My mother never really spend quality time with my brother and I when we were kids. She's always busy with work and always have a night out with friends. It's always my dad who took care of us. And my dad was okay with it because he doesn't like going out much. He likes to stay home. I know my mom loves us and she's always been a sweet mother and gives us affection we needed but not the care my dad did for us. My mom can't really cook, she don't give us baths, not the typical mother stuff. She just goes home and gives us affection which is nice. Now, we moved to a different country and life changes to all of us. Now she has to learn to cook and do what typical mothers do. And it's the US which basically, social life is different. My mom have lesser circle of friends and after work, she goes home, same as my dad. My brother and I grow up and we started wanting to live choices for ourselves. The idea of family being always together is almost gone because everyone is busy with work and studies. On my birthday, my brother couldn't come because he has work (he decided to come the next day with my friends). It saddens my mom because she wanted birthdays, christmas, and new year to be a complete family. But sometimes it's so hard to make her understand that we are growing. It's not the time anymore where she can cook for us and do the taking care because we are grown ups. Sometimes, I feel like, it saddens her because all the things she does now are the things she wants to make up for during those times when we were younger and living in a different country. Those times she probably never realize how her family should matter more than her friends. I feel bad not tasting her cooking sometimes or when I can't come on certain occasions because I have work. I know I will barely see my mom soon I move out but I want to cherish that moment with her. At least still appreciate the realization and changes she did for herself to us. But it's hard because now that it's kinda too late for her to be the mom she wanted, that's when she decided to be a mom to us. I have a boyfriend and she can't understand why I wanted to go away someday with him. My brother wants to buy a house and she can't understand why. For her it felt like we were a bunch of little kids running around. And now we are young adults having two jobs, in college, and doing our own thing. And she's pretty demanding and I hated it most often but I can't do anything about it because she was never really a caring mom to us. Always busy. But I love her very much and I never forget the affection she gave us still. But one thing I learned is that, before it's too late, I do wanted to give the most care I should do for my kids before they grow up. It's a title of being a mom after all.
I hate it when I'm feeling fine or better than normal, then I talk to someone and after the conversation my mood is dreary and feeling dissatisfied with life.
There are people in my life that try to remind me of what I didn't accomplish and tell me of those that I know who have accomplished what I should have accomplished. They tell me the news for me to be happy for the person, which I am. I admit that there is a feeling of regret and disappointment in myself for not having similar news. I have made the choices that I have made, and the desires that I have had before, I don't want to pursue for reasons I cannot explain. Yet deep down, by the person telling me about this person, I can't help but feel like they wanted me to feel disappointed as well. I could be wrong, but it is a gut feeling.
my #1 life regret is not hugging my great grandfather before he passed. I was little and scared he was contagious. I hate myself everyday for being scared of him.
My boyfriend's mom called me while I was at work. I checked my voicemail and called my boyfriend. He said he called her and may go to see her. She lives three hours away. I called her about three hours later. She picked up. I said hello, and let her know who I was. (I had spoken to her on the phone times before and met her seven months back). I asked her how she was doing. She said she was fine. I asked if her son said anything to her about coming to visit her. She was about to say something, then she stopped. After a few seconds I said, "Hello...Hello...Hello?". Then I heard the phone get picked up, put back on the reciever and disconnect. I called a two times and the voicemail came on twice. I left a message the second time hoping she was okay, that we lost connection and hope that she has a good rest of her day. I didn't tell my boyfriend about it. I called my boyfriend and asked if he made it to see his mom. He said no. He had called his mom back and his brother made it down to see her, because she had car trouble. He went to donate and went grocery shopping instead. For the past month or so, his mother had wanted him to live with her. He and I have been living together. She is a little upset that he doesn't want to live with her. That may be why she hung up on me. She doesn't want to connect with me and wants her son back. It makes me sad. If my boyfriend makes the decision to stay with his mom, I have nothing against it, because she is dealing with an illness, so I understand. He has to make the decision, it is not in my hands.
reading sex and cheating confessions from people in this app is giving me trauma, i'm 26 and i've seen some hardcore porn and done some kinky sexts role play but the stuff i read on here is weird. where is society going :(
Poem by a Holocaust Survivor- I fell beside him and his corpse turned over, tight already as a snapping string. Shot in the neck. And that's how you'll end too, I whispered to myself. Lie still; no moving. Now patience flowers in death. Then I could hear "Der springt noch auf," Above, and very near. Blood mixed with mud was drying on my ear.
I'm at my breaking point. I can't handle the bills by myself. My fiance has been trying to find a job for over a year and can't get anything. We were scraping by when I worked full time at a call center but I lost my job there. I work part time at Walmart and I can't do it all on my own. If we had two incomes we could maybe do it. He sold his xbox to get our internet bill current and was talking about selling my TV to pay another bill. That broke me. We don't use that TV much but I still use it sometimes when I want to sleep in our bed but need the TV to fall asleep. And still, it's MY TV. We can't sell my stuff when I've been busting my ass to support us. I've had anxiety and depression, but I've fought through it to go to work. I lost my dad and I went back to work after my bereavement leave. I have been supporting myself and making it work since I lost my mom 6 years ago. It's nuts to me that I'm in worse shape now than when I was 19 and living on my own for the first time. I hate this. I hate this stupid trailer we're renting that isn't worth the rent to begin with and they just raised it $25. But we didn't have the money to move or a lot of time to find somewhere else to live. I hate this stupid fucking piece of shit trailer and honestly, I hate my life right now. He asked what I want him to do. Honestly, I don't know, but selling our stuff is a band aid solution. Get out there and get a goddamn job?
Any kind person out there willing to help me please, I need my sister to move out of mine & my parents home, my home used to be like a Christian home until she moved back in now I feel more like a helper in my parents home than a family member, she has turned my home upside down in other ways. I have no where else to go but she has been given a room to live with my other sister, all it need is to be furnished she has a baby with her. if there's anyone out there willing to help, your help would be highly appreciated. all I want his to get back my decent Christian home. I suffer from social anxiety problem so living with my parents is my only safe haven... I'm not a scammer you can verify whatever I say through whatever means necessary when & if you should come in contact with me
I had an online Dom at one point. I thought it wasn't real real because it was never in person face to face. It messed me up because I constantly miss him. like I was looking for information and ended up falling for him hard and fast and I don't understand. it sucks and I want to be over it because well I already and still do have a lot going on in my life but sometimes I just miss what was that can never be again