I can't fit in nowhere and keep gett iij ng fired from jobs. i I just wanna kill myself.
every boy i talk to they say im ugly. it really never effected me untill there was this boy he was really cute and he seemed diffrent from all the other guys i had crushes on he was funny nice and kind but then i ask him do u want to date he said no i ask him why he said i was ugly then i had a full mental break down i tried to kill myself 3 times and i ended up in a mental hospital i cried myself to sleep for months and looked myself in the mirror everyday i tried to say i was pretty but i couldent i knew i was ugly and i still feel the same i will always be ugly and i will never find love
i had this one teacher that would make fun of the way i smell despite the fact that i showered myself raw everyday. I had a naturally bad smell. he would compare the bad way i smell to other smelly things loudly and it was humiliating. he also made fun of the way i talked. i talked with no confidence because i didnt have any. it was the second last class of the day and the stress caused me to half ass the last class of the day and i ended up with a 1 digit grade in the last class. i didn't really care at that point and i still dont. i still wish death upon him for emotionally crippling me which has ruined my will to feel motivated.
I went to see the meaning of simp and realised i'm one
Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad all the time, but it would hurt less if I could talk to someone without feeling guilty for letting my feelings out afterwards. Constantly thinking "you said to much, you said to much, you said to much".
when i think about Rose is hurts too much i feel pain inside so much
Sometimes I don't feel like I will make it through the day.
Bf and me had a double date with my friend and her bf. I hadn't seen her in ages so was looking forward to it. My bf agreed to it last week and whenever we talked about it he was cool with going. Fast forward to today, an hour or so before we are to meet them and he keeps pulling a pissed off expression. I question him on it, he says that he's not sure about going, he said that he didn't want to go to it and that he doesn't even want to talk or chat, socialise with them. I tell him to decide what he's doing because I don't want to force him to go if he really doesn't want to, but still he won't properly make his mind up about what he's doing. Fast forward a bit we're literally on the way to meet them at this point and he still won't make up his mind, even though I've repeatedly asked him. Finally I lose my shit because we're due to be meeting them in a few minutes, at this point, for this double date and he hasn't decided if he'll do it like he originally agreed to or if he'll leave before they come and I'll have to do it last minute on my own. I'm so annoyed that he's doing this to me - won't even make up his mind up and they were quite literally going to be there at any moment. I swore at him and yelled a bit, lost my shit just so annoyed by the messing around, he won't give me any straight answer or anything and they're going to be here literally any minute. At this point he still hasn't made his mind up if he will back out of this double date and has the check to be pissed that I'm pissed with him. Just as I lose my shit more at him, my friends come round the corner and see. Yep that was an awkward double date for me.
everytime I look at other happy families on the internet, I feel sad and have teary eyes and made me compare their family relations to my parents, in their picture there all happy,so close, so family oriented you name it. is this normal of what I feel?
need tomboy to own my slutty boiholes