I have no friends because I'm scared of making any. What is the lesser bad - constant loneliness that comes with the loner life, or constant fear of not being good or friendly enough in the company of hypothetical friends?
I hate my bd and I wish he would just leave me and the kids. We do not get along. We don’t see eye to eye on nothing. He’s rude and disrespectful and addicted to porn. He swears I’m a whore but I have not cheated in 8 years we been together. It’s just an unhealthy relationship. I’m an Aries and he’s a Capricorn. I wish he would just get out of my house and my life. Why would you stay with someone and you have nothing nice to say? I told him he’s not the man for me but he just acts as if my feelings don’t matter and it’s like he’s forcing me to be with him. It’s my house and we have 6 kids it’s easier for him to leave but he won’t!!
This really pretty girl was soo nice to me the other night, she was working in the supermarket then i'm pretty sure my face was red and she looked at me all smily and then i said goodnight and she said oh thanks have a good week and i was a huge autist and just walked away cuz i was having all kinds of fuzzy feelings and i didnt look back cuz i was embarassed of having walked out like that lol. but i mean i go to that supermarket a lot what if i kinda saw her like on purpose, but i dont know what i would say it would make me really nervous
I couldn't properly punch my friend in the face when we were having boxing sparring day and i feel stupid about it. im supposed to be better at boxing than him but i felt like my hands weighed 20kilos. cuz i only joined the gym to have friends and like subconsciously my body i guess doesnt want to punch them, cuz they could get upset. but now they are judging me because i wasn't as good as i should be, and i am sad. i want to have friends but also that wont get mad if i punch .. i know its so sad that i joined just for friends.. and i will never tell them this.. so next time i will punch them all in the nose really hard
I want my parents to break up. My mother is what I'd like to call "the side chick." The thing is, my father already had a family. She and my father knew about the consequences and decided to have a kid. They had me. Damn that moment. I tied them together so that sucks. I love them both to death but they shouldn't be together. Their relationship is toxic. They fight all the goddamn time. Then they make up. it's an endless cycle and I'm tired of it. They should just leave each other. I don't mind. How do i tell them about my emotions about their relationship? I'm probably gonna be slapped if i say anything like this.
You know what's annoying? Getting feelings that you KNOW aren't true but they stay anyway. E.g. phobias (for me it's about dust), jealousy when you see your partner talking to their friend who is same gender as you, and the classic "I'm worthless and global problems are my fault" -feeling.
Do you still come here hoping to read one of my confessions? Well, i still come here to write about you. I could not get over you, over us. We were happy in your den, our refuge. But the real world was not for us. We could not make it. You know this, and i know i am to blame for leaving, but it was the least damaging thing i could do. I broke your heart, i know. But i also broke mine. I wish we could have a talk, maybe it could help... Closure... Or it would do just more damage...
I know i'm worthless, i can't do anything. I sometimes trying to love myself, but i can't people just keep judging me, makes my confidence down, and i end up with crying by myself. And the hard part is i can't tell anybody about this.
there's some dark shit out there man
I feel guilty all the time and I just want to apologize to everyone I see