How high can duck fly ?
I want a girlfriend SO BAD. Why is it so hard for girls to find other girls to love? It feels like gay guys find each other with no problem.
I miss you, Alyssa.
I feel like I'm nothing but a depraved piece of shit. All I do in my free time is touch myself. It's gross, I feel gross and I want to hide myself from everyone I love.
Today a customer complained about me, which stresses me out more than you can imagine. The worst thing is that it was really my fault. I didn't purposefully scam him, but I definitely wasn't as careful as I should've been. I won't lose my job over this, but I could get in serious trouble, because there have been two other complaints about me (which both weren't my fault, but the newest incident will probably make my boss question that) and because we just very recently had a discussion about the very thing I fucked up.
I'm a bisexual girl, but I've only dated one girl in my entire life. I broke up with her because I couldn't handle the pressure of needing to keep everything so secret, but I was too terrified to come out of the closet. Now that I'm older and not so afraid, I've found a couple of girls I'd gladly come out for if it meant I could love them. But I feel guilty now for breaking my ex's heart over something that isn't a problem for me anymore. I often wonder how things could have worked out if I had had this attitude back then.
Need some cold, hard truth here, because everything I read online is unrealistic feel-good-about-yourself-type shit: With a small penis I can't be good in bed, right? Explicit, I guess.
There was a time when i used to just want to go and experience the funnest shit...the weird the bizarre the crazy fun stuff. Then the disability aspect of my life happened...the slow down mentally and physically dumb etc..The judgement..the stalking... I.d.k why it happened. I feel like I'm getting better but the events recently have caused me to feel so broken. Am I beyond repair?? God I hope not. Gotta get to the Dr. Do the testing...figure out the health and brain etc. I'm not this boring!!! I used to love life. I use to engage. Wth.
Holy shit I've been hit by the lonely bus
Why do I only seem to fall in love with people who are either not interested in me or not good for me? Why can't I just find a decent partner who loves me back?