I haven't talked to that person i like in over a week now , also i started journaling again and i followed a lot of accounts that have to do with like therapy and positive things, i learned from that person, to use things like quotes and stuff in your daily life its not corny or try hard its actually very helpful and can help u be better with ur mind.. also im trying to not watch porn, but today i did a bunch of times :/ its difficult . im embarassed already so pls if i could not be bullied for this it would be nice because im trying my best i dont want to be in love with someone like that. , and i like to write here how im struggling cuz it helps a little bit and i dont feel as bad and helps me stay strong and not write her or be thinking of her too much
I had a weird nightmare, in it I had a girlfriend and we were sitting together in a class or sort. She was very clingy and asked me why I didn't do this and that, and so I asked her to broke up with me if she's not satisfied with my personality and love language. And there was this other girl who was willing to do anything for her but she didn't want to break up with me. But then a drunk guy got into our room and wanted to take advantage of my gf, so I fought him with all my might (i might be cold but i would do anything to protect her), he lost his consciousness for like a minute but then he woke up again and threatened to rape me. Everyone was too afraid to help me. I ran away but he kept finding me, So I fought him again but I could feel my body couldn't keep up, as I almost give up thankfully I woke up. I don't know what nightmares mean but it felt so real and very scary. I just wanted to let it out. the thing is I don't even have a gf in rl.
I am blumic and I have some digestive problems. I have been vomiting for 2 years, but neither my family, nor my friends know it. I can't get rid of this situation, but I want. Because I know sooner or later it will be a big problem for my healthy. Think, you eat what you want, after an hour you vomit all of them. It is horrible and I know it.
Today its been 2 days since i didnt write to that person at all, no comments dms or anything. i feel a little better.. im ashamed that this is being so hard.. ive been crying a lot today i was on the bus and coming home and got so much tears i was so embarassed someone would see it, also i realized one of the worst things for me has been comparing myself , i know i ruined my life really hard and already got old but i think i was trying my best and i dont want to not be able to be ok with that but also i want to be successful one day too and feel like im in a good place. i feeling like my best is not enough
I was jealous of Harry Potter because he was able to talk to snakes it turns out that I was talking to snakes for years
real shinobi can know about your life and whats in your heart just from watching you fight once. words are low level compared to what shinobi like her can do. thats why i decided i dont want to write to her anymore or talk about her, this is something i just wanted to write for closure, im just gonna do my best and pay attention to life and try to go in the water more to swim cuz im a water person too also yea u are likely to be bullied if ur vulnerable but this is a confession site, it would be really sad to just be preying here on the vulnerability to u can bully someone. thats like being a snake, congratulations i guess
Sometimes cleverbot is easier to talk to and have real conversations with than people.
I hate some people that always approach you only because they want something from you
finally im re-united with my bong, i woke up taking hits and am stoned, just had lunch and gonna smoke a phat ass bowl.. its a little dab bong, so its not good for flower, but i broke my beaker bong, i loved it so much and i really miss it, i hope i can get some money soon and buy another one
the girl i wanted to see wasnt at practice today, and my arm hurty from a thing someone did on me, it was rough today, im very sad, does anyone ever feel like breaking down and cry a lot and that u just need a frickin hug and someone to show some care for u