why are people willing to spend tens of thousands of dollars to go to college or university, no guarantee of a job. or are willing to spend 1000$ on video games with no advantage at all to your life. sure its fun. but no real value... but when you offer them a program with coaches, material, and all the tools necessary to get totally out of debt, accumulate more income and have better succes in your relationships for 250$ and they tell you thats way too expensive, it's not worth their money or time, say things like 'what if it doesn't work' or 'get away from me with that scam.' people are so flawed in their thinking its unreal
I feel aweful for laughing. but it's mildly funny. I feel aweful it happened and that it'll cost them a lot of money. but there's some irony that's prettt funny. so my in laws have 2 pick up trucks, identical, that they care more about than their children as far as i'm concerned. trucks are meant to be used and to haul things, transport things. but not these ones. they want nothing to touch them ever. they've never hauled anything with it. never been on a bad road with it. they've taken the long way to get somewhere cuz a road had too many potholes. they park taking up 2-3 spots so no other cars touch them. if the kids do have to go in the truck they tell them to keep the door open, they'll shut it cuz they dont want them to end up "slamming it shut". one day I thought they were going to kill one of the kids when they found a scratch on the FOOT plate. you know, where you climb into the truck. the thing that ur feet go on to get into the truck. who the hell cares if there's a scratch there?! not to mention these are 2012 trucks. not 2018s. anyways after all that precaution, after being totally rediculous with how they drove the trucks and the amount they've screamed at their kids. we had a storm last night and a tree fell on both, one is totalled and the other is gonna need some serious work to it... as I said. it's aweful it happened, it's gonna cost a lot, I feel bad... but the irony is pretty funny. a scratch on the foot plate doesn't really matter now does it?
When my friend who I hadnt seen in a year committed suicide, I blamed myself. I still do. I have saved so many of my friends from the same fate, I dont know why I couldnt have just saved him too. I stopped talking to him, somwthing I regret. He started as a friend of my boyfriend, my boyfriend did some stuff and I left. I didnt want to make things awkward so I cut ties. Its my fault he is dead. When I first learned he died I told my mom and she said sorry for your loss before getting mad at me for not emptying dishwasher. I yelled back and her response is the thing that has hurt me the most. "You'd think after his death you would treat the people you love better" When I talked about this with my therapist I accidently told my mom how much this hurt and she gor mad at me again. She apologised but I feel it was only to make me shut up about it. Shes right afterall it is my fault. But it still hurts.
I've messaged through Facebook a friend which I haven't spoken to in three yrs. She said that we're good dispite being me an asshole towards her and her husband. Then again I was attacking everyone at the time. I have a plan of getting together with my estranged friends one at the time.
theres so many reasons why I would not finance a car. one being that if you pay the full thing off, depending how long it took, you really paid off 2-3 cars. another is that if you want to sell or trade it in with money still owing. you only get about 1/2 of what you still owe on it. so if its a 20k car, they would give you 10k for it and you would still owe 10k and you're short a car. like how fucking crooked. not sure why so many people think this is the best way to own a car
I so often fuck things up just because of my own stupidness. So far everything went fine in the end but I don't think that this is going to work forever. I wish I could stop being so stupid sometimes - it's literally in my own hands, so why am I sabotaging myself like this?
The lyrics "This isn't supposed to be a lonely time... but there were Christmases when you were mine..." hit me so fucking hard. My heart breaks again every time I hear them.
I hate it when one of the requirements of a class is to do projects in peers. I don’t know anyone and there’s no way I’m asking someone if we can work together. It takes me back to my school years when no one wanted to pick me up for anything. The only attention I got back then was negative, and that’s the only thing that I always expect to this day. This semester I’m taking 2 classes where at some point we have to do this kind of projects and I’m already feeling scared, ashamed and overall pathetic. I wish I can disappear the moment people start looking for partners. It would be really sad and embarrassing to be the only one with no partner. I don’t know how to deal with this. I don’t know what to say to my lecturer when she asks me who I’m working with. I really want to disappear
I hugged my cat when she didn't want me to. I held her for maybe ten minutes and I've done this before too. I know I shouldn't have.
I've just looked at my spotify profile I haven't used in a about two years. I went through some though-shit since I regularly used spotify, but it caused a lot of heartache to listen to playlists which are barely relateable anymore, reminding me of treacherous "friends" that parted and one of the equally funniest and, sadly, mentally straining times of my life as of yet.