I dont have friends at school and on the way home I just talk to myself, I am alone almost all day. My parents are at work until 8 pm and I spend all my time alone, it's really hard for me because I am an extroverted person. I think I start going crazy and I don't know what to do, I feel sad all the time because no one talks to me
I told one of my classmates that I liked him via messenger and he told me that he likes me too and we started talking o lot on messenger and we are too scared to talk to eachother because we think that our classmates would say bad things about it
I just finished a huge piece of coding for a college project, then my lecturer told me that they are using a different build of this software so in order to pass the class, I should start the whole thing from square one on one of the PCs in the classroom... I’m just gonna build some basic piece of cr*p because he didn’t even check how much goddamn quality work did I do in my first attempt. I’m just going straight for the pass, f*ck enthusiasm and extra effort.
I don't even know why I'm here. Like on this app. I feel so stupid, but I just really need to let it all out... I have really bad social anxiety and it's caused me to miss out on a lot of things, all I ever feel like doing is sitting in my room on my electronics. People make me really anxious. My social anxiety has also really affected my self esteem and my grades. Making me feel so depressed and alone. I've never told anyone how I truly felt, mostly because I'm afraid they won't understand or they'd end up judging me. It's really hard because I'm AWARE of how pathetic I sound, but I can't help but feel this way. Which makes it worse. It's come to the point where I'm genuinely SCARED to do anything any other normal person would be able to do! I'm scared of meeting new people, going to school, talking on the phone, talking to my teachers, ordering my food at a restaurant, buying something in a store, talking to my FAMILY/Friends... the list goes on. I'm to scared to ask for help... but these past 5 years for me have been hard and I don't think I can do it all alone anymore...
Immutable law of the universe: In the event of a group project, one person will contribute nothing, screw over everyone, and ditch last minute. I hope you fail this class, Christina. You suck
I'm worried about my son. He's not showing any drive. He's 7 and he just doesn't want to try. His little sister is eager to learn. Reading, gymnastics, skateboarding, everything. My won just can't seem to be made to bother. It reminds me of the worst parts of myself. Like his fear of failure has become a fear of trying. Kids who aren't as smart as him are surpassing him and I don't want him to waste his youth like I did.
shut the fuck up shannon
I'm studying for an exam and it feels like none of the info is staying in my head
I've always liked doing schoolwork just for fun. When I was little, I finished a math workbook over summer vacation just for fun. In geography class I finished the vocabulary for the book over Christmas break, like a dozen chapters worth. In college I reformatted a textbook made with Microsoft Word Processor because the conversion to Word 2013 made the formatting horrendous. I keep old textbooks from college in case I get in the mood to take some notes and copy vocabulary when I'm bored. And now I'm turning a style guide from a pdf into a powerpoint. The instructions in a long 24 page PDF is a lot of information to handle. I spaced out by page 5. So hopefully, it'll be easier to digest as a powerpoint. I'm making links to the PDF for more detailed information, the powerpoint is just the same information skimmed down. I don't think it's the retaining information part I like so much, I think I just like the repetitiveness. I like feeling like I'm getting my shit together. I like organizing information in a way that's easy for me to digest. If I learn something along the way, that's awesome.
I'm angry at my classmate. she and all the loudmouths she sits with weren't even able to complete our last assignment, I did, with extra and they act like I don't know anything yet they're the ppl always kissing this one or that ones ass for extra help. she's dumb and thinks it's cute