I've messaged through Facebook a friend which I haven't spoken to in three yrs. She said that we're good dispite being me an asshole towards her and her husband. Then again I was attacking everyone at the time. I have a plan of getting together with my estranged friends one at the time.
theres so many reasons why I would not finance a car. one being that if you pay the full thing off, depending how long it took, you really paid off 2-3 cars. another is that if you want to sell or trade it in with money still owing. you only get about 1/2 of what you still owe on it. so if its a 20k car, they would give you 10k for it and you would still owe 10k and you're short a car. like how fucking crooked. not sure why so many people think this is the best way to own a car
I so often fuck things up just because of my own stupidness. So far everything went fine in the end but I don't think that this is going to work forever. I wish I could stop being so stupid sometimes - it's literally in my own hands, so why am I sabotaging myself like this?
The lyrics "This isn't supposed to be a lonely time... but there were Christmases when you were mine..." hit me so fucking hard. My heart breaks again every time I hear them.
I hate it when one of the requirements of a class is to do projects in peers. I don’t know anyone and there’s no way I’m asking someone if we can work together. It takes me back to my school years when no one wanted to pick me up for anything. The only attention I got back then was negative, and that’s the only thing that I always expect to this day. This semester I’m taking 2 classes where at some point we have to do this kind of projects and I’m already feeling scared, ashamed and overall pathetic. I wish I can disappear the moment people start looking for partners. It would be really sad and embarrassing to be the only one with no partner. I don’t know how to deal with this. I don’t know what to say to my lecturer when she asks me who I’m working with. I really want to disappear
I hugged my cat when she didn't want me to. I held her for maybe ten minutes and I've done this before too. I know I shouldn't have.
I've just looked at my spotify profile I haven't used in a about two years. I went through some though-shit since I regularly used spotify, but it caused a lot of heartache to listen to playlists which are barely relateable anymore, reminding me of treacherous "friends" that parted and one of the equally funniest and, sadly, mentally straining times of my life as of yet.
Listening to Blink 182 and trying to talk myself out of divorcing my wife.
I'm so ready to move back to florida.... Texas and it's people suck.
I suck at making conversation. I don't know how to speak with people other than my mom and brother because they tolerate listening to me talk about my interests. (And they talk about their interests to me as well.) But talking to my dad or relatives or people at university is hard. I wouldn't be appropriate to talk to them about my dorky shit because they'd get bored. But I don't know how to make small talk and chat about nothing and all that.