current life...
Life advice: Don't take it personal when you get dumped. You didn't "lose" she just realized you weren't a good fit before you did. Some time ago I was dumped. I kept trying to make it work, but she wanted out. She was right. We would have made each other miserable. I don't drink, she goes to the club and gets Drunk all the time. She comes from money, I'm a self-made man. I'm religious, she's not. She is now the mistress of a politician's son. We would have been miserable together. She just saw it first. I'm glad she did, because I would have kept trying and it would have sucked. I'm married to the right woman and I am happy now.
I said some fucked up shit last night and I don’t know how to recover. I was having a bad day from the jump and hella tired. My girl was over and I asked her a basic ass question if she locked the door or not and she got an attitude for no reason and we got in an argument. I was already pissed off and she pissed me off even more and I told her “If somebody breaks in I hope they come shoot you first” as soon as I said it I knew i fucked up. She startee crying instantly and left. I feel stupid as hell now and don’t know what to do
Can't you see that I treat you differently than I treat everyone else? Can't you see how wonderstruck I am when you look into my eyes? Can't you tell that I melt whenever we touch? You make me feel so vulnerable and yet so safe, like I'm a child again with a schoolgirl crush. But I don't think you see it.
I hope my best friend's boyfriend knows how lucky he is to have her. I'd give anything to have a girl like her. I'm glad he treats her right, it's what she deserves.
I had a nightmare but it was funny cuz my crush's gf had lots of accidents and I kept laughing at her!! and wake up on the best mood ever !! whut do u thinkk?
need help. i don't know if I still love my boyfriend, but after i saw something he did that turned me, i never felt the same again, i mean i don't feel attracted to him anymore at all. i start to feel weird telling him i love you. what's wrong with me? don't want to hurt him
I just wish I had a hand to hold at the funeral today. It seemed like everybody there had someone with them but me. I so desperately want the comfort of a partner, not just at this difficult time, but all the time. I just feel so lonely. I feel like I have no support.
I need opinions if I'm mentally ill or not. I've been through alot in life and was with my ex(first boyfriend) for about 4 going on 5 years. he hurt me and did alot of horrible things to me but because I never actually acknowledged them...they have started to affect me lately. we have been broken up for 3 years now. he died in 2015...and raped me before he died...i blurred out the memory and pretended it didn't happen...after he died he kind of ruined my reputation to everyone. he made me.out to be a horrible person and a whore and I've never been with anyone but.him. I would literally give him the clothes off my back. not saying I'm perfect but I definitely treated him better than I treated myself and most likely everyone else. I prayed about it and thought I had moved on but it still bothers me. he also had his side chick stalking me at the time way b4 he died(at the time I didn't know she was his side chick). her and one of the other girl he was seeing during the time we were together started taunting me and spreading horrible rumors and lies about me.i. ignored them. his friends who tried to hit on me and I ignored then turned on me also. I held alot of resentment towards all of them for a while. for his side chick bothering me, and his friends spreading lies, saw him cheating, laughing in my face,letting him use their car to cheat,etc I always felt the need to destroy all of them and get my revenge but I know karma will take care of that. sometimes I feel a little psycho because whenever a female gets too close to my current bf or does something I feel inappropriate,I feel rate inside and I don't want to feel that way.its not that I'm insecure but I just don't want to lose someone precious...i have no one else :/
I want to come out to my family as bisexual. But I want to have a reason to, meaning I want a girlfriend. I don't want to just, out of the blue, tell them. I want to say "She is my girlfriend. I'm bisexual." I want them to see that I can actually love someone of the same sex, and that my attraction to girls is not just some kind of twisted desperation for attention. I'm just so tired of hiding who I am.