I'm so insignificant I have no purpose in life
fuck. i hate disappointing my parents so much i wish i was never born
My mother's companion has a a daughter that is into drugs and prostitution. She also has a pimp. She's not even 30. She was always very futile and dumb. She really was, I'm not exagerating. It's a shame what she has become.
I'm scared for my future healthwise. I'm diabetic and in the Last year or so it's getting worse.
I am very, very, very lonely. I keep pretending I'm happy with my life and I have friends, but I'm not and I don't.
I like women under 25, I'm almost forty. I'm also fat and not very atractive.
I need sex. Not because I want it due to some atractive woman I know but because the emotional release that comes with it.
I've decided to ignore two guys I know by not sending them emails or interacting with them on social media anymore.
Some of my ex friends stopped talking to me because 4 yrs ago I was a mess due to a health problem I had at the time. They said things like I don't have a life and had too much time on my hands to think about what was wrong with everything around me, like petty stuff mostly. I guess some friendships weren't so important to them. True, i was a dick at the time but can you blame me? I thought I was a gonner. People are just too shallow and self centered these days.
It takes a lot for me to like someone.