Nothing is going right with me. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm failing at what I'm going to do. I can't make my parents happy. I want them to be proud of me. But I can't.
to whomever this may reach, I'm struggling with severe depression and I don't think I'll be able to make it out alive. day in and day out it's just the realization that the next day will be completely the same, me wondering what's the point to anything. I have social anxiety also, so even if I wanted to reach out to someone for help, I couldn't, because nobody's there. I wonder every day if I can help myself, but I can't. I don't know what to do. I have never had a single friend in my life because me in the past didn't know how to manage myself and avoid letting fake people run over me. and now after everyone's done with me, fucking used me up for a boost in their social image, now I'm left in the corner, and can't escape because I'm afraid of it happening again, I don't want to be abused again, I don't want to be *used* again. is all this suffering caused by me not being religious? did I do something so bad in the past that I wasn't aware of and now I'm paying for my actions? this shit's been going on since 2020, I don't wanna live another day with this mindset, nor do I wanna live another day in general.
I'm tired of being the therapist friend...
Gusto lng nako igawas akong nararamdaman diri sa secret confession app about my papa this september 19, 2021 hindi ko to makakalimutan kasi pangalawa na niya tong ginawa saamin kagabie september 18 naay nakit an akong manghud na comments nakit an niya na si papa naay gicommentan na girl unya ang mga comment didto is all compliment na maganda yung girl sexy yung girl so naka ingon pud akong manghud na disgusting pati sarili namong papa ha giloodan nami so mao to nag imbestiga ko dugay kaayo ko natulog ha kay nag sige kog huna2 ato so nigawas akong anxiety ani na time then mao to gi try nako na iopen ang account ni papa kay parihos man mi og email so gitry nako so na open nako lahi diay na account akong na open then nag try napud kog lain gi try nako tong number niya then sa sige nakog try sa password na open nako then mao to pagkita nako na nag chat2 sila atong girl na nakit an saakoang manghud naghilak dayon ko then gi click nako ang chat so nakita nako ang ilang conversation nisamot kog hilak unya daghan kaayo kog gina huna2 wala nako giingon saakoang igsoon na naopen nako iyang account og giingnan pud nako siya na ayaw iingon kay mama ha kay di ko gusto masakitan siya mao to kita ko sa conversation didto ko nasakitan tong tawagan nila na love unya sweet kaayo siya sa girl unya saakoang mama wala na then naa pakoy nahibal an na murag amigo to saiyahang silingan sa tacurong unya murag kabalo pud tong silingan nila na ga chat2 ga call2 sila so mas samot kong nasakitan so karong buntag wala siya sa balay kay naay nilakaw so ang girl naa sa hongkong so its okay ra saakoang huna2 na ok ra layo pa ang girl sweet chat palang na pero pag makabalo nako na naa nay mga kita2 og padala2 og kwarta im gonna punch him ng sobra2 kung makita man nimo ni papa mao rani akong gusto ingnon saimoha na your so fucking disgusting pangkaduha na ni nimo na gibuhat saamoa sauna di mi mutoo kay wala man mi ebedensiya pero karon naa na pa sauna giingnan taka na unta mamatay nlng ka maypag gipadayon nlng to nimo naa pakay paluhod2 saakoa sauna pahilak2 unya ingana ra diay gihapon ka ang dili lng man gud nako gusto masakitan diri kay si mama og si maw2 kabalo ka gilood ko nimo mutan aw wa ko ganahi mustorya nimo kay i feel like if your touching me i feel disgust and naa pakay pakasaba2 sauna ha kung maguyab2 ko mura kog bigaon na hoy what the fuck ikaw ang bigaon kamong duha bogo banang babae nimo di na kabalo mangstalk na naa kay pamilya unya unsa na siya pa famous kay abig sexy og gwapa giatay pa your so fucking gross kamong duha kung pwede lng mupatay og tao gipatay ma taka karon sa sobra nako kasuko nimo pero pasalamat ka naa koy ginoo na di nako na pwede buhaton kay naa koy salig niya mao diay ga lock2 ka sa pertahan sainyong kwarto unya madunggan namo murag naa kay kastorya permi unya taga gabie mag sige kag pangatik kay mama na muadto kag manokan yun lng pala mag vediocall2 mo atong burikat nimo na kabet the fuck naman kabalo ka mas asa pako nasakitan tong gi message ka ni mama gabie na " unsa man dira raka matulog" tapos ang ingon ra nimo naa ko saakoang manokan pagtulog nag una dira tapos ana paka ginagamit ang akong phone kay ka storya ni tong handler nimo ang iyang uyab fuck you pa gasinungaling ka kay mama kabalo ka pa ako mas na sakitan kay lahi baya ko na pagka tao very emotional magrebelde baya dayon ko unya pa wa ka nalipong na puros mi babae di mi nimo hatagan og respeto you know what the fuck di napud taka hatagan og respeto kay nawal an kog gana na respetohon paka. and kabalo ka gina comfort ra nako akong sarili karon di ko gusto ishare ni kay diko gusto mapakaulawan ka, kabalo ka pa i cant stop crying last night its because nasakitan ko og sobra2. i dont want you na someday iiwan mo kami.
não sei por onde começar mas sei que sozinho vou está no silêncio do meu quarto na escuridão da minha alma e um sorriso falso pra completar o dia ;)
I (M23) don't know what to do anymore. I broke up with my girlfriend 3 months ago and still can't get over the fact we broke up. we broke up while still loving each other. She developed cancer at age 18 and this really hurt our relationship. She was completely devasted with the diagnosis and I tried to be with her and help her, but she just didn't communicate with me and that's why we broke up. We tried being friends but that just destroyed me more. I love her so freaking much. I was never an emotional person but she changed me. I miss her but know we'll never be a couple again. Everytime I see her I'm completely lost and just want to cry. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to forget her but I can't.
dude! I'm so worried now that I have taken the first steps to put my restraining order in place against my child's dad. but i have to put myself first and stop being nice to a bitter parents who can't do what's best for the kid because they are so blinded by their emotions.
when will I ever find a person who like me the way I like them. I AM FUCKING PISSED.
I know he is playing with my feelings. I know he knows that I like him. and I know he doesn't like me back. but he still is flirty and constantly compliments me. he likes the attention. he likes the fact that I like him. he is waiting for the moment when I confess and he gets to reject me and after all that I still want to keep talking to him because he is such a good friend. it's frustrating.
I thought telling someone I like them would make it better. but it didn't it's making me feel worse. I don't want our friendship to get ruined. I also don't want anyone else to know about this. after I kinda told him the conversation got awkward and we eventually pretended like nothing happened. I hate this and it's giving me a lot of anxiety.