Do you know that happy feeling when someone you like, calls you? And then that happy feeling, broke when he tells you about someone he loves. What a new year to start with. 💔
i just had an abortion. 6 weeks. i didnt know we were that far along until the technician performed the sonogram. i cried. the pregnancy was making me too sick to work, or eat or drink water. i was vomitting round the clock, even if all the nutrition i allowed myself for the day was apple juice.. i care for both of my sick elderly parents. im the breadwinner. the same is true for my bf.. but on a larger scale..because hes the successful person in the family he's taking care of everyone. it wasnt the right time for us. honestly, dk how to feel.
I don't understand why some want to hold their excretion in their azzyhole, I mean it will rot inside your body and in the long run may endangered you with colon cancer. Let it go, let it become helpful microorganisms.
I sometimes wonder if im really fit to be a mother.
Whatever she can't take the d**k anyways 😟😂😅
Therapy don't actually help... They give you a set of process, talk in a word you hella don't understand like you're their research audience.... NO answers, no advice, just education from you to them.... I hate the western world....
Lying to others is something I love to do but at the end of the day, I remember the lie, I cringe, I get mild emotional breakdown, and I get PTSD (no kidding I developed it from that) and then I told myself," I'm not doing it to other people again." But here comes my childhood trauma of trust issues and I lie again. I basically just lied to them again and I have always lied to myself over and over.... If my childhood never happened I wouldn't have an impulse to lie especially when people ask me question (even that question is not even personal). I never wanted to lie but i felt that I needed to lie..
I'm in love, but can't tell it directly... I'm afraid I might get hurt again.
Another close relative of mine is going to lose her house in a matter of a few yrs. This makes me think that we're dumber than other people and makes us white trash. I don't have a job myself since I have depression and my mother over protected me so much that now i'm an adult incapable if dealing with life's difficulties. So if regular people around me are having problems getting their shit together i don't know how i'm going not to be homeless in a few yrs.
There's nothing that breaks my heart as much as getting a present from someone I love that I really don't like. I know it's a bit irrational because as long as I pretend to like it, they aren't hurt; but it still makes me so, so sad. I just randomly remembered that one 3D card I got from my mom 10 (!) years ago which I ended up throwing into the trash because I didn't have any use for it, and I cried out of guilt and sadness. Sometimes, when I go through my stuff and stumble upon something that I didn't threw away but still don't like, I get a mental breakdown too. Christmas is one long guilt trip for me because my mom always gets me so many presents, many of which I don't like, but she's so excited and I hate them and ... oh man, I just wish I knew WHY this fucks me up so much. Because I feel there must be some underlying issue there, it's just not normal.