I feel hopeless. Like I am being tested or punished
I just got assaulted by mosquitoes...even the soles of my feet were bitten (._.)
I'm sad and I want someone to hold me and stroke my hair, but I've moved out so I can't go to my parents for that anymore.
I just feel inferior to other people. That's my problem. Current therapist is not of much help. The psych side of my country's public health system sucks anyway. I might be better off going to a private psychiatrist but I can't afford it. That would be what, 80€ per visit? I don't have that sort of money. I need to get a job or something, something that doesn't take too much time away from studying.
I don't think anyone will want to marry me... Once you get to know me there's almost nothing to like about me. And I don't think I could be in a relationship anyway with a shitty self-esteem like this.
I get horny really often but masturbating makes me feel really bad about myself afterwards.
Every time I see him, I just feel so damn happy. He makes my heart feel like it's glowing. I get this dumbass smile and my face and I forget how to talk. I love him so much. I thought I had finally gotten over him, but my heart still aches for his love...
sex with me never will be enough im always gonna be competing. i rarely can satisfy him no matter what ive tried but things/people outside of our relationship never seem to fail at getting him off. never will it be just him and me.
it's hard loving someone who doesn't even exist anymore
I crave affection. I couldn't care less about sex, but I so badly need someone to lay next to, someone to hold, someone to kiss and touch. Someone to hold hands with. Someone to smile about. Someone to love.