I am going to university but at the same time I'm not going. What I mean is: I'm enlisted, but never actually go there unless I have to in order to not get kicked out. The reason isn't that I'm lazy, it's because I noticed that my major is absolutely not what I want to do, but I just don't have a plan B. I'm trying to find another career option, but nothing seems suitable, and slowly I'm panicking because I can only keep this going for one more semester.
Saw something that reminded me of this, snd now I need to rant. A year ago, I was in a physics 2 class in college. We were assigned a group project that we had to do with the people at our tables. At my table there was my best friend and two boys. The project was building a little model house and wiring it up with lights and a motor. Cool okay, we can do this. My best friend and I said we'd do all of the creative work if the boys would start on the wiring. We would help them once all the creative shit was done. So after a weekend and a couple days of the week, my friend and I had the entire creative portion done. The boys still didn't have anything done on the wiring. So as we sat in class that day with it being a day to work on the project, we forced them to start on the wiring. After about 30 minutes, them giving up, me shoving diagrams of how to do it at them, and them not doing shit, I took over. In about 5 minutes, I had the first circuit hooked up. So I said screw it, my friend and I will do the wiring if the boys will do the paperwork. My friend and I take the next two class periods to finish all of the wiring. Now it's the tuseday before this project is due on Thursday(at 9am). We all agree to meet at 8 tgat thursday morning finish up any small last minute details. I made it clear, I needed the boys to have their parts finished before we met. They didnt. They hadn't done anything. So I'm sitting there with one of the boys as we're waiting on the other. The other was supposed to make the drawing of the house showing all the circuits and all the other parts we were supposed to have. "So did he do it?" The other guy looks at me and shrugs. "I told him to, but didn't get a reply." "Okay, so do it." He sits there. I get back to work on the calculations they were supposed to do. "So do we have the drawing yet?" He goes wide eyed at my question. "Haven't heard from him yet." I grit my teeth and glare at him. "Then get out a peice of paper and. Do. It." He scrambles to get a peice of paper like he's worried I about to hit him. Other guy finally shows up. I pass him one of my calculations. "Rewrite this so it's neater. We're being graded on neatness." About 20 minutes later, we're in the classroom now, rushing to finish (well I am) and I ask him for the 3rd time if he's finished rewriting that. He looks at me and goes "Oh, you wanted me to do that?" At this point, I'm shaking in anger and I'm very close to punching him. Note,I never get this pissed at anyone. I practically yell "Yes! That's why I asked you to do it 3 times!" My best friend (who recently got there from her previous class, she couldn't meet early but met with me before her first class and passed off the needed materials) told me to calm down. She's all for "bitch at them!! Tell them off!" She never tells anyone to calm down. And when it came time to present the project(our teacher snd the other teacher of the physic classes came to each group individually) I sat back and didn't say a damn thing. I let the boys flounder and try and to explain shit they hadn't done. And then later explained everything to my teaher. Never found out the boys' final grade, but I got an A. And on the next project, I had to work with them again(had no choice), they got their work to me a couple days before the deadline I gave them. They did everything I asked them to. They pulled their weight and then some. So moral of the story kids: be a decent fucking group partner, or pull double your weight next time to try and fix your fucked up grade.
Today I realized that the past year was the first year since 5th grade that I wasn't mostly tired. Getting out of school was definitely the best that could happen to my body.
I'm a straight A's student but I hate some teachers at my school.
My English teacher asked me to read a passage and I pronounced 'red' instead of 'read'. She said i pronounced it wrong, 'red' is for the colour. I then told her that the past tense of 'read' is pronounced as 'red'. The look on her face was priceless!
When I was in elementary school there was this cubby that belonged to this kid, and it had an ant infestation. I was 8 or 9 and one of the other kids dared me to eat an ant. So I did. But I didn't just stop at one. I ate ant after ant while the class gathered around me, chanting my name. I ate half of that cubbyhole colony. I was a true hero that day.
I didn't go to school today cuz I couldn't find my uniform. My teacher is going to punish me tomorrow 😅
I hate myself for hate everything that i do
Have you ever been angry about how much bullshit teachers interpret into books and also expect you to interpret? Let me tell you a little story. We had to read a book for school, and of course analyzed every detail. The teacher even had a booklet - actually even thicker than the actual novel - that was published as a help for schools to analyze the novel. A lot of stupid crap, like "the author keeps mentioning black crows as a metaphor for the depression of the main character's mother". A little later, I got to meet the author - my mom works for a publisher and worked on one of the author's recently published books. I got to chat with him for a while and asked him about all this stuff we had to interpret in his book. He laughed about most of it, saying it had a totally different meaning or none at all. He said he simply put the crows in there because the story happens in fall and that's when you see a lot of crows.
I am going to write an exam in a few hours that I totally forgot about, hence I didn't study at all. I went through the learning material and realized that it's physically impossible to learn enough to pass in the remaining time. (Unfortunately, I didn't attend many classes because I thought there was no exam.) Now I don't know if I should try it anyway and hope for a miracle, or if I should just not go - it would be really embarassing for me to sit there doing nothing the whole time, I've got social anxiety and think people judge me for that. A really bad fear, otherwise I wouldn't even consider not going. On the other hand, I'm afraid that it's worse if I don't attend at all, like that I'll not just get a 0 but fail the whole class or something...