ive become victim of some cyberbullying, i guess i shouldnt have shared information about me, but still its sad how dark people are, they wouldn't show their faces because they think badly of themselves. they say terrible things about my skills, but i know im good. i want to film some sparring and show them how it actually works, they are all a bunch of sad luke tomas watchers who never seen the inside of a gym
I went today to visit my future landlords house , he is a cool guy, i was just so awkward tho lol i am the worst at talking to people i cant even begin to say where it went wrong but i hope he doesnt think anything bad of me, im a good person for the most part, at least i think so lol. i will try to be really clean, the whole house looked very clean and nice im packing all my stuff, i hope i dont forget anything t-t i hope it will be nice i will train jiu jitsu 2x a day, actually, my friend said i could spend all day at the gym rolling if i wanted to, cuz the ppl there are addicted to rolling and they need bodies. i will try my best to be very flowy so to not get injured, so i can train all day. then if i take a shower and eat outside, i can go to my friends house and train striking lol its tomorrow i waited for this day for a while now, finally im fricking MOVING WOOOOOOHOO soooo happy guys i just sososo happy. i will hangout with my friend and at the jiu jitsu gym probably make new friends. im trying not to think about it but maybe i meet a girl lol im the guy whos been talking about being girly and wanting to get fucked by girl so that will probably not happen i wont meet a girl i like so easily :/ but maybe not lol idk i move out tomorrow after lunch, wondering what i should do to say goodbye to my freedom on my own big ass nice room. i already hot boxed it, gonna do it again, listening to loud music and watching naruto. hot air on to the max.. enjoying it rn lol... imma miss this room and its comforts..
I'm a fucking idiot and hate myself for it
Love is not for me. It feels like I can't like anybody.
The last five years have been really shitty on a personal level.
There's no one I want for love. It feels like my dick is only good for peeing.
i just overheard my mum saying that if a girl dresses revealingly they deserved to get raped...WHAT THE FUCK 😀
When u are dating, what's a good way to tell someone that u want them to put a strapon and fuck u, if ur a boy? is there a way to know if a girl is into things like that without having to say it??? is pretty embarassing i think :/
I know it's a stupid thought to have and it's just my depression talking, but lately I've been having overwhelming feelings that my boyfriend is way too good for me.
You know like when a girl sit cross legged and puts your head on her thigh and pets you? whats the name of that?? when i go to sleep, i imagine my pillow is Rose doing that to me, and i imagine she says nice things like keep going, and believe in urself, and you have good skills! is that wrong or bad? i think its the loneliness, from quarentine, but this week i leave finally, and gonna talk to friends again and hangout, and hopefully my mind will be much better!