My friends are drop dead fucking gorgeous i can't help be feel like the alien and the duff of the group at times. It got so bad that i actually refuse to be in any group pictures because my insecurities is at the point where its that high, it's sad
the song crawling from linkin park speaks to me, the live version makes me tear up
howwww To deal with a lack of motivation in what conserns studies. I really need ur help
My mom is really sensitive, and dad tends to brush her off when she gets upset over "smaller" things. Sometimes it's something like dad not lifting a heavy suitcase into our car, instead leaving mom to do it, other times he says something obviously rude and still doesn't understand why she's hurt. Like all the times he comments on my mom having gained weight or that her breats sag. I want to tell him that she's fucking 54 and sagging is normal at that age and that she does exercise. But I'm too scared of him to do so, and mom seems to be too. When dad does something like what I've mentioned, she tells me or my sisters instead of dad because she assumes that he's going to get mad. I feel so bad for her but I don't know what to do besides listening to her vent. But am I going behind my dad's back by doing so? I once heard him telling mom that he's being "treated unfairly"... I really don't want to take sides, but somehow I think I already am. I can tell my mom and dad both have their share of issues - neither of them had an easy childhood. Mom goes to therapy - she also has depression, sadly - I feel like dad should try therapy too but I don't dare suggest that to him. I just want them to be happy and get along... But also, I have a selfish fear stemming from their relationship - I'm worried that my own future relationships will be like theirs. I'm as sensitive as mom and I feel like I shouldn't be because dad is gets so angry at her about it. And he's gotten mad at me about my own sensitivity a few times when I was a kid. What if my future husband will dislike my sensitivity, too? I don't know, I'm just worried for both them and myself. If you read this long-ass post, thank you very much.
Just found out I have lung cancer. I've never been a smoker, I don't do drugs. I'm really angry and sad. And I don't know how to tell my wife, my parents, my brothers.
Sometimes I wonder if I am really depressed. I have my good days where Im happy threw out the day and sometimes it last more then just one day but I have other days I feel like I am a failure no matter what I do. I ended up calling my mom one night when I was having a bad day but I wasn't internally going to tell her whats been going on in my head but she heard something in my voice when I was talking to her so when she asked if I was ok..I just lost in and cried for a good hour or so on the phone with her. Ever since then I've felt better. But I can feel the emptiness comming back.
Sometimes i just feel like the most crappiest friend ever, i never know how to comfort or calm people down so in most cases i just stand there like a fucking goldfish. they say that sometimes you dont even need to talk as long as you're there to listen and that may be therapeutic to some people but i can't help but feel so fucking defeated and useless. This morning my friend had a mental breakdown and she was ranting but im shit at talking let alone give good constructive advices so like the fucking goldfish i am i just stood there hugging her not saying anything afraid i'll fuck up and say the wrong things. whispering sweet nothings and constantly reminding her shes not alone will only get her so far, i love her and i hate seeing her like this but if only i can actually TALK would actually be great. I'm not actually trying to make this about me because this confession was actually supposed to be about her but i can't help but be pissed at myself, i'm so angry at the fact that i'm actually fucking useless and i can't do shit about her problems. It's one of my biggest flaws and it's a personal issue that affects my life in general. I've also learnt that i can't properly talk or express myself unless if it's over text cause that way i have time to at least think of a good answer, and it sucks to be me and i realised how fucking 1st world problem and unimportant this all sounds so i'll shut the fuck up
I find the idea of being intimate in a romantic or sexual way with someone really abhorrent.
People think that I'm a loser, an asshole and a retard. I do too
There's a contest on the radio giving away money... they played it last year and one of the people who won was a coworker of mine who gets close to 3k a month from the government, brags all the time that he doesn't really need his job. and he wins. this time. my bf's mother just won. her new husband abuses their kids (she does nothing... and no he doesn't abuse her), she disowned the eldest kid and her own mother, she's cheated on practically every guy she's been with and on her spare time she critisizes every decision my bf and I make about our life, they have a huge house, motor bikes, snowmobiles and 2 trucks they treat better than their children.... and so the universe is just like here, have some free money.... fucking hate how life works