It feels like my heart is ripped out of my chest. I don't when, or if, I'll be able to see my nephew again. My house and my heart feels empty without him. I don't want him to grow up thinking I don't care about him, but if that's all his mom tells him and I can't be there to defend myself what can I do? Even if I get back in touch with him when he's grown up, he either won't remember me or he'll think I'm evil because that's what his mom said. It's not like I really did something wrong. All I did was turn down babysitting once and ignore a message from his mom. I'm not the antichrist. I would never hurt him. I didn't do anything to hurt anyone. I know I'm not perfect. But I don't deserve to hear that I'll never see my nephew again because of it. I don't care that his mom (my sister) hates me. She's hated me all 24 years of my life. But my heart hurts thinking I won't see his smile again, or get to hug him, or tell him how much I love him.
I think that Confesster should spend time reviewing comments on confessions and approve or disapprove of them. That's probably more important than reviewing the confessions themselves. People can be judgemental and cruel to others.
This community is very assuming, closed minded and judgemental.
My slightly younger cousin and I have a very unmutual relationship. She sees me as her goofy brother, I figure, but I have a sexual desire for her. It frustrates me, because I always want to be around her, hoping that she'll see me in a new light one day, but the pain of the reoccurring disappointment gets unbearable. Plus, everytime we hang out lately, she brings a friend, who kind of blocks any tension. Today, while I was at work, and out of service, she asked me to join her at a hockey game. When I got home, I saw the text messages, and immediately decided against it. I don't enjoy hockey, and I didn't feel like wasting a good night freezing where I sat. We weren't even going to be alone to make it interesting, she always brings her friends. After thanking her for thinking of me and telling her I'd rather not, she said, "That's okay." I closed the app, and checked who else messaged me. I got a snap, and it was her. Not only did she have the tickets already, but there were only two in her hand, and she captioned it with a couple question marks, inviting me on a one-on-one hockey date.
I thought my crush might actually like me back, but now I think he likes a different girl. And I feel stupid for feeling this way, but I have to tell SOMEBODY- I'm jealous. I admit it. I'm so jealous of her. She's not a bad person or anything, but I don't see much potential in her as a partner. Look, this guy I like, I just want him to be happy. Really, I do. Even if I'm not the one who makes him happy. But I don't want him to get hurt again, and I really think if he tries anything with this girl, he's going to get hurt, just like with the last girl. My selfish feelings aside, I'm genuinely worried for him. His mental health took a turn for the worse when his last relationship ended, and now a year later, he's finally doing better. I don't want him to slip and fall back into that depression. And he's really not compatible with this girl he seems to like, so their potential relationship wouldn't last long.
I am inlove with a gay guy friend, and he knows it. We became good friends, and super close too, and now we are going on a trip with his bf, they both invited me along with their friends. I accepted, I know I am stupid, there are so many straight guys around me who confessed their feelings for me, but my heart only belongs to him sadly. I just don't know when to stop loving him.
Ugh I wish I could get a boyfriend. I'm so fucking horny. But I don't just want sex, I want a relationship. I want love. But I'm craving sex. If only the people I'm interested in actually liked me back.
why do one long for the past....
I've never been close to my sister. We're two completely different people and our personalities just don't get along well. She's extroverted, social, loud. I'm introverted, shy, quiet, and never party. She was mean to me when we were kids. I can count on one hand how many times we've called or texted the other just to talk. Not because of an emergency, or one of us needed something, just wanting to talk. I think it's 2 or 3 times. It's hurtful that she has all these friends she talks to and hangs out with all the time, but I'm never included. The only reason she's talked to me lately is because her car was repossessed, her boyfriend is in jail, and she needed rides to work and a babysitter. Once she gets a car and a regular babysitter, she's not gonna talk to me. To be honest, I'm okay with not being best friends with her. I just want to see my nephew and see him grow up. Thinking about my nephew growing up without knowing how much I love him kills me. I wish I had a sister that loved me. Other families that I know, siblings love each other and are friends. I know she loves me because we're family, but she doesn't like me as a person and I know that. I've given up on being close to her. I had hope when she needed me this time, but she still treats me like a stranger.
When I watch porn, I feel like I need hardcore stuff to get off, and I love it - but only until I climax. As soon as I come down I feel disgusted and sad by what I was watching.