Im so fucking hurt right now. I respected this woman’s boundaries for 2 fucking years and I just found out tonight she’s having a baby by another dude it barely been 5 months since we broke up. We started dating 2016 and she ended things in December 2018 and im so dead inside right now. I gave every ounce of love I had to this woman. She told me she wanted to wait until marriage to have sex and despite my concerns and hesitation I accepted it and was faithful to her in a sexless relationship just for her to fuck some other dude and have a baby by him not even 5 months later. I’ve never felt this kind of pain in my life. This was supposed to be my future wife, we were supposed to have a family together. I put my all into this woman. I’m just in absolute shock right now I can hardly breathe.
I feel like, I've been inside my house for too long (almost a full month without seeing anyone). I want to go out, but I don't want to. So... yeah. That's my live now
the moment he told me that he would only come to visit if bad things —such as my death even was mentioned— happened is the moment when almost my entire sanity broke into pieces.
i am tired of understanding the fact that we living being has emotion. the way it works is full of paradox and irony, both positive and negative, and I am tired of always be the one to understand it most.
I've came out to my parents about being bisexual, but they don't trust me going to sleepovers anymore. And I feel like if I tell them about my almost 4 month relationship with my girlfriend they're going to punish me in some way. Even my girlfriend tells me not to tell my parents that she'll be at the sleepover, just because she thinks that I won't be able to come , which has happened before. So I have come up with a secret identity for my girlfriend. I named "him" Matthew, I only told my parents that I liked "him" and they encourage me to do tell or do something to "him".I might tell my parents this summer because we'll be out of state far away from my girlfriend. :/
heyy! im a 19 girl and I had sex with 12 partners all my life , but I switch them in the same week multiple times. I even have sex with 3 of them in the same day (different times) and love it . now I want to have fun with a girl !!
i definitely would have cheated on you again tonight if circumstances allowed it
Thoughts of a guy who went from "absolute beginner" into having kinky sex in a few month: Things have gotten kinda weird since we established a safeword...for example, she doesn't want me to do anal, yet things get worked up and since she didn't say the safeword, I still do it, then she asks me to continue because according to her, she likes it if I go, as she said, "wild" on her and "abuse" her. I mean, yeah, hardcore sex is fun and all, but it's utmost questionable once the point at which "no means yes" is reached. Also we're into pet play, and it's fun to hear her purr like a cat while cumming, but, dear god, the implications of the whole "animal"-theme kinda make me uncomfortable. Another interesting thing is: While I'm horny, her cum tastes really good, but afterwards I realize that it actually tastes hardly defineable, mostly like urine - google it, the stuff's mostly made up from it - yet slightly better, I guess... (I'd would almost be sad if this doesn't end up on r/Ihavesex)
to the people who think that a girl must not have actually been sexually assaulted 'because if she had, she would of ____" are part of the reason why there is no justice and now everyone thinks that all guys are victims of false accusation claims. yes, there are some false accusations, I won't pretend it doesn't happen. but you don't know what kind of emotional trauma sexual assault can produce, you don't know how you would react until it happens. sure before it happened to me I used to think 'why wouldn't they have reported it right away?' 'why not get a rape kit' 'there's no way someone who was sexually assaulted who would still be around their aggressor after it happened'. but these are just not true. the truth, is that everyone reacts and feels differently about the situation, everyone's aggressor meant something different to them. in my case it was someone I cared about and was very close to. sometimes I think it would of been easier to report if it had been a stranger, but realistically there are so many women who don't report those either, so maybe not. now in my case, i'm still friends with the guy who did it... yes I see him on a regular basis and we still hangout. sounds like i'm making it up now doesn't it? I know what it looks like and that's a huge reason why I can never report it. him and his gf at the time when it happened, made me feel as if it never happened, that I made it all up. and yet I know it happened, because it wasn't just once. and I also know he used to rape his gf as well, but they were dating it isn't rape, right? she stayed with him for almost 2 years and if I had to guess probably got sexually assaulted at least 50 times. because she never said no. because she would be half asleep or drunk and she couldn't. is that a normal response? to stay with someone for so long. then when it happens to another girl, you still take his side and make her feel worthless? no, not really. to a court that would look like BS. but when u care about someone, when they manipulate you into thinking he did nothing wrong and no one would believe you. you do some weird stuff. so don't judge someone because u may never know what really happened, only they do and their potential aggressor. that's why rape and sexual assault is so hard to convict. because it's intimate, often no witnesses. it's all he said she said unless a rape kit is performed within the time frame. but unless there are sure signs of force or semen, it won't work and with certain sexual assaults, force isnt always obvious. nor do all aggressors ejaculate. so as I said. you may never know what happened, so just cuz it sounds unreal, doesn't mean it is
Writing this to vent, because I can't in reallife, please read this wot. My gf has and/or had schizophrenia. According to her, intrusive voices that reinforce selfdoubt in her have become rare and basically nonexistant, but it was a real problem when she was younger. I rarely talk to her about it, she doesn't like it and it, I confess, pains me to see her getting as pale as a corpse with an expression of eldritch terror on her face, when she speaks about the whole deal, expressing her fear that the whole shit will come back one day...and I can't, for fucks sake, relate...my only experience with that was a time where I smoked way too much weed with my friends and their voices kept lingering in my thoughts after they went home, which was kinda spooky and unpleasant, but gone with the dawn as I woke up the next morning...I mean, I already tend to worry to much, but this whole ordeal just keeps me awake at night. She is so sweet, smart, utterly perfect for me, and I love her, it psychologically and physically hurts to know that she has or at least had to carry such a burden. I hope the fact that the intrusive voices got better/stopped as she got older and through regular visits to the psychologist shows that it just was a young minds interpretation of selfdoubt, yet, being mentally broken myself - yet differently, I know that this hope is in vain.