He send me flowers been very romantic guy. deceived me into thinking he would get married with me and have babies. after we got used to each other he wanted to have sex with me even forced me one time. Now he left me for not having sex with him. But i feel pretty connected to him. He said it would be okay to have sex after marriage before. I asked him many times if it would be okay. well i am fucked up again
I lost my mom to cancer 68 days ago. Sometimes I feel okay and sometimes I’m so sad thinking that I won’t see her anymore. I still hear her voices in my head and I don’t want to forget them.
It was stupid of me for thinking you cared for me as much I cared for you
Sometimes I feel so dark, lonely and lovelorn that I just lay myself on my bed completely without energy to do anything.
I've watched tranny porn a few times but I'm not attracted or fascinated by dick at all. When I do it's because I feel lonely and unworthy of women.
What will you all say to me, a grown man, about not being able to have a relationship?
I'm just so sad and lonely all the time. The only time I'm not felling like this is when I'm gaming or masturbating to porn. I barely have friends, I see them once a week or so. My mother and her partner are both near 60 and all they do is sleep and complain. I wish things were better but it's only downhill from here on out. I'm almost 40 BTW.
I'm sorry that I have been taking items from the store. I hate to do it because I know it hurts the store and i'm risking being caught but they are items I need by cannot afford. I know I can't keep doing it but since i'm no longer able to work due to medical issues, i've depleted all the money I had saved up just to keep going, but i'm down to nothing. I don't know what to do and losing the fight inside myself that says things will get better when it has only fallen more and more.
I don't want to be me anymore. I'm so tired of being here. It's exhausting and stressful. I want to be done. Suicide sadly is a sin. So nope.
Everyone talks about how cool being an exchange student is. What no one tells you is that being an introvert exchange student sucks, specially if you go alone. I'm alone on a Friday night at a shopping mall half an inch from an anxiety attack killing time until the movie I want to see starts.