I feel lonely. So lonely I question myself if I truly know anyone.
It's been two months since my cat went missing. Sorry to post about this again but I miss her so much, and it's so hard to bear the possibility of not seeing her again. She could have been eaten by a lynx or a wolverine and I'd never find out... I really hope not. The other chance is that someone could have stolen her to keep as their own. I really hope that's it. I just hope she is happy, whatever the casd... I believe she's in heaven if she's dead. She had been with me for eight years, since I was thirteen and she was barely a year old... I wonder if I was a good caretaker. I definitely smothered her with affection too much. She did like to sit on my lap or to be petted, but didn't like to be held - arms around her probably felt too restraining - but I sometimes held her anyway. And the time she had fleas, I didn't treat it right away. And now, I feel like I'm not doing enough to find her. My sister posted about it on our town's facebook group, and I put posters on all three grocery stores that our town has, but not everyone might look at those bulleting boards. Everyone doesn't use facebook either. I should probably put a notice in the town newspaper too. Please be alright, kitty...
I left my hometown 5 yeas ago.. in this 5 years i found someone i love most that anything in the world.. i have a good job, good money, i live in a beautiful city but i miss my country so bad.. i dont know what to do.. i have mothing more in my hometown.. im going back there for 2 weeks to see my mother.. and im fucking afrair, but so fucking affaid that im not gonna be able to be happy here again when im come back.. i just wanted to go back “home” and stay there with my man :(.. i dont know.. im also afraid to tell my man those things :/ i dont think he would be happy there.. and i dondt want him to feel bad there how im feel here now.. i want to be we him but im dindt want him to be unhappy in some place that he doesnt like.. i just dont want him to be sad how iam now :/ i live here because i love him.. im fucking afraid.. im just pray now to not to cry the fuck out of my soul in front of my man when i have to come back here and leave my beloved hometown again :(
You know you have a real piece of sh*t father who has hardly been in your life but judges you like he has been there since you where born. You dont know me. You dont know what I have been threw. So go fuck yourself and drink your life away like you always have been.
I saw today a very atractive woman that was easily a 8/10 in terms of hotness. She was just the way I like 'em: dark hair, tight body and very sexually alluring. The thing is that women like that are way out of my league and seeing her just made me depressed for the rest of the day.
I'm so tired of being insecure. I keep worrying that everyone finds me annoying, rude or immoral, even people I'm close with like my mom and siblings. What if they just pretend to like me because they pity me or feel obligated to and secretly despise me? And I don't even know how to act or what to think when it comes to anybody else, like classmates or the people at group therapy. I just end up feeling ashamed whenever I say something. How can I make friends like this... And if I can't become friendswith others, I'll never find a boyfriend either.
I have no friends because I'm scared of making any. What is the lesser bad - constant loneliness that comes with the loner life, or constant fear of not being good or friendly enough in the company of hypothetical friends?
I hate my bd and I wish he would just leave me and the kids. We do not get along. We don’t see eye to eye on nothing. He’s rude and disrespectful and addicted to porn. He swears I’m a whore but I have not cheated in 8 years we been together. It’s just an unhealthy relationship. I’m an Aries and he’s a Capricorn. I wish he would just get out of my house and my life. Why would you stay with someone and you have nothing nice to say? I told him he’s not the man for me but he just acts as if my feelings don’t matter and it’s like he’s forcing me to be with him. It’s my house and we have 6 kids it’s easier for him to leave but he won’t!!
This really pretty girl was soo nice to me the other night, she was working in the supermarket then i'm pretty sure my face was red and she looked at me all smily and then i said goodnight and she said oh thanks have a good week and i was a huge autist and just walked away cuz i was having all kinds of fuzzy feelings and i didnt look back cuz i was embarassed of having walked out like that lol. but i mean i go to that supermarket a lot what if i kinda saw her like on purpose, but i dont know what i would say it would make me really nervous
I couldn't properly punch my friend in the face when we were having boxing sparring day and i feel stupid about it. im supposed to be better at boxing than him but i felt like my hands weighed 20kilos. cuz i only joined the gym to have friends and like subconsciously my body i guess doesnt want to punch them, cuz they could get upset. but now they are judging me because i wasn't as good as i should be, and i am sad. i want to have friends but also that wont get mad if i punch .. i know its so sad that i joined just for friends.. and i will never tell them this.. so next time i will punch them all in the nose really hard