I'd appreciate big help here... I'm 18, I'm Male, and its been a year since I have a crush on this chubby, kind and happy-go-lucky guy, who is my best friend's brother's friend... But I think he isn't gay. I think of him everyday, and I just dream to even hug him, but I can't cause I'm scared... Anyone has ideas on how I could get to just sleep with him? (Not any nudity anything just even feel him close)
It's one of those nights where it really hits me how badly I want to be loved. But I don't even know how to love someone - it has to go both ways. So it feels like a selfish wish.
I'm really frustrated with my older sister. She has a child, but tends to ignore/neglect him. I feel like he's my responsibility since I'm living in the household with them, but at times I also believe she really should care for her own child instead of having someone else do it for her.
I still miss my ex friends but they were very arrogant and mean to me. I'm no peach either but they all dispise me now mainly because I have difficulty in getting a job or doing all the things that a responsible adult does. You see, my mother has sheltered me too much from the problems life brings and now I am a disfuncional adult that's still a child mentally.
I'm tired of getting my heart broken. I'm starting to think there really just isn't anyone out there for me, and I'm just going to have to go through life alone.
I dont have friends at school and on the way home I just talk to myself, I am alone almost all day. My parents are at work until 8 pm and I spend all my time alone, it's really hard for me because I am an extroverted person. I think I start going crazy and I don't know what to do, I feel sad all the time because no one talks to me
I'm really eager to get out of this house, but I'm afraid to move. I'm afraid that we won't be able to find anywhere I can keep my cat in his own space away from my mom and sister (they're allergic). And I'm afraid that I'm nowhere near ready to start living on my own if I can't find somewhere to live with my family. I'm 22 years old, but I feel like I'm still 12.
After coming to the realization that I can't have him... I don't really want anyone at all. I know this just sounds edgy and dramatic, but what I mean is, I really have no desire to even have a partner at this point. Not because I'm butthurt about not having him. I just... don't have the urge to be in a relationship. I'm kind of content on my own. Like of course I'm sad I didn't get a chance with him, but now I'm realizing that I don't really need a partner. I'd like sex (and more importantly, kisses and cuddles), but I don't want to deal with the emotional energy that relationships take. At least... not right now.
I talk to myself alot when no one eles is around. I pretend I'm talking to a therapist and then I just start reliving my life. All the times my step dad yelled and hit my for no reason. The time I was molested. My biological dad calling my from jail but then disappearing when he got out. How I had a friend I thought I would have for life but she fucked me over. How I got pregnant and relized I didnt know how to act or even raise a child so I feel like a failure as a mother. It always ends up with me crying cause I realize I dont really have anyone who I feel like really cares. I just annoy them or make them uncomfortable when I try and talk about my problems. I know going to an actual therapist could help me. But they are just a stranger who wants money I don't even have.
I need sex real bad. Not fucking though. I need a sexual dominant but sweet woman.