I hate it when people ask if something's wrong, no, everything's wrong..
I just hate myself so much...
I was born to be alone. Hardly no friends, no gf to this day. I've lived in this place all my life and it seems that I moved here just a week ago, that's how bad it is.
It sucks to have depression and, because of it, people don't want to have anything more with me. I was at an all time low a few years back and now almost everyone I know hates me due to my bad behavior.
I need to get closure somehow. I can't stop thinking about you. I know it is me that left... And you were left behind, but we would have never work out... Because of me mostly... Bui i just need some closure so i can move on.
I shouldn't have to break down crying in order for you to help me...
Im gonna be completely honest, I've been really sad for a couple of years now, maybe three. I tried to overdose once, and not anything else yet but my suicidal impulses are getting worse and I don't want to tell anybody like a counselor because I don't want my parents to now that I used to harm myself. I don't really need help on this I just needed to get it off my chest.
Okay so. My mom got remarried a few years ago and I've NEVER seen her so happy in my life. My birth father didn't care for me,her or my brother. My now stepfather has moved us out of our bad environment amd turned us into better people. But recently ive had the feeling that he has been cheating on my mom. I don't have legit evidence but he keeps certain phone calls private and when I come around he hangs up or acts weird. Also ive found a earring in his car. My mom barely to never wears jewelry unless its her ring and I know its not mine. They have been together going on 7 years people give me advice .
I'm a Catholic and my boyfriend is an atheist but spiritual. Well i grew up in a non-homophobic, open minded family. I was not raised bigoted and my parents taught me religion really well. That Christ teaches "agape" meaning unconditional love. To love everyone regardless of what they are and who they are. But my belief in my religion is different from my mom. I dont like going to church every sunday, i dont pray the rosary, but i follow the doctrines somehow. I like my relationship with god to be a quiet one. I dont share it to anyone. I dont convert my boyfriend to be one. Well he sees christians as bigoted, imbeciles who believes in false deities. And most often he makes fun of them. I dont really say much because I mean he's not a christian, I cant really blame him. That's what he sees. But it hurts that sometimes the things I hear sounded so hallow. And from what I have seen atheist are not that different from people who believes in god whom at the same time bigoted. The thing is, people are bad... not the religion and it doesnt matter whether you believe in god or not, you're wrong or right whether youre holding the bible or a texhbook of 7th edition Organic Chemistry. If you're religious and sees gay people as sinful outside of your religious culture, then you're closed minded. But if you're an atheist and sees religious people as imbeciles outside of your atheistic culture, you're shallow. Because those who sees wrong with each other, both of you are wrong because all you do is to dehumanize each other.
About six months ago I came home so drunk. I thought my daughters room was my girlfriend's room. I got into bed with her an put my hand up her shirt an played with her tits. Then I rubbed her vagina. Wasn't until I rolled her over I saw she was my daughter. Omg I was just thinking what have I just done. I went to my girlfriend an twanted to show her I changed an it was a accident. She realized it was a complete mistake. old her. What happened she was angry I touched our 15 year old daughter. She slapped me around. My daughter was afraid of me for two months. She saw I changed gave up drinking the friends I use to drink with I wanted to saw her I changed an it was a accident