I'm afraid of sabotaging good things that come my way because of fleeting desires and because I get so excited So fast for lobe and relationships that when I come down off the high of newness and take off rose colored license I will hurt someone again.... I don't get hurt when I leave I'm always doing the hurting and they fall so hard so fast it should be a crime I can do this without trying. Am I just lacking for emotional connection, are my standards to high, do I have something I want to achieve and then leave? What is it that makes it so hard for me to stay and make a long term commitment???? (maybe it's because so many platonic relationships I have that were supposed to break did so now I afraid of something much more precious breaking.
I have depression. I feel terrible but I don't want pills or to see a doctor. I feel weak and pathetic enough already. And that's the worst part. I feel crappy all the time but I just can't muster the strength to do anything about it. I hate myself. I have thought of killing myself more and more frequently.
I'm on the edge, I'm getting crazy
how can i heal from loving that celebrity fighter person? i tried to simply stop it and felt even worse, i never felt this bad and i cry everyday all day and cant do things, im failing at my activities, having a hard time to get out of bed and do stuff, is there a way to just make it stop, im always worrying and comparing and feeling like shit cuz i wasted my youth and am a loser compared to her, and that i dont matter, am not interesting or relevant in any way because she doesnt think im worthy of replying to
I hate how my ex says I never loved her. How her rapist ex boyfriend said he did and he lied and nobody ever loved her since. Just because we broke up and I said I dont love you in a relationship way but I still have a place for you in my heart. I still love her. I will never stop loving her. Our relationship was toxic and a mess and I had to do what needed to be done for both our sakes and health. But never did I stop loving her to a degree. I would've given her the world and torn down the walls of china for her. I gave her everything I could. my love, my time, and she became my world. but she continues to say I never did. I devoted my being to her. fuck her is all I can say anymore.
I was triggered today. I binged and didn't care. I ate so much. I probably won't eat tomorrow. Tea and coffee probably.
magkaiba yung hindi moko nAiintindihan sa di moko iniintindi >>>>>
I wish I was happy without taking pills.
I live in the last affectionate family ever. The only one who shows affection is me and my siblings make fun of me for that,but i know it's important so i will just keep on hugging my mom every day, even tho she hugs me back just like once a year. Yes I'm crying 😢
Anxiety→Overthinking→ stress→anxiety→overthinking → stress. Repeat. It won't stop 😢😓😫