I know I was the one who quit on us, without any explanations, we both has our flaws, me more than you, actually. And even you accepted mine, i could not accept yours. I moved on the next second after leaving you, and i am happy about the decision. But, whenever i am happy about something, i want to share it with you, when i'm sad i want to share it with you. I look around, searching for you, even though I know you are not there. I miss your green eyes. I miss our time together, when the world would stop just for us. I miss how i could escape from everything when i was with you. But it was just not enough... hope you are happy as well.
Why am I upset? Because I just sat and listened to you gush over that man. You know how I feel about you. And we both know that with our circumstances it isnt something we can do anything about. But that doesnt mean it doesnt hurt. I mean every word when I say for you to do what makes you happy. I know that right now that isnt me and will probably never be me. So go and be happy. I just... I cant always promise that I'll want to hear about it. I want you to be the happiest you can be. And with me or without, you deserve who ever can bring it to you. Just know I'm not upset at you or with you... it's nothing like that. I'm upset at the circumstances. I'm upset at the distance. Im upset at my feelings. But never with you.
I focused on the whispering of the trees. wolves and bombs, the trees said, and my stomach turned over. I felt unbalanced. Where, wolf? I thought madly. Whither wolf?
Many tymes I just don't know how to express my feelings and being misunderstood.
I'm incapable of having a relationship.
I hate living with my parents
i have a test in a few hours and i didn’t study for shit, i’m also behind all of my class work. i’m so fucking stressed and i would be able to handle this if my mental health was ok but nOoO
I have realized I dont not like toddlers after I had a child and now I'm not looking forward to my son being 3..
I wish I had enough friends- and a date- so I could throw a New Year's Eve party. Instead I'm going to watch the ball drop with a bottle of moscato in my hand.
I moved abroad about a year and a half ago and since then, and apart from wishing me a happy birthday one of my friends has not reached out to me the entire time and I haven't see her since. Within the first half a year or so of moving, when I would visit back home I'd ask her to hang out. I did this a couple of times but she's always had a reason not to and for the entire time since I've moved has never messaged me first apart from to wish me a happy birthday. So for the past year or so I've only reached out to her to wish her a happy birthday in return. I'm back in my home country for Xmas this year should I try asking her to hang out again or is the friendship over? I don't know.