when i think about Rose is hurts too much i feel pain inside so much
Sometimes I don't feel like I will make it through the day.
Bf and me had a double date with my friend and her bf. I hadn't seen her in ages so was looking forward to it. My bf agreed to it last week and whenever we talked about it he was cool with going. Fast forward to today, an hour or so before we are to meet them and he keeps pulling a pissed off expression. I question him on it, he says that he's not sure about going, he said that he didn't want to go to it and that he doesn't even want to talk or chat, socialise with them. I tell him to decide what he's doing because I don't want to force him to go if he really doesn't want to, but still he won't properly make his mind up about what he's doing. Fast forward a bit we're literally on the way to meet them at this point and he still won't make up his mind, even though I've repeatedly asked him. Finally I lose my shit because we're due to be meeting them in a few minutes, at this point, for this double date and he hasn't decided if he'll do it like he originally agreed to or if he'll leave before they come and I'll have to do it last minute on my own. I'm so annoyed that he's doing this to me - won't even make up his mind up and they were quite literally going to be there at any moment. I swore at him and yelled a bit, lost my shit just so annoyed by the messing around, he won't give me any straight answer or anything and they're going to be here literally any minute. At this point he still hasn't made his mind up if he will back out of this double date and has the check to be pissed that I'm pissed with him. Just as I lose my shit more at him, my friends come round the corner and see. Yep that was an awkward double date for me.
everytime I look at other happy families on the internet, I feel sad and have teary eyes and made me compare their family relations to my parents, in their picture there all happy,so close, so family oriented you name it. is this normal of what I feel?
need tomboy to own my slutty boiholes
gonna watch some ufc toniteee at my homies!!! apparently theres gonna be some girls and im super intimidated by that and dont know what to do, really scared. but i guess im just gonna take shower and put nice clothes and show up i guess??? i dont have nice clothes tbh.. i should hve thought about this more.. today i just trained in the morning and slept all day.
I came out as gender fluid to a large group of people months ago, and tonight was the first time someone asked what I wanted to be called and called me 'they' instead of she. Tonight was the first night! I am the type of person that never gives a shit or ever shows emotion, but I can't stop crying and I can't explain why .
due to how neglected/emotionally abused i was as a child, i dont feel motivation anymore or joy for most things. the only thing that makes me feel okay is attention, and i hate getting it for some reason. even though I love attention, I still feel like it's wrong getting it.
Im a boy 25, and im renting a room in a house, and the landlord is gay, anyway today he send me text message if i dont want to hangout in his room and drink wine.. i was like no.. then he was like i won't bite you, then i havent replied anymore, i wish i was living alone not sharing house with some dude who wants to fuck me t-----t im so uncomfortable. i need to think about Rose extra hard today if i want to sleep good... i think i'll play her livestream again where she is cooking food, it always makes me feel good to watch it im scared and, uncomfortable and sad and i wish i was somewhere where i feel safe
its ok to be white