The biggest lie I was ever told is that acne is just for teenagers. It never goes away, it continues into adulthood.
i know she loved me a lot or better still does it but i think a relationship where your partner insults you when they run out of arguments does not work. well she broke up because i was reluctant after another fight with nothing but insults from her site. more insults followed after the breakup, that i am an asshole and she will find someone better than me. still i miss her.
My cousin who was 17 used to make me strip naked when I was 12 and we were alone. He used to grab my penis and make me watch him masturbate. He then encouraged me to molest my sister, and I did it because I was afraid of what he would do to me if I didn't. Then he raped me. Just once. Years ago. But I feel like a waste of life and I want to commit suicide.
I asked my crush on a date and she straight up said, "No. Excuse me." And walked away. One of her friends came up to me later in the day and told me that my crush thinks I'm cute but won't date because I have schizophrenia. Not gonna lie. I felt like crying.
My boss reduced me to tears this morning over a small mistake. It wasn't a big deal at all. But he kept screaming at me right in my face in front of everyone and I just can't handle that. He's so intimidating. And when I broke down crying he told me to "man up." Man up? I'm fourteen.
I started crying tonight because I miss my mom so badly and I had trouble remembering good memories. I know there were tons of good memories. I loved her and she was my best friend. But I couldn't flash back to the good memories the same way I flash back to the night she died. I want to see my mom smiling and hear her laugh and talk. Instead I just see her struggling to breathe, being carried out of our house by paramedics, then lying dead on the hospital bed. I want that out of my head! I know I need help. I need a therapist and maybe something for the depression and anxiety. I just can't afford it. My insurance sucks. Most days I'm fine. Most days I can remember Mom and be sad, but not sobbing uncontrollably. On better days, I can remember the good memories and be grateful I got them. May 5th will make it 5 years she's been gone. I don't even know if I believe in a heaven or hell anymore and that scares me even more. What if there's no afterlife and I never get to see my mom again? What if she's in heaven and I'm in hell, and I can't hug her even once? What if reincarnation is what happens, and all my memories of her and everyone else I've ever loved just disappear? I still won't get to see my mom, and I'll just have to lose more people I love in that lifetime too.
I'm scared of arguing. Especially if it's my parents. Whenever they argue, I start crying uncontrollably and I feel really guilty even if the thingthey're arguing about has nothing to do with me. If there's even a slight tension between the two of them I feel anxious and like I want to run away. And this might be normal if I was a kid but I'm 20 years old. This is extremely embarrassing and I always try to hide so no one sees but sometimes I don't manage to. I've had this kind of extreme reaction to their fights since I was 14, maybe, but I've never seen my siblings react like this, not even my younger ones. I don't know why I'm so sensitive to fights. My therapist said that I have a trauma but I don't remember any particularly scary fights from my childhood that could've caused it. And if there was something like that, why would it have affected only me? ... I'm scared to disagree with anybody because of this all. I always avoid conflict and whenever I do happen to get in a fight, I start crying then too. It's so embarrassing! No one outside of my family will ever respect me if I'm like this. I don't even have social contacts aside from them and I'm scared to get to know people so that they don't find out how pathetic I am.
This guy told me my face is okay but my body isn’t because I’m underweight
I feel like a dog that lashes out at its owner and then immediately feels bad for it. I can't control my temper, and when I get upset, I spit venom at the people I care about, and then as soon as I've said it, even before the anger fades, the remorse sets in. I don't want to be this way, but I don't know how to change. I don't want to keep hurting the people I love. I don't want to keep offering them the same shitty "I'm sorry" every single time because I can't find anything better to say. I don't want to lose everyone who's important to me just because I can't keep my emotions in check.
my depression is getting worst....im just a walking corpse....