there's this guy named Geo in my Robotics club and he's so cool and nice and stuff and I feel flustered when I'm around him and I hate it since I've never felt this way but he didn't seem interested or dose he even wanna talk to me because I've been nothing but a fuckin asshole and now I just hate myself
Sometimes I wish I had a fake hot boyfriend to cuddle with and do smexy things with and he'd just be the perfect guy who'd know everything about me I mean "Everything" if you know what you mean
i want to be better and cooler for this guy and I want us to be friends but I can tell that he didn't wanna talk to me anymore and he ingores and tries to avoid me so I'm pretty sure , I can respect his choice to not talk to me and I can understand iv been a asshole and I'm trying to get better but I still insult him all the time and it's hard so I'll just leave him alone
So I got grant and now I feel like I don't deserve it. Like imposter syndrome or something. Everything I said in the application was real. Those are my grades, my goals, my life story. It's all true. It just feels weird to be handed free money. Like I don't deserve it.
I wrote something really embarrassing as my high school year book quote (I can't really say here what it is because it requires a long ass backstory). I know it's irrational, but I think about it almost every week and feel really bad about it. I always imagine that some people from school are coming together, look at our year book for good memories, read my quote and laugh about me. We're having a reunion soon and I'm thinking about not going because I know that our quotes will be brought up, and I don't know if I can handle this. (I did have issues with being bullied, in case you can't already tell...)
i hate how everyone around my age is... so dumb? I mean everyone like parties and going to amusement parks but I hate those things, it's too loud, to many people and kids are just everywhere? plus why do people even like kids? I can relate in certain areas but It still sucks
I am very competitive in class honestly. I will not deny the fact that I will do everything I can in order to bring some of my classmates down. It would go in the saying, "I am irreplacable when it comes to being on top." yeah that's true
this girl in my class said, "i don't even notice she's here half of the time", in relation to me. i am a naturally quiet person. i thought to myself, "i'd rather be someone people don't notice half of the time, then someone people wish they didn't notice". it's all a matter of perspective, but this girl is very suggestive in almost everything she does, and she has been known to betray her closest friends. that's all.
I like my English teacher and he barely looks at me I bought him a gift for the end of the year and I don't know if I should give him I feel a bit silly
I am infinitely afraid of not being good enough. I want to ask my thesis supervisor if he actually thinks I'm worth the while or if he believes in me but I'm afraid he will laugh of me or tell me I'm not.