I just wish I had a hand to hold at the funeral today. It seemed like everybody there had someone with them but me. I so desperately want the comfort of a partner, not just at this difficult time, but all the time. I just feel so lonely. I feel like I have no support.
My therapist appointment is too far away and I feel awful. Yesterday in class I felt so stupid when I didn't find answers in the texts we had to read. And last week I couldn't understand a word after the teacher explained it to me. Also, like usual I've been too scared to talk to anybody. I can't talk to anyone but this site.
The person I was sitting next to dropped her stuff on the desk and it startled me and I flinched really hard and she was like "awww, I wasn't going to hit you. You poor traumatized boy!!" And she hugged me. I was so embarrassed I'm sure my face was completely red. I didn't think she was going to hit me I was just startled by the sudden noise. I kind of just want to disappear.
I'm scared of getting brainwashed. I constantly think about how everyone's data is analyzed so that they can be manipulated in a way that accommodates their interests and goddammit how can you trust ANYTHING nowadays. They know everything about everyone. They can probably predict our thoughts too. I don't know what I can do and I just delete my cookies twice everytime I use Internet as if it helps.
Heavy heart Emotionally unstable I don't usually feel like this But every time I did, i always want to drop everything and leave and do nothing But i didn't because I'm a coward
Ummm so on Saturday I was at a party and my friends were pressuring me to play this game where I'm blindfolded and someone kisses me and I have to guess who it was. I didn't really want to but they kept telling me to, so I did it. Well...the first person that kissed me was a girl, and the second person that kissed me was...a guy. I didn't know it was a guy at the time, but someone told me it was a guy afterward. I really didn't want that to happen because I'm already so confused about my sexual orientation and now I think that since I enjoyed the kiss I am probably gay or bisexual. If I had known a guy was going to kiss me that night then I would have not played at all but I did and now things are so confusing for me. I am kind of sad and wish I would take it all back. It's also so embarrassing because all of my friends were watching us kiss and...I don't know. I just am kind of humiliated.
is it ok to fantasize about being with someone but it's no one in particular but be in a relationship? is this just some weird fantasy or does it mean I don't love them anymore..
Why are Japanese men so attractive? Like, I just can't. I would love to get a chance too date one.
If your loved one survived a burn in a house fire resulting in most of the face eaten away but ended up blind, would you tell him/her that the face is burnt passed recognition or would you hide it?
My ex broke up with me about 4 months ago, a day after we celebrated our second year anniversary. She said she wanted some time alone to be by herself again because there's things in life she still wants to explore. I know she felt suffocated by the relationship and so I agreed. Now I still think about her all the time and I can't help but feel jealous when she's out with someone new doing things with other people instead of with me. Should I just move the fuck on? I tried to think negatively of her so I'd learn to not loce her but she's my best friend, how Could I?