call me two faced or whatever but i feel like i constantly change myself/my personality on different people. i have a group of friends who aren't the brightest so i dumb myself down to fit in, i wont talk like this instead i'll use the word 'like' like in every fucking sentences like always like this and i'll like, curse alot too . i have another friend that's really quiet but instead of fitting in, i'd be the loudest and the most outgoing person in their world. honestly there's a hundred different versions of me out there and i'm scared because i don't even know who i am no more
I wanna fuck her so bad. But really I just need someone to talk to. If there was a way I could just talk to her without fucking her and getting my dick sucked and fucking her from the back and seeing that ass and sucking those titties. I don't want to do any of that, in my heart of hearts.
Haven't been able to communicate with a few select people the last past weeks. I just have had zero desire or inclination to reach out. I'm trying to distance myself from those who I let take advantage of me. Its so hard and I've tried many times before but I always give in and make all right for them. Not saying I'm a person pleaser but I do tend to take every problem that's not my own and fix it. First because I can actually do it but also I know I'll do it well and I hate seeing people struggling, even when its their own fault. ESPECIALLY if there are kids involved. It's a sickness I have or blah. This time though I'm really really ~trying~ harder to stick with it. I know now that I need to see myself as a person, a being deserving of all I give to others. I want to be that person to do that for me. Some have been family, some friends, even coworkers but the one that I think I'm most hurt by not being able to talk to is my best friend of 12 years. I knew I needed to step away (if only for a little while) when he told me he knows he's been manipulating me but he didn't apologize. I didn't want to accept that he said such and definitely didn't want an apology but the way he said it to me. Idk he's hurt me so much over the years but I guess he's always known I'll never leave. I don't want to and I miss him with every heartbeat. Its so tough. ANYWHOOOSSS I'm done with the word vomit.
I have a huge crush on thug Rose i think she's perfect and i love her so much it hurts and i told myself to not worry but it's still the same and the end of the year is coming
ever owning a house and being able to buy food and pay house bills seems extremely impossible and i'm 24
Why is it when I try to go to the movies or go on a trip with my boyfreind, he always tries to back out of it. But when his friends ask him, hes all for it. Am I just not good enough to just hang out with anymore..?
I wanna stop being mad at you but I can’t. So it’s better to distance myself from you, bcs my anger will just destroy you.
I often feel like nobody gives a shit about anything anymore nowadays and I thoroughly hate that
I wonder if I even want to be here anymore.
I don't know why I can't bring myself to do shit I had to do. I'm putting my attention to do things that I like, which is way less important than the thing I should be doing. I feel like a failure but I can't bring myself to do it.. I'm scared of something irrational.. maybe I'm insane