Who would have thought that having a grade A high school diploma (Abitur), smoking a lot of weed and being engaged could be extremely shitty. I mean, Ok, technically I am still a student, as we officially finish school on the 26th this month where I go to school, but I'm all out of perspectives; and being an inefficient stoner doesn't help. Time to get my shit together again.
My best-looking phase was when I was a teenager. Which is weird, because usually people look awkward during their teenage years and then glow up when they're around their 20's, or they're just always the same level of attractiveness. But not me. I was actually quite pretty at the age of 14-17, but now I'm leaning towards the ugly side. And it's not just my own perception. Whenever I show someone photos of me from back then, they go "wow, you're so pretty there" or something along the lines. It's hard for me to handle because being pretty was one of only very few things I had got going for me, and now I don't have even that anymore, and I'm not used to it.
Whenever I told people that I'm not feeling good mentally I got bad responses. I told my mom that I'm suicidal when I was 13 and she did nothing. I told my husband that I have depression and since the day I told him he has never once asked about it again. I told my therapist how I feel and they told me to go see another therapist because they're not specialized on depression (I was there for a behavioural thing), but then never asked again if I actually went. I know that the world doesn't revolve around me, but I think that at least the people who love me or care for me should be a little more interested in the fact that I am deadly ill.
I have an unhealthy obsession with someone and checking their social media several times a day makes it impossible to get over it. But I can't stop myself from doing that. It's an addiction. I've never been good at losing an addiction. I'm honestly afraid that I will be this miserable forever because I won't ever manage to stop checking on them.
I just want him to make me pregnant. I want to be round with full milky breasts. I know I have a pregnancy fetish and thinking about him making pregnant is how i get really turned on. he is infertile though so I'm never going to be able to experience this i fear 😭😭 We have been trying for 7 years
I'm in love with my fwb.
I want a gf more than anything but I'm so bad with women
I feel like no woman wants me
i think theres nothing so cute like a girl with some muscles :pp it's so hot and sexy. athletic gf is best gf
I always cried myself to sleep .... I'm already tired