Today, I'm gonna break up with my fiancee because every time we try to get married or set a date, something happens. I'm taking it as a sign that we aren't meant to be together.
it's happening....im going through the same stuff i went through with my ex and it's breaking me.i had a mini pannick attack and almost there up.i can't go through this again. I'm going to break up and leave. I deserve someone who loves me and cherishes me not someone who loves everyone and abuses me and my love.i just hate the fact that this is someone I opened my heart to that did this to me .it hurts so much more. he's all I had and idk what to do anymore. I can no longer trust anyone. I feel like absolute crap. I just wanna bury myself in a hole. why am I so unlovable? I feel like absolute filth. maybe I should just be a whore....at least they get loved and someone always falls for them. idk what to do im feeling sick to my stomach and I can't eat anything and can barely sleep.
Wish I could prove I love you... But does that mean i have to walk on water?
they would tackle me and sit on my smaller, younger, weaker body and their dirty fingers would pry my mouth open and they would do bad things to me while laughing and i would choke on my tears and snot my fingers clawing at their smiling faces with too much makeup two women one gay man and me alone in the mountains “it will be fun” “it will feel so good” elbows rubbing against sharp rocks bloody knees raw skin and even rawer emotions screaming for help pain. limping. shaking. sobadandsocruel emasculated and humiliated to the brink of insanity
I love people a very good mind and witty. I believe these people are the most interesting and also because Im not witty and personality wise I cant pull up a light vibe. I look very dark to the eyes of people.
Why most of famous Spanish songs are dirty?
Not that I'm disrespecting those who are christians here. But I don't like being one. If my mom didn't raise me to fear god or to feel bad not going to church because of my busy life, I wouldn't be stressed out in life. I wouldn't always have hidden regrets in life. I wouldn't feel pressured because someone rooted me a sense of fear for someone I'm not sure is really there to help emotionally and spiritually. I would be enjoying my career in Biology happily by myself without anyone intruding in my life knowing I'm a science person. I wouldn't believe in superstition that actually happens just because I believe in them. And overall, I wouldn't be lonely really because I have to divide myself all the time. And it's not that being a christian is all bad it's just the way I was raised with it drives me insane. and I always feel bad that I dissapoint my mom because I don't like to believe the ways he does. although, at the same time, this era of our lives, many are starting not to believe in a religion. People are rather structured. So at the same time, I'm pressured not believe in a religion. I'm pressured with my past world, this reality, and my own world generally.....................
the last 2 days have been shit. i haven't done anything
I live in a foreign country for 4 years now.. My 4 years old hamster died today and im feeling very shitty Everyone just said “just a fucking rat” The thing is.. thir rat was my only friend for the last 4 years in this shit country that i hate
I am not sexually attracted to my boyfriend. The first years of our relationship, I thought that we were never having sex because both him and I were too awkward about the whole sex thing. Now, my boyfriend is over this, and thinks that I never want it because my sex drive is low. It isn't. It's quite high, actually, I just don't get aroused by him more than by a lamp or chair. So not at all. I never have been. And that's why I think the so very cherished idea of "falling in love with character, not looks" is bullshit. If you're not also physically attracted, your relationship will eventually be in a dark pit. I have no idea how to fix this. Breaking up seems like the most horrible thing that could happen to me, I love him so much...