My life is so hard that I want to start consuming drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. ... I want to cut myself in pieces and I can't stop fucking crying. I want to run away from everything and everyone and just be alone. i haven't told this to anyone & was keeping it in myself up untill now. Please tell me what to do I want to kill myself & I tried couple of times...
Today I've felt guilty and unlovable because of past things and my thoughts and feelings. I really just hope this will pass.
I sometimes repeatedly say to my self I love you and try to imagine that someone else is saying it to me. Sometimes I cry after doing that because I think that no one will ever love me (romantically) because I am too ugly
Don't know what to do anymore. Months ago I ate something that caused my stomach to act strange and sickly. I didn't take any medicine and just some yogurts. It lasted for 3 weeks as I remember. My stomach is totally fine now except that I now have smelly gas. Before getting sick, I have no problem with smell (since there's nothing). I tried advises from internet on how to lessen the smell but it isn't working. It's now 8 weeks of trying to figure how to get that smell off. Also, no colon cancer for sure since I have no other symptoms. It is now frustrating me and starting to affect my self-esteem.
My anxiety has been eating me away lately. I feel useless, wake up crying for no reason, feel as if I deserve nothing that's been going on for me, feel stupid. I feel as if none of my professors would understand that I'm not capable of doing the work I'm supposed to because every time I try to work I start to get very negative and self-deprecative thoughts. Idk what to do or who to go to. Not even exercise is doing it for me anymore.
Can someone please fix me. I'm broken from something that happened 3 years ago. I just want to be happy again. I'm desperate.
why do all the girls break up with me because we have no future even though im "perfect" and "amazing" and "anyone would be lucky to have me"
Im still hurting. I need a closure from him. Cant move on ☹️
I want my neighbour so bad. I know she's like some 15 years younger than me and it won't ever happen (she deserves someone her age to be able to go places she goes, do things she likes). But God do I long for her embrace!
My friend (and research partner) and I currently partner with the same center. She will be graduating on May while I still have six months/a year to go. Our supervisor offered her a full time job starting June and now I'm very insecure. When we work together we complement each other, she's the type A and I'm a type B; however, I believe she is the better half. I've pulled my act together this past few years but I'm still a very scattered type of person. I'd also really love to work with our supervisor once I graduate, however, I don't think he will have a need for me once she's there. I feel really anxious and helpless. I don't know who to talk about or what to do. I feel like I have no skills and will probably end up working a mediocre job that won't make me happy. I feel as if my ambitions are like water and I'm trying to grab them with my bare hands.