He loved me at the point where I was not confident with myself. I love him now, at the point where he's tired of waiting on me.
It feels if I've been dead for the last 6 months.
I missed my chance to say my goodbyes to my ungle as he was in his death dead. Dont do what I did. Tell your loved ones how important they are too you. Tell them you love them because you may think they will always be there..but eventually, they wont be.
My dog is very sick. There's nothing the vet can do except give him painkillers. I think it's time to let him go but there's some social pressure to "try everything" even though we know it's pointless.
I think I'm too unattractive to be loved. I don't know why, but I always think no one will ever be able to fall in love with me or care about me because I'm not good looking enough. Even when I feel good about myself, there's always that voice in the back of my head thats like "sure you look cute, but there are much better looking people than you".
I feel like my anxiety stops me from doing so much in life. All regular life functions become so difficult for me because of it, and I just wish I didn't have that to hinder me. Don't get me wrong, I can still go through my daily life normally - but I get so much anxiety doing the most normal things that it later makes me want to avoid doing things. I pretty much stay home most of the time in order to avoid encountering a situation which causes me to freak out. I most just go to school and work, but even then I overthink everything and fuck myself up. It's tiring.
I thought he was going to live on forever
I don't know why I watch porn, i like women sexually but I'm also a misanthrope
I still look at women when I'm not at home but it's nothing like before. I want to have sex with some but that's it, I don't want to know them. Even if could get past my fear of talking to women I don't want them to know me cause I'm a retard and an asshole. People that know me well are aware of this. One of my female friends (she had a thing for me in the past) asked me once why I didn't had a gf which I replied that I don't want one because I don't want to drag anyone with me as I go into a downward spiral. Believe me when I tell you all that my life is going nowhere and I'm likely to disgrace myself rather than improve it even the slightest bit.
You think it's easy being me? I'm a disfuncional adult, never had a girlfriend or sex, had friends but pissed all of them and only three talk to me now (I hate one of them btw), can't drive because of my anxiety, can't get a job because of anxiety and the of not belonging anywhere. That's right: I am an outcast, a pariah and always have been since I can remember.