Help me get a gf. Please.
Everyone of you in this app would say that I'm a lazy bastard, rude to a fault and stupid.
It's very hard for me to get a job, friends or a relationship. So much that I don't have any and never had.
I don't love anyone, not even myself.
I still live with my mother and her companion. They're near 60 and argue a lot. And tomorrow my sister comes with her daughter which is 7 and these two also argue a lot. Fml
My friend ignored me for the last few days so screw him. I shouldn't get back in touch with him again anyway after our last discussions. He's thick headed, dumb and ignorant.
I love when that yellow- ish white thing comes out of my vagina. I sometimes smell my panties or scratch it off with my hands. It's a nice feeling. I like the smell.
so I went to school for photography an photo editing. when I got a job at LS magazine. I never thought it was going to be like this no wonder why they pay so much for photographers. at first they said it would be me taking a young model out to the middle of nowhere. I was with a lady she was showing me what to take photos of an how to position them. I never would have thought of telling a little girl to get naked an lay down on a blanket in the desert with stuffed animals. i know this is wrong but she looked pretty good. I guess the 5k was hush money. I was creating kid porn basically. an they got me into loving little girls. an I'm more hands on if you get me. I know I should quit an report them. crazy part is parents are aware of these photos. I asked a girl do you enjoy getting naked an someone taking photos of you. she just told me it's the next step into getting into a big modeling agency. I told her does it bother you that I touch you inappropriately an have sex with you. she said at first it was horrible but now I just enjoy it. I love what I do. this is a great job I have. get paid to touch little girls an have sex with them on the side.
I was 7 I saw a little girl with her min and dad. I liked her toy so we talked.she was 5. her mum and dad went in a different way. I said nothing. when we where done talking she said bye and...was lost. she headed off in the other way than her mum and dad...I felt so guilty I had no idea what hapend. was she kidnapped? was she dead? was she alive?...I have always and will forever blame myself that she was lost kidnapped or dead. I have a lot of regrets but that is my top one. i hate myself for it i am to blam...
I feel useless, I sleep all day, I can't study, nothing can make me happy, I just feel emptiness inside me, as if I were suffocating little by little and could not scream for help. Emptiness and sadness are louder, I try to ignore them, but for the most part I'm always thinking about how to end my life. I am a burden to my family, I am ashamed of who I am. I don't know how much longer I will take.