can you point someone who do you believe is enjoying the life he/she has and would have say yes if she/he were asked to come to life again? See? Suicide is not too far away
I was so filled up with you. You being gone is a huge emptiness that I dont know what to fill up with inside my life
I dont deserve me. My body and soul needs someone who can take actions easily. Decide what to do. Do what she wants.
I play sandbox coloring to lower my anxiety when it's bad and i cant sleep but sometimes it doesnt work can someone reccomend a relaxing game that I can play when my stress levels or anxiety levels are bad
I hope somewhere in the near future i'll grow into the person i've always wanted to be; strong, beautiful, confident, brave, articulate. I've never want anything more. My friends have been forcing me to go out but everytime they ask i would always make an excuse, not only have i been more socially awkward than ever but i've lost every trace of little confidence i had left. I just feel so ugly and so unimportant so i never really looked for an excuse to go out and have fun. I don't ever leave the comforts of my home because when i do i feel like everyone is staring and judging the fuck out of me and so i just stay quiet; i feel like it's always better and safe to stay quiet than to say the wrong things and be loud about it, but i dont know, it's the insecurity talking. Funny thing is, all of my friends are all the things i mentioned; they're all loud and outspoken yet articulate, they're all fucking beautiful but not vain and they're all fucking smart and confident yet too humble to admit it. And to think you should've at least adopted some tricks and tips here and there especially when you have THAT kind of group of friends but in reality it all made it worst. Never have i ever NOT caught myself CONSTANTLY comparing myself to them, never have i ever not try to act like them to be more likeable because i feel like my personality is enough. shit i don't even think i know whaf my personality is, i've never fully been myself and i've never fully felt like i'm walking through life in my own shoes; i always try to fit into someone else's. I feel like im slowly losing myself but i hope i save me soon.
I was right... He lied about how long he'd be away. He said 6 weeks. I just found out it's a YEAR. Heart = broken.
I have a suspicion that my mother was molested as a child. Her attitudes towards sex seem like there is some sort of trauma attached. Her parents divorced when she was about 5 and put her in an orphanage. She spent her teenage years trying to pick up American soldiers at the bars around Rammstein airforce base. When she came to America after her soldier husband died she started fucking new guys, including his brother within 3 months. She is what we call a never-single. One of her bfs was going great until he got sick and it caused impotence, so she dumped him for an illiterate farm hand whom she dated off and on for nearly 20 years. Now she's in her 50s and freaking out because she hasn't had sex in 2 months and can't find any takers. She gets violently angry at the idea people have the ability to not have sex, particularly those who wait for marriage. When I turned down easy women she assumed I was gay. She got violently angry and threatened to put me in an asylum when she found out I was abstaining. When I married a woman who was not like her she became more angry. She tried to pay my wife to leave me, and then to have an abortion. When that didn't work she rage quit and disowned me. I have known many women who were molested. They usually react in one of two ways. Extreme fear of sex, or extreme minimalization of it's importance. Like it's a meaningless bodily function like taking a shit. All of my friends worked through their issues as teens and are all well adjusted and married with kids now. Maybe I'm making assumptions, but either way she is a dangerous lunatic.
Because I choose the wrong model of smartphone when ordering I now have to pay an extra 70 euros. The online store won't give me my money back. So now I'll have a 200 euros expense. It's a great model but I'm not that well financially to make such an expensive purchase.
my life got worse when I became a christian.. I'm not against ppl who are into it but it's not for me. I just want to stay away from it
Sometimes I wish my boyfriend would give me a gift. Maybe I hope he will be sweet to me from time to time. But whenever I hint for just a single flower or treat me to snacks, he would start telling me he is not a sugar daddy. It just makes me feel bad and pissed at the same time. We always go on dutch when we go out. I sometimes make surprises for him. I spend my own money for my needs, bills and personal things. Already told him it isn't funny. It just really make me feel bad. Is it wrong to ask for a gift or being sweet?