In November, my fiance and I are going to pick up the stuff from my storage unit in my hometown. While we're there, if we can afford it, I want to get a courthouse wedding. All we need is the fees for the marriage license and some cheap wedding rings. A full wedding ceremony and reception would be too much work and money, and it's truly not needed. A wedding is one day, but marriage is forever. Marriage is the thing I want to invest in, not some huge party that I always saw as benefiting my family more than me. Our love and commitment will be just as valid either way. I want a dress and shoes for the pictures, a flower to press in the photo album, and someone to take pictures. The reason I want to get married while we're there is so my family can be with us afterwards and eat cake with us. We can get married in the area we live now, but the only people who could be there would be his sister and nephews.
I just fantasized about it being delicious to the guy ... I'm just tired of waiting for a good time with a good guy. It's so hard to find. :P
Ugh I wish I could get a boyfriend. I'm so fucking horny. But I don't just want sex, I want a relationship. I want love. But I'm craving sex. If only the people I'm interested in actually liked me back.
I told him that I would hate to think I would never see him again etc. I lied. I think I just wanted to check in and see if he ever cared at all or had any remorse for what he has done etc. He's a rapist sociopath....I was wrong with thinking I mattered. He just showed up wanting me to suck his dick. Wtf Wow dude. Like wow.
Earlier today, I posted on here about how my sister and I have never gotten along and I knew she'd stop talking to me once she didn't need anything anymore. She crossed a line tonight and I will never forgive her for it. She asked me last minute if I'd babysit for her from 10:30 am - 9:00 pm. I love my nephew, but babysitting for almost 14 hours and only getting $5 in gas money is a bit much. She doesn't send him to my house with food or any toys. My budget is tight already, I can't afford to suddenly add on another mouth to feed plus drive an extra 30 minutes to drive her around. Last week, I barely ate and lost a noticeable amount of weight because I had to use my grocery money on gas. I budget $40 per paycheck for gas, that's exactly enough to get me to and from work for two weeks. I ended up spending about $60. So I asked my boyfriend if he'd be up for helping me babysit. Again, 14 hour day with a bored 5 year old who doesn't have any toys is exhausting. He said no, we already had plans for the day and we've babysat whenever possible for two weeks. So I said no. She got pissed and said "shocking". I don't like saying no, but I have a right to. On the car ride home, she just started ranting at me, cussing me, saying the family is sick of my shit because I don't call. She said our (dead) mother would be disappointed in the cunt I've turned into. That crosses the line for me. I will never forget that or forgive her for it. For five years, the one thing I've wondered is would my mom be proud of me? And then my own sister throws that in my face. If my nephew wasn't in the car, I wouldve stopped and made her walk home. She said if they're such a burden I won't get to see my nephew again and lose their number. After the comment about our mom, I don't give a damn about her. But I love my nephew. I want to see him grow up. I want him to know how much I love him. And his last memory of me is going to be me and his mom screaming and cussing at each other. He won't remember me will he? I don't remember much from when I was 5. If his mom never talks about me except to talk trash, and never let's me see him, he's gonna forget me. I'm scared his mom won't tell him I love him. He'll just forget me, or think I don't care. I've spent the last two hours crying on and off, but I doubt she's cried at all. She's probably just gonna tell someone how much of a bitch I am. My sister is dead to me. I'm done hoping we'll have some kind of normal or healthy relationship. Anyone who could be that hateful and cruel over not babysitting is not someone I want in my life. If she needs me in the future, I'll tell her to fuck off. Unless someone's dead, in the hospital, or my nephew needs me, she can fuck off.
why do one long for the past....
So I'm a 24 female. Since I was 16 I had strong sexual needs and I begun experiencing. Until recently I felt the need for intercourse almost daily (sometimes a few times a day) and it was wild and fun. Now I'm in a serious, committed, loving and caring 1.5 years old relationship and, since last 7-8 months, I don't feel the need for sex and I feel like something is wrong with me. My bf is understanding about this, but he is always horny and sometimes I just sleep with him just to please him. I feel broken. I want to have that urge again. (P. S. He is a beast in bed and looks athletic, I don't think the problem comes from him)
I've never been close to my sister. We're two completely different people and our personalities just don't get along well. She's extroverted, social, loud. I'm introverted, shy, quiet, and never party. She was mean to me when we were kids. I can count on one hand how many times we've called or texted the other just to talk. Not because of an emergency, or one of us needed something, just wanting to talk. I think it's 2 or 3 times. It's hurtful that she has all these friends she talks to and hangs out with all the time, but I'm never included. The only reason she's talked to me lately is because her car was repossessed, her boyfriend is in jail, and she needed rides to work and a babysitter. Once she gets a car and a regular babysitter, she's not gonna talk to me. To be honest, I'm okay with not being best friends with her. I just want to see my nephew and see him grow up. Thinking about my nephew growing up without knowing how much I love him kills me. I wish I had a sister that loved me. Other families that I know, siblings love each other and are friends. I know she loves me because we're family, but she doesn't like me as a person and I know that. I've given up on being close to her. I had hope when she needed me this time, but she still treats me like a stranger.
you old miserable ass LIVES to see my misery. you're gonna die slow watching me glo up tho.
I want my boyfriend to slap my ass again. Sucks to be in a long distance relationship.