He have a lots of secret he didn't told me .
can't stop thinking about her.
me cansé de no tener amigos
anyone feels down today?
I just want to hug someone. im too depressed and sad af.
My baby... He was MY baby my boy. He was mine, mine, mine, MINE, m I n e, M I N E. Mine, every inch of his existence was mine. I claimed every piece, every flaw, every scar, every single thing was mine. When all of his brooding monotone vibes would fade, the soft, precious baby, who made the sweetest little noises when I would call him beautiful belonged to me. I respected him more then I have ever to any of my past interests. His eyes, his hair, his jaw, God his nose I loved every feature... His lips were beautiful. I'm regret so much never seeing him smile~ I can only imagine how sweet it would look with his dimples. I loooove him, I will always love him. And if he let's me I will cherish him forever with platonic adoration when we both are okay to be friends again
Twice have I had it now where a guy has fallen so hard they said "I love you" genuinely in three days. Niether time was on purpose nor was I trying. However, never did I ever think I was capable of snagging someone so fast? But it's something I both revel in and am afraid of. Seeing them be so... Devoted so fast makes my confidence go through the roof and when they could barely speak from nerves and their hearts were pounding out of theit chests I was frighteningly calm. Sadly, I've had to leave both times because as great as I seem to be, I'm not who I'm ment to be yet.
Don't you just love when from the moment you wake up to the moment you go to sleep you're full of anxiety? Just verging on an anxiety attack constantly.... And knowing the only thing that has ever helped was him.... But now you can't have him, so you suffer everyday brimming with anxiety in a life where you've never been one to express these things, only help others through them. And everyday your will power to stay away from him grows weaker and weaker because he was never the actual problem and you know he still loves you. God this sucks so fricking much
So I transitioned from female to male (I'm post operation) and I'm starting to slightly regret it, not because I hate my body, because I'm indifferent, it doesn't make a difference for me. But because I probably mistook my mental health problems for being trans. So basically, I lose time, all the time, and everytime I "time skip" I go into another dreamworld where me and the other internal voices in my head coexist. I've always had the internal voices, and I've always became and acted like them. I initially thought it was make believe and it was simply my vivid imagination, but it would happen even outside of play time. I study psychology, I think I know what has happened. However living with a large secret like this isn't easy. Now I'm 18, all of the the internal voices are still there, every time I leave to often come back to notes left behind signed off in their names and I'm consistently behind in school. I don't really know what to do about it, because it's an undiagnosed problem, therefore, I just added myself to a therapy waiting list, and I just have to wait. But thanks for reading this anonymous post about my crappy life.
hayss I don't know .....I don't know on how to cut ties with him huhu help me I love him so much but I don't know if he's seriously in love with me😖