just one more sleep till i can have more jiu jitsu practices! without classes i dont really have anyone to hangout with or friends, im pretty much mentally ill and not socialized as an infant so i'll never be someone ppl enjoy hanging out with, but i like to go training, i try to stay quiet and just train. in days like today with no training, it feels really bad. i hope today goes by quick
broke up whit my bf yesterday. I have never had my heart broken like this before. he just gave up and didnt even fight it or try to make things better and that hurts me so much. I love him so much. I have never had a boyfriend that I actually love and that I can see a future whit. he was my best friend. I don't know what to do whit myself..
I've started to talk to this American girl, she said that she loves me and that i'm her bf. She's very pretty too. But I'm not sure I like her back. And I don't know what to do because I don't wanna hurt her but I think I'm not relationship material.
can anyone help and give some advice what is the best way to not annoy or upset or creep out when u meet someone who is a celebrity i guess who are your hero and your role model and super important to you? theres this fighter i like a lot, she's the first fighter who i related to and felt they were like me, and i always liked fighting but never had courage because all fighter never felt like they were like me, but then i saw Rose and she gave me confidence and i started training again this time wanting to compete. i think she's just the absolute best and a fighting genius. fighting for money isnt that huge of a world, i feel i might meet her at some point, and im terrified of it, i dont want to cry in front of her but i feel like i couldnt say hi without crying, i think she will be creeped out by it , cuz im a boy and shes a girl and most boys have as hero other boys, but she really is my hero i thought about and i'd like to say hi, and that it's great to meet her, and if she talked to me for a little more, i would say 'ur the first fighter i related to and slowly youve come to be my hero and role model'' but if i said this phrase, i think i would cry and look ridiculous.. i heard someone say girls HATE to see a boy crying, they are disgusted by it, is that true?? maybe someone could give some advice, on what or how i could say it better
I feel uncomfortable when somone is sexually attracted too me.
I moved into my new room so i can start training, the room is honestly terrible, the walls are full of roles, everything is nasty from the previous renter, and theres no space to stretch legs at night, i sleep glued to the wall full of holes and bed is also pressed against those walls, so i feel a spider could show up at any moment. today i didnt get any sleep at all.. the shower was cold. my house where i left, my room was so good and fancy, everything of concrete, a king size bed, the shower was so strong and piping hot. i really miss those comforts, and worse of all, it's been 2 days and i STILL haven't had a training session.. but hopefully this week i can start the BJJ, im gonna basically spend all day at the gym because i dont want to come home lol. i think i'll come here only to sleep and thats it. i wish the wall didnt have so much holes. last night i was warm under my blankets, but my head was freezing. there are holes everywhere. i haven't showed my mom what it looks like, she would freak out so bad.. but i didn't have other option, i cant afford to not train for a whole year. otherwise i'll never go anywhere in this career, and i'll never be like Rose.. it sucks tho. the smell in the room is the worst part, it smells terrible :/ and i dont know even what smell it is. im gonna train tonight with my friend , i think being here with all these hardships without doing training is whats making me feel bad, cuz i knew it would be bad here, but if i can feel like my ninja skills are progressing then every hardship will feel worth it, because to me nothing matters rn other than getting better at my art, so i can be like my hero, Rose
I was friends with this girl, she was an absolute unicorn. this girl road a longboard, played cards, enjoyed horror movies ect ect all those things plus many more that I myself very much enjoyed. I was told upon meeting this girl that " I just want to be friends, cuddle and watch movies if any thing changes I'll let you know" now as a guy iv heard variations of this other times as well but seem to always get this booty wiggle while we cuddling and it usualy ends up being go time anyway. but iv also come across a few that didn't the first couple nights, not this girl tho. my unicorn gave me absolutely nothing as far as a butt jiggle or wiggle is concerned. This girl gave me time, attenchion, understanding, enjoyed so many hobbies of mine, then one night things changed. she rubbed on my crotch and said "I think I want something different tonight" and away we went, dead done and I'm totally hoping the whole relationship thing might actually be a thing heck even more sex in the future lolz. Nope just sticky platonic cuddling for about two months. then one night she stops by cuddles and just before leaving tells me that she has been between dating me and another guy for awhile, but she technically met him a couple weeks before me and felt he should have first chance. I myself can't argue with brutal honesty and logic or reason, but that shit broke my heart. we are still friends and she's married now . this girl is and always will be for me "The One Who Got Away".
when I was a kid I was abused a lot and starved. my mom pretends like it's nothing and that it's all my fault but it is not because I was a child and she was the parent or at least was suppose to be. my dad was so depressed that he never did anything whit me and he still never contact me in any way. there is so many thing that they did to me as a child that has just messed me up. every day is so difficult and empty.. I'm hopefully gonna get therapy soon tho so that's a good thing
if ur a straight boy is it ok to be a little slut cuz i am im such a girly slut who want a rubber dick in my ass and to be told what to do
I am so broken. I am so in love with someone who isn't here anymore. I'm so lonely but I don't want anyone else. I can't handle how much my heart hurts. I found our her feelings were the same just hours before she passed. I was by her side. I miss her. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it will all be ok but I want that someone to be her. I thought I would be in a better place one year on but I long for her every second of every day