I feel a deep resentment towards my parents. it is almost as if I hate them. they both suck. I wish they will disappear from my life. they are toxic to me and my son.
I wish I was a child again anxiety didnt exist then
I'm so damn lonely and touch starved. I just want to love someone and be loved back. Everyone I know has someone to call their own, except for me. And it hurts. I'm tired of being alone all the time, and I'm tired of getting constantly rejected. All my friends tell me I'm pretty and funny and so nice and that any guy or girl would be lucky to have me! ...but no one wants me. And I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I wish my girlfriend didn't live so far away. I've been really horny lately but I can't get myself off, I need a partner. Plus I just miss her. I just want to be around her. I'd love nothing more than for her to fuck me until I beg for mercy and then cuddle with me until we both fall asleep.
I feel lonely. So lonely I question myself if I truly know anyone.
It's been two months since my cat went missing. Sorry to post about this again but I miss her so much, and it's so hard to bear the possibility of not seeing her again. She could have been eaten by a lynx or a wolverine and I'd never find out... I really hope not. The other chance is that someone could have stolen her to keep as their own. I really hope that's it. I just hope she is happy, whatever the casd... I believe she's in heaven if she's dead. She had been with me for eight years, since I was thirteen and she was barely a year old... I wonder if I was a good caretaker. I definitely smothered her with affection too much. She did like to sit on my lap or to be petted, but didn't like to be held - arms around her probably felt too restraining - but I sometimes held her anyway. And the time she had fleas, I didn't treat it right away. And now, I feel like I'm not doing enough to find her. My sister posted about it on our town's facebook group, and I put posters on all three grocery stores that our town has, but not everyone might look at those bulleting boards. Everyone doesn't use facebook either. I should probably put a notice in the town newspaper too. Please be alright, kitty...
I left my hometown 5 yeas ago.. in this 5 years i found someone i love most that anything in the world.. i have a good job, good money, i live in a beautiful city but i miss my country so bad.. i dont know what to do.. i have mothing more in my hometown.. im going back there for 2 weeks to see my mother.. and im fucking afrair, but so fucking affaid that im not gonna be able to be happy here again when im come back.. i just wanted to go back “home” and stay there with my man :(.. i dont know.. im also afraid to tell my man those things :/ i dont think he would be happy there.. and i dondt want him to feel bad there how im feel here now.. i want to be we him but im dindt want him to be unhappy in some place that he doesnt like.. i just dont want him to be sad how iam now :/ i live here because i love him.. im fucking afraid.. im just pray now to not to cry the fuck out of my soul in front of my man when i have to come back here and leave my beloved hometown again :(
You know you have a real piece of sh*t father who has hardly been in your life but judges you like he has been there since you where born. You dont know me. You dont know what I have been threw. So go fuck yourself and drink your life away like you always have been.
I saw today a very atractive woman that was easily a 8/10 in terms of hotness. She was just the way I like 'em: dark hair, tight body and very sexually alluring. The thing is that women like that are way out of my league and seeing her just made me depressed for the rest of the day.
I'm so tired of being insecure. I keep worrying that everyone finds me annoying, rude or immoral, even people I'm close with like my mom and siblings. What if they just pretend to like me because they pity me or feel obligated to and secretly despise me? And I don't even know how to act or what to think when it comes to anybody else, like classmates or the people at group therapy. I just end up feeling ashamed whenever I say something. How can I make friends like this... And if I can't become friendswith others, I'll never find a boyfriend either.